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no im prescribed 100mg or 200mg as i need. but i took an extra hundred because this trazedone didnt work for a month. it miraculously did last night but turned out to be too much.

its ok. i picked up my ambien today though.

Yeah I wouldn't increase the traz dose without your pdoc...it has heart side effects so you might accidentally hurt yourself with more....

Sunshine - I have to take medication because I'm on a CTO.

she seemed alright i guess. take into consideration that im not entirely happy still with whats going on. this change of therapists and my therapist leaving. im still very sad.

So I was looking through some of my notepads of things I drew when I was little and have been coming across of some strange things...I was wondering if these could have been an indication of my schizophrenia even at that age? I had some weird things I drew and some poems that made no sense even for a kid,here I will write one out its a little hard to read though so I may miss a word or two. There once was a lady named scuzzle patootoo she rode on the dragon in the deep blue The people all watched and smiled at the little child she had two faces one was black and one was gold she liked kitties and puppies and mold and she liked to eat grape candy she liked to pick dandy lions and play with clothing irons there is more written but I cant read it all some of it had what looks like juice spilled and stained over it... but I think it is really weird..

Yeah I wouldn't increase the traz dose without your pdoc...it has heart side effects so you might accidentally hurt yourself with more....

So I adore my cat tiger but he can be a brat. He's gotten into knocking the garbage over during the night. Then it's a mess every morning. I put it up on the counter but my son forgets and puts it back down. Ugh...

On another note, I've decided to name the kitten Coal, but now I'm not sure, lol. Idk, I like shadow and panther too. Josh is fine with all of them. Anybody else have any suggestions. He's a little adorable black kitten. I'm really excited, lol.

I have three black cats, their names are Tippy(white tip at the end of her tail hehe), Jasper, and Alastor.

Cool names! Did u know that black cats are the least adopted cats? Isn't that ridiculous....That's why I chose him. My sisters told me that.

Yeah I've heard that, I think that's totally ridiculous. My cats are the sweetest things ever, they don't ever scratch or bite or anything. They're just ****ing adorable. Hahahaha.

ugh why am i still single

I know, u could easily get a bf. How is okcupid going?


Have u started wearing makeup again. That always makes me feel better. It's fun to mess around with colors too.

Right on! Yeah it's bc of superstition and religion, smh...ridiculous...I looked it up. And black male cats are less adopted than black female cats.

I'm not knocking anybody that's religious.

Oh I like the name Hendrix too, but my son doesn't like it. Name him after a great guitarist.

Yeah, pffft. So ridiculous. Alastor sleeps in my room all the time and purrs on my lap all the time, how threatening... HAHAHAHAHA.

i feel extremely disturbed today. idk whats going on but i feel like im about to flip out

I know, right? They are just innocent animals. I have kinda a funny story. When my son was like 8 he made this friend. Well everything was going fine and one day the friends mother came over. I was folding clothes, and Josh had some Harry Potter boxers. She was like, u let your son watch Harry Potter? I was like yeah. Well she abruptly left. Totally judged us and wouldn't let her son play with my son anymore.

Well one day we go to the pool. She gets up to leave bc we came. I told her, hey I have black cats and at night we get together and hold seances. She was so scared...it was so funny though, lol.

On another note, I've decided to name the kitten Coal, but now I'm not sure, lol. Idk, I like shadow and panther too. Josh is fine with all of them. Anybody else have any suggestions. He's a little adorable black kitten. I'm really excited, lol.