Safe Place 2

Everyone wants me to take meds.

I refuse.

Someone encouraged me, and huged me.

I feel better.

Things stoped insulting me and telling me to kill myself.

That's all I need. Humanity. Safe place.

Safe people.

My sisters getting kicked out of her house. I fell apart in front of T. I don't know what to do

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Do you get along with your sister? What if you asked your roommate if it's OK to let her stay with you guys for up to one month?

ETA, while she looks for a new place.

Oops, or can your sister stay with your mom?

She can't stay with me. She is acutely psychotic. I don't trust her. My mom fears for her own safety. My mom has been a psychiatric nurse for a long time. She's cared for patients that have killed their own mothers in psychosis. My sister exhibits hostile behavior towards my mom and we think she hears my moms voice. I don't know what's gonna happen...

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Any hope of getting your sister admitted to the hospital? You could tell the hospital that she's suicidal? It's a difficult situation.

If you contact the state social workers (police liaison) to come and assess your sister, the social worker can commit her.

That's what happened this past hospital visit. The social worker came just before I was going to get into a car with a strange man I didn't know, who was going to take me to a hospital in a different state. She may have saved my life.

How do I figure out if they have that in my state? I am in North carolina

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Try calling 211. Hopefully that will work.

It took me almost a minute to remember why I went inpatient in April. I'm not sure whether that's due to trauma or dementia.

The only thing keeping the bad neighbors in check is to remind them that I caught him red handed, in my apartment without my permission.

I'm not sure what the expiration date is, on reporting something like that. Plus, he did help me carrying up my bags, which I would never have been able to do, so I'm still grateful for that, although it was his fault for putting me in the hospital in the first place.

I went to pdoc and talked to him.

He said he won't push medication. And he won't inpatient me.

That's good.

I acepted to go therapy.

I'm getting more freaked out by the shadows in my left eye/field of vision. When I went to my retina specialist last year, they said I was OK and that I should go to the opthalmologist to see what they say about the cataracts. Pretty sure they didn't expect it might take me a year.

Any way, it's been a rough year for my eyes. My right eye is not comfortable with any distance reading , and the left seems to have more new ones. More stable shadows, and maybe higher pressure.

I'm really worried and I need to go asap.

Thank you for the hugs and birthday wishes guys I really appreciate it as things are hard right now.

Hugs to all that need them

*Willow*

I hope things will get better for you soon, Willow!

does anyones head ever feel like a frozen pineapple

Frozen pineapple... no, but it was more like a cactus-head.

Whatever.

Anyones knows how to effectively comunicate with talkative entities?

They want to tell me something but I can't hear what. because there is something that don't allow them or me to talk about that.

No, mine feels like a cracked coconut. :

Looks like I'm back to "normal life" here. They seem to have given up on trying to kill me, in favor of blasting their crap again.

I really don't want to live here with these pos. Pos gets in my apartment and steals some of my things, and that day I'm forced to go to the hospital. I doubt if I can prove those things were stolen. But maybe the damned police can look at them for once.

I'm so lucky I found the old bottle of Cogentin! I called it in earlier, because I'm just about out of it, started panicking, looked with frantic anxiety in an older bag of rx, and found benztropine, almost a whole bottle!

This is an enormously lucky find because I need extra help at night with the horrible RLS, and I want my whole morning dose in the mornings because I've been too on edge lately without it.

On the plus side I've been sleeping for long stretches of time every night into day. On the minus side there could be cancer or something causing the exhaustion. I don't care that much for my own life. No matter when a person feels ready to go, i think there's a strong wish to "see what happens" in the world, right around the corner. (Even when I wasn't safe, i still had curiosity.)

But I don't want to cause the extreme suffering it would do to my loved ones. So I hope it isn't cancer, etc.

Maybe they could write down what they want you to know?

I just talk back (or whisper).
Today I had the worst nightmare EVER.
I dreamed I woke up in a psych ward, locked up, and there were drawings of my voices' bodies on the walls...but when they talked to me, they eere not friendly...they were downright creepy and spoke about me living forever with them (I have to say I love their world more than out here...much more)
Worst of all, what if it was prophetic? How long do we have left? Years? Months?
...Days?

I saw a dead crow while I was driving home. I have no idea how I made it back alive. It means it's the end of the world because crows can't die so if They've killed one off its bad news. The sky is dark and dangerous I don't know if They will do it instantly or let me suffer while no one believes me and then do it. I can't deal with this I thought it would happen eventually but why now. Maybe it's because I haven't been going to the park things have been going well and now this has happened. I don't know what to do I'm freaking out

They're already messing with me putting the word 'psychotic' on social media cos they know no one will believe me and that's what they'll call me

Ugh, the voices have been screaming at me literally all day. I'm listening to music trying to drown them out and it's not working. I'm scared.

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Hi Justme, how are you doing now? Is there anyone you could tell this to? : sadhug: