Roll Call 60

I'm obsessed with my weight. I am overweight.

I weigh myself often.

I try to only eat healthy like raw spinach leaves.

When I don't eat healthy or too much, I have a urge to throw it up because I feel disgusted.

Best of luck with it. I know this isn't the best time to be doing it as you've enough on your plate with trying to find a new service but just go for it and try to stay positive. And most importantly... keep us updated

I weigh myself constantly and feel like it's ocd. I can't leave the bathroom without checking.
If you're trying to diet, eating healthy isn't ocd. At least I don't think so.
And as for feeling disgusted, that sounds more psychological.
Do you have a T? If so, talk to them about it. Or your case worker.

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I'm looking for pro bono malpractice lawyers.

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hey u can ask me anything abt this. i sued my former T for malpractice.

I'm writing this note to read to my doctor tomorrow. Might be a bit TMI on my part but I just want to hear what you guys think.

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I don’t know where to start, oh no wait... yeah I do, I’ll start here. I’ll start here with the main issue that we’ve all heard of at this stage, the chip in my arm. Yes, there’s an RFID chip lodged into my right arm. I though it was in my head, and it still could well be as I was shown the MRI scan results and couldn’t understand it in the slightest. So that was pointless. The reason why I believe it’s now in my arm (not that it’s moved) is because I’m hearing voices every day for the past number of years that are telling me these things. They are quite believable, they’ve set up the chip and are monitoring me closely. I believe I’ve had this chip in my arm or head or wherever it is since I was a teen and it’s only after activating itself now, well now being two years ago. Remember, 2 years ago, before you met me and my life was ****ing perfect. Yeah well now that that’s all gone, you know, my future we’re going through all the ‘plans’. Yes ‘plans’.

The current plan is that I do DBT and when I get distressed I take a concoction of antipsychotics to handle those symptoms. This practice simply does not work as antipsychotics are Satan’s poison and they turn me into a completely different person. I took the chlorpromazine I was prescribed and not one member of my family could wake me for hours, I was out for the shot! I also took three going to an appointment last week and don’t remember a single thing. My parents had to come and collect me I was so out of it. I mean in my defence, it did say take 1 three times a day, and I did that, I took 1 at 1 point of the day and then another and then another. All at different points of the day. I wasn’t expecting to be turned into a blabbering maniac looking for whatever it is blabbering maniacs look for.

So yeah I have a chip in my arm and these people have been threatening me through the chip (I can hear their voices through the chip). They said if I didn’t kill my family, horrible things would happen to me. Now obviously I’m not going to kill my family but now I’m afraid of the coming after me, so I’ve began to carry a knife. Even if it’s not self defence I will go to prison to get rid of these people who are haunting me, following me, making my life a living hell. There will be no negotiations with these people as they are not citizens they are plain clothed soldiers working for some higher power that we’ll never see. So I have my knife for self defence and I am scared, the fear I feel is unbelievable. They’ve been quiet these last two weeks but I’m just waiting for an order to come in at any time. I wish I knew who they where, I would murder every last one of them. They have destroyed my life and continue to do so.

Also YouTube video’s have started communicating with me, this is probably totally normal, but I feel like they’re being made for me. Like one of them wants me to shave my head. They’re focused at me and some of the people are talking to me. This has never happened before.

So yeah, the real only plan is DBT and medication. I’m not taking oral medication because bad things happen when I do that. I’m on the depot which is fine. Apparently I’m very resistant to this plan but I’m doing the DBT and taking the depot what more do you want from my end?

I would like a bit of support from you guys, I cut my leg really bad last week and I couldn’t even bring myself to go in and get it sutured in A&E the last reg I seen in there ‘cornelia’ or whatever her name was, was just the coldest person I’ve ever met and sent me back onto the streets late at night with no lift sorted or nothing. Now I’m sitting here with a dodgy leg that wont heal because that service is so bad.

Regards,

What did you sue him for? And what happened after you sued your former t? If you don't mind me asking.

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I'm suing my doctor. Legally, it's considered abandonment and neglect.

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Not saying you shouldn't do this, but you might be better off concentrating right now on finding a new doctor. And then pursue this if you want to after that.

I was enjoying a lovely cover of Elvis Presley on the ukulele that soem guy did and I thought, " Okay youtube show me more of this guy" and his next music video had him cut in half with blood and his guts hanging out





Thanks, youtube

Now I am feeling creeped out and it feels like the message for me to hurt myself is getting stronger, fast traffic is easy to find


I wish youtube had trigger warnings

Yeah I realized that in talking about people not using triggers, I didn't even use a trigger warning so I had to edit my post, sorry guys



Was it a graphic article?! I hate that about the news, I avoid at all costs because I don't like feeling tigggered

It really makes me feel gross seeing disturbing things online, why do people think these things are okay?

What if a war veteran saw that music video and s/he witnessed people in war get those injuries? That could trigger horrible flashbacks for him/her.


We should petition for YouTube to have trigger warning or make an app for people with mental illness to avoid triggering viseo

You guys, there's a point at which this starts to get crazy. You could live in a bubble too.