Roll Call 60

i think meds have made me more outgoing actually. not kidding. thats a huge surprise.

What if they say okay on the benzo but not the AP?

I think that's a great idea. Plus... if you go to the hospital, you can sign a release for your records to be transferred to them. They will have a much easier time getting a response from her. That may solve your problem.

How about not putting a time limit on it? How about tapering off when it is deemed appropriate and workable? I want to see you continue to succeed like you're doing in school. The AP keeps you stable enough to keep succeeding. So being on or off meds is not the important thing. The important thing is that you are at your best functioning self.

Not for very long. A1 is better off tapering off now if possible with another script if she can get it. If she can't get it, she's better off going through the withdrawals now while she's otherwise healthy. No point in putting it off to a time when it will be even worse.

thats most likely what theyll say. i eventually have to taper off the benzo. and like chickenfoot said what happened to A18 i dont want that to happen to me.

idk...

i see my therapist twice more before i see my psychiatrist. ill tell her.

maybe i shouldnt taper off any because she might taper off the benzo first before the AP. i cant have her tapering off the benzo before the AP. they need to come off at the SAME TIME. or at least AP first. idk. because the benzo is really the one holding me up i believe.

true. i just wanted to answer the question appropriately.

i take ap prns but i also take them regularly. they help me

i came to my moms . i had a rough day

the voices were telling me awful things about my T and it really disturbed me and messed me up

I'm just accepting that I'll never be able to keep up with this forum. Anyway, it's a white budgie. He's so cute, and it's comforting to pet him. He's afraid of me though.

I decided to start learning French. I'm not very good at it, but it's a really good distraction from the other things. Hard to have a bad episode when I'm learning my numbers in another language.

But if she is treatment resistant, and the benzo is the only thing keeping her stable, then that may be the only way for her to go. What my post was addressing, is a way to get the records that would document her treatment resistance so the hospital could see the legitimacy of her having no other recourse than the benzo.

.5 seems like a really low dose that they wouldn't object to.

Yes, I know. The sad truth though is that they are moving more and more towards cutting people off benzos, no matter how needed. At some point she's going to be in this situation again. Doctors don't care how much you need the benzos or why. It's an administrative movement to get people off of them, no matter who. So is it better for her to stay on them another year or two and then have to get off of them, or get off of them now?

If A1 can get her medical records to the doctor and he will prescribe benzos, that's her decision to make. She's going to have to come off them at some point - I bet my life on that. It's her decision whether that's now, or at some point down the line after she's been on them even longer.

ody said rule #1 dont put nudes on your phone. i need to learn that rule kinda. more like dont look up porn on your phone for ME. im kinda breaking this rule already by typing this word into my phone using tapatalk on my phone. also i got my browser on private browsing mode. so it never saves my info or search history. but i do that so every knows that i dont look up schizophrenia and other weird stuff. etc pr0n. mental health stuff. weird bodily issues. psych central. my private info. my friends stuff on here and real life. etc

It's so frustrating when you're trying to explain what's going on in your head to people that don't want to get it!

I'm craving tiramisu, will have to make some sometime

I know people who have been on my same dose for 15+ years. It's the only thing that helps me. I don't care that it's addictive. I don't abuse it or see how anyone can get any sort of "high" from them. It never has done anything but help me not freak out when my voices are tormenting me and I can't handle it. Or panic attacks. They're my life saver. I feel like I'm going to turn into a terrified recluse and my health (psychically and mentally) will decline at a very rapid pace. Do I should like a drug seeker if all I want is my refill so I can stay calm? I feel like doctors just dismiss me as a drug seeker but they don't have the medical files for proof. I have my webMD code so doctors can log in and see that I've been taking benzos since 2011. That it's not just a simple withdrawal process. I'm so terrified of how it feels that I'm getting more and more suicidal.

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Newtus ,
I had not being here in a while , and when I came back I noticed a difference in you. A good thing it was. I read you are now more commited to meds , and it make's sense to me. If I were you I'd leave it a while in terms of meds and actually test how far you can go interms of getting back all you lost.

crikey 'Veteran Member' has appeared on my status. what does that mean? is it the length of time ,ive been here or what.

Pretty sure it's account length time.

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Those titles are based on your post count... your a 'Veteran Member' now you've reached 500 posts.

You'll find more info on that here.

I will be so supeised if I ever make it to 1k posts!
For some reason o run out of things to say on forums after a certain amount of posts and then from there I just feel like useless space

TMI... for the boys especially! Not really a trigger!