Roll Call 60

I'm so sorry to hear this!
That is so terrible. I'm so sorry. I wish there was more I could do or say to help.

im so sorry bluebird.
are they allowing you to keep the grade from passing the class?

these meds have made me more outgoing or made me more willing to talk and less reserved. idk why. or how. i just spent 2 hours on the phone with my mom. shes pissed cause she didnt want to talk that much. now i know why shes pissed at me for bothering her so much. cuz i been talking to her so much!

im still reserved deep down and quiet. even up front i am. but to the people i already know i talk their heads off. i can spend hours on skype and on the phone. even deep down idk why. its these meds or recovery or something.

I'm so happy. Ha! Martha (the office assistant) talked to Garrett (my boyfriend) on my behalf and she said she would talk to pinky (my doctor) to accept my refill request when we mentioned having a lawyer. That gives me a months extra time to find a doctor.

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Yes, thankfully


I am just going to use my free time studying Italian until I can start college again. It doesn't hurt to learn a second language

If you have a smart phone, there's a free app called duolingo. It's really easy to learn. It's like Rosetta Stone but free.

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Awesome! I'll definitely check that out

I have used duolingo on the ocomputer before!
It's a good app, I like it. I've been using it to hone u p on my French!

That's terrible news Blue bird, I'm sorry.

Just back from a few drinks with a friend who I don't see much, because she lives in another city. But now she's moving to China! Which is mental so I won't get to see her at all... and now that I can't have her... I want her! (That's a Zoolander reference). Anyway, it was great to catch up and bid farewell for another time! I'm kinda drunk too! Good times!

Sorry to hear about your classes Blue_Bird. I'm in a similar position so I feels ya! It sucks to feck up and have to literally pay for it!

so the voices are gone, i think. on sunday they started telling me that my T was going to rape me on tuesday during our session. they said a lot of horrible awful things like that about T. i didnt know how to get them to stop and it was terribly upsetting to me. so i went to my moms house so i wasnt alone. i kept taking prns and they eventually helped and now they havent said anything to me today. i felt really disturbed by them telling me he was going to rape me, and i thought it was real. but now i know they were lying and trying to get me to stop seeing T and to not trust him anymore.

i emailed T today about what they said to me about him. i felt nervous telling him that. he didnt respond so i texted him a few min ago asking if he was offended. he said no hes not offended and that he understands. and that hes glad they are gone. i am very glad too.

i am going to have to pay a lot more attention when i am packing my medicines in my strips. this is the 2nd time this has happened and it had devastating consequences.

whats everyone up to tonight?

Just listening to some cheesy dance music having a drink. It's nice actually. Being drunk kind of excludes it really... technically... but I believe I'm being very mindful right now. Listening to music, being here, present, in the now. I'm totally being kicking mindfulness'es arse right now!

What are you up to newtus?

I want a margarita, the one I had the other day was great!

i just had Ramen and now am vaping and watching Bachelor In Paradise on ABC. the USA people here will know what im talking about. have you guys heard of Bachelor In Paradise? its a spin off of The Bachelor.

I'm not bothered Googling, but are they those frozen cocktail type things?

Is ramen like ramen noodles? If so, I totally just had some curry ones of those an hour ago!

washing my new clothes and just took a shower. prob going to take my meds soon. gotta get up early to see T tomorrow

I'm having some anxiety and thinking about eating my second sandwich half.

Yeah they can be frozen or not frozen, they're really delicious

Gonna try me one of them, that looks deadly!

Do yall mind if I share something real quick?

I don't like margaritas, haha. I don't really know why not, I just don't.

I've felt jittery all day. I just took some xanax and it's helping.

I might see my friend tonight. I asked him to come over for tea. He may not, though. He wasn't feeling well and I don't think he was too keen on leaving his house. It will be interesting to see if he comes.

yea its ramen noodles.