Roll Call 59

On time I had a check that didn't show up on time and I was mad.

Thanks guys. They're tearing up the street outside AGAIN and the truck claimed they made an attempt to deliver - the final attempt - and he really didn't. He could have come after 4 when they'd have been gone. Now I have to figure out how I'm going to get it.

evening guys.

what are you all up to?

sorry some of you are struggling.
im thinking of not taking my AP for awhile to get my creativity and intellectualism back.

I'm just sitting here play a game called hearthstone on my boyfriends computer. What're you up to?

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I'm watching Catfish on TV. Bad TV night.

Are you kidding me?? I guess you guys don't have HIPAA laws. I mean here, you can get put in prison for that kind of behavior. (medical professionals discussing patients in an identifiable way.) I work in health care, at a hospital, and we have to be uber careful about even mentioning a patient's case with only gender and age! I'm in a specific department, and even with only that someone else could figure out what patient I was talking about. I'm just floored that nurses can discuss patients at a hair salon!

Historically, you deteriorate badly enough that no amount of creativity and intellectualism is enough to rise above the deterioration.

Better to be stable, I would think.

People ignore HIPPA all the time. That's why I keep lots of my thoughts to myself and not tell my doctor.

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i suppose your right

my tuition for fall classes was supposed to be paid today by financial aid but wasnt. idk whats going on. im worried

dude thats like my favorite show even though its gotten so fake now i cant stop watching it.... i am fascinated

maybe you can call the school and ask about it?

i worked today and i hated it... im kinda developing this hatred for the store and people in general. like i feel like a hateful person. if someone is acting dumb i just cant sometimes. sometimes i feel like a sociopath but i know im not. but truly, sometimes i just dont like people at all. but i have to fake it and smile and try to look genuine . guys i am not a smiley person in real life, so its hard to make it look real. then i come home and feel like i faked something for 5 hours, like faked my life. and its weird

It's only a feeling you sometimes have. This is the first time I ever saw you mention it, so I'd think you probably don't even feel like that very often. And yesterday you were mentioning how much your coworkers like you and you feel like you actually belong there, so...

So you're not a sociopath of course, and you don't fake it 90% (or whatever majority) of the time. Please don't feel weird.

thanks.. my coworkers are ok... im talking about customers mainly. im a shy person and i really have had to come out of my shell to work at this job. when i first started most everyone thought i was a ***** because i wouldnt talk to them but honestly i was too scared. these days i can talk to my coworkers and enjoy working with some of them. but customers, i guess when im in a bad mood or dont want to be there i just hate them so much, and i dont even ****ign know them or anything about their lives, i just hate that theyre there. i hate that theyre talking to me and asking where this is or it says waiting on you.. or i want a paper bag inside of a plastic bag!!! i know its horrible , i try so hard not to show it but sometimes i do. i feel like its coming out more now and im having a harder time faking it

It's all part of having to work with the public. Some days you'll feel like that. I would feel like that everyday and there's no way I could do that! I think your abilities are amazing.

No doubt it happens, but as a health care professional, I can tell you that it is monitored and as one of 13,000 employees at my hospital, I don't know anyone who is casual about it. It is taken very seriously. And unless it is a first time offense, mild, unintentional, and caused no harm - you would easily get fired. Doctors lose privileges. It's just not worth it to not pay close attention. And talking about patients in a hair salon - omg - can you imagine? Nurse "A" tells a stylist about a patient. Then the stylist tells others at the salon. Then Nurse "B" comes in who is asked about it. Nurse "B" reports it, and Nurse "A" is in serious big trouble - especially with the prosecutor of these kinds of crimes.

It's up to you whether you trust the law to protect you, but I can promise you that it does NOT happen "all the time." Health care professionals have too much to lose if they are careless. And unless you work in health care - you might not really be aware of how big of a deal it is in our world. Seriously.

Thanks. Soz for the bin laden avatar btw.

Giving up for me means standing back up eventually.

I can't write anything when my motivation is this low. I will figure it out eventually.

That doesn't stop hospital employees from ganging up on a patient while they're in the ER. That happened to me, it was my worst nightmare literally.

What do you mean by ganging up? And I agree... HIPAA laws don't regulate whether a patient is treated competently and compassionately. I am sorry you were treated badly. That should not happen to anyone.

One of the times I was in the ER in 2013 when I was in acute benzo withdrawal, I was psychologically tortured (this isn't a delusion) by almost every employee in the ER before they discharged me. I could tell you in pm what they did but I don't want to say it here.

And the time I went in a couple days later when I was admitted to the psych ward a nurse stuck a needle in my muscle and it hurt like hell and I yelped "you hurt me" and she laughed and started mimicking the way I said it and laughing.

a lot of psych wards are awful with the poorly trained staff. ive been to a lot. but i also found some cool nurses/techs there sometimes

The psych ward was fine. Everything bad that happened there happened in the ER.

I do not discount what you are saying, but the acute benzo withdrawal syndrome itself is intense and torturous. Benzo withdrawal tends to accentuate everything the patient experiences (I.e. touch feels like being slapped). It sounds like you had an awful experience and I really am sorry that you went through all that.

It was a nightmare, and the ER experience was indescribably horrific. Thanks but I still get the feeling you don't believe me.

ETA: and what you wrote seems condescending.