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Old Jul 24, 2016, 05:12 PM
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I am sorry for your lost About your aunt and uncle fighting, is there someone in the family that they both have respect for? Or is there someone in your family that you can trust? If there is, maybe you can share this issue with them. Coping with grief and lost is always hard, send you hugs.
Thank you And I talked to my Mom and my Grandma about my aunt and uncle, I just can'tt get it off my mind, it is bordering on delusional thinking for me right now, idk what to do...
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Old Jul 24, 2016, 06:01 PM
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Old Jul 24, 2016, 06:20 PM
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I'm in the middle of grief from my Grandpa passing, and I'm starting to hear voices again, idk what to do, I'm afraid to tell anyone out of fear of going to the hospital, I'm able to recognize they aren't real, but still Everytime I mention it I'm either dismissed by my therapist or threaten by my psychiatrist with hospital. And even though I'm on Medicaid Finding have a supplemental insurance to go with it yet, so I can't afford a hospital stay anyways... Idk I just needed this safe place to vent.

Plus I'm really paranoid that my uncle and aunt are going to start a giant fight at my Grandpa memorial service,xand could even have hidden guns and such idk, my uncle is talking about stealing my grandpa's ashes if he doesn't get what he wants, I'm scared they're going to steal everything that was my Grandpa and stuff. My paranoia is out of control, I didn't even want to go to the memorial service it is that bad, I'm going to go anyways, as In trying to keep the attention away from me and on my Grandpa, but this id how I feel. Frankly I'm scared, idk what to do about these thoughts or the voices right now... Ugh, sorry I hijacked the thread, since I'm only Bipolar, but you all may understand some of the things Im talking about...
Well, twelve said what I wanted to say, so just say hi to Micky for me and please keep him safe throughout this memorial service ordeal. Sorry that you've been having a rough time still, to be quite frank, I hope your medical support team will have more understanding of your situation, especially the pdoc of yours shouldn't be threating you with hospitalization, that sounds like a coercive tactic and very unprofessional, you could be stuck with the doctor, but there's no need to be stuck with bad attitude of not acknowledging patients needs, you say you addressed it to them like any good patients would do, hoping that things will turn around for good soon.
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Old Jul 24, 2016, 06:23 PM
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Old Jul 24, 2016, 06:33 PM
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Well, twelve said what I wanted to say, so just say hi to Micky for me and please keep him safe throughout this memorial service ordeal. Sorry that you've been having a rough time still, to be quite frank, I hope your medical support team will have more understanding of your situation, especially the pdoc of yours shouldn't be threating you with hospitalization, that sounds like a coercive tactic and very unprofessional, you could be stuck with the doctor, but there's no need to be stuck with bad attitude of not acknowledging patients needs, you say you addressed it to them like any good patients would do, hoping that things will turn around for good soon.
Thank you, and I'll say Hi to Mickey and keep him safe. I think my Dr does.have my best interest at heart, just she goes.about it the way, abrasive maybe is the word I'm looking for, but my therapist seems more.dismissive than my pdoc, my pdoc believes me at least I think she does, idk it's definitely in my chart I experience these symptoms. But I'm just in a bad state of mind right now, at least I can recognize that paranoid and neat delusional right now and that the voices aren't real. And I don't think it is as simple as a med adjustment or using my DBT skills that I'm only beginning to learn, I think I have to ride this out will the help of my treatment team...
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Old Jul 24, 2016, 09:13 PM
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Old Jul 25, 2016, 09:25 AM
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Old Jul 25, 2016, 12:42 PM
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I'm sorry, I must have been out of it. I usually write trigger on the top if it's triggering. Can't figure out how to use the trigger icons. Sorry again if I triggered you. I'll write trigger next time and try to figure out how to use the trigger icons. for you too.
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Old Jul 25, 2016, 12:47 PM
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Old Jul 25, 2016, 12:59 PM
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I'm sorry, I must have been out of it. I usually write trigger on the top if it's triggering. Can't figure out how to use the trigger icons. Sorry again if I triggered you. I'll write trigger next time and try to figure out how to use the trigger icons. for you too.
Thank you, usually I am okay with most of things, but I've been feeling unwell lately

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Still very paranoid, and hearing voices, trying to.distract myself.from them by listening to music, and posting/lurking around here, along with distracting myself from my urge to.SH...So.using my DBT skills again (the ones that I know, like.distraction and self.soothing) that I know, maybe this week I won't get lectured by my therapist...But they can only go.so.far, where as meds are.what is going to.help the voices, that's if I can get my meds refilled, if not I'm screwed...

And idk what to.do.for the paranoid (bordering on delusional) thinking, guess ground myself in reality and ride these thoughts out, at least I'm able to recognize it, but it is still distressing to me...
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Still very paranoid, and hearing voices, trying to.distract myself.from them by listening to music, and posting/lurking around here, along with distracting myself from my urge to.SH...So.using my DBT skills again (the ones that I know, like.distraction and self.soothing) that I know, maybe this week I won't get lectured by my therapist...But they can only go.so.far, where as meds are.what is going to.help the voices, that's if I can get my meds refilled, if not I'm screwed...

And idk what to.do.for the paranoid (bordering on delusional) thinking, guess ground myself in reality and ride these thoughts out, at least I'm able to recognize it, but it is still distressing to me...
I would tell your therapist all the things you are doing to try to distract yourself. That takes skill. I hope she supports you instead of lectures you.
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Okay ever since I posted the lemonade thing I've been really wanting lemonade. But I don't have any lemons. I'll have to buy some.
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o yea I feel safe, no jakes onto me or nuttin, I will karate chop 'em if they ever show up on my door.
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Well I went to the hospital for serious help and they put me in a stretcher and sent me off to the ghetto to a psychiatric rehabilitation center where the emphasis was on rehab and substance abuse. They didn't even have my prescribed drugs. The withdrawal... coming off Effexor is like coming off of heroine. It was HORRIBLE. The social worker there did NOTHING. The doctors weren't prepared for someone like me at all. I said **** it and left, and when I got home I took my meds as soon as possible, then I threw up. That place was useless. I still need a lot of help. I have a timeframe, a plan and a method. I just don't give a **** anymore. Whats the point of life if you can't feel ANYTHING. No emotion whatsoever. I just don't care. I'm sticking to my time frame as long as I don't get the help need. I tried.
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Well I went to the hospital for serious help and they put me in a stretcher and sent me off to the ghetto to a psychiatric rehabilitation center where the emphasis was on rehab and substance abuse. They didn't even have my prescribed drugs. The withdrawal... coming off Effexor is like coming off of heroine. It was HORRIBLE. The social worker there did NOTHING. The doctors weren't prepared for someone like me at all. I said **** it and left, and when I got home I took my meds as soon as possible, then I threw up. That place was useless. I still need a lot of help. I have a timeframe, a plan and a method. I just don't give a **** anymore. Whats the point of life if you can't feel ANYTHING. No emotion whatsoever. I just don't care. I'm sticking to my time frame as long as I don't get the help need. I tried.
That sounds horrible. I'm so sorry you went through that. Please don't use your time frame, etc. Things can get better at any time.
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Well I went to the hospital for serious help and they put me in a stretcher and sent me off to the ghetto to a psychiatric rehabilitation center where the emphasis was on rehab and substance abuse. They didn't even have my prescribed drugs. The withdrawal... coming off Effexor is like coming off of heroine. It was HORRIBLE. The social worker there did NOTHING. The doctors weren't prepared for someone like me at all. I said **** it and left, and when I got home I took my meds as soon as possible, then I threw up. That place was useless. I still need a lot of help. I have a timeframe, a plan and a method. I just don't give a **** anymore. Whats the point of life if you can't feel ANYTHING. No emotion whatsoever. I just don't care. I'm sticking to my time frame as long as I don't get the help need. I tried.

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I NEED HELP! My anxiety and depression are through the roof. i'm getting the SI's bad. I don't know what to do! I tried to get help and it failed miserably. ARGH! I'm so sick of just surviving. I'm not going to keep on going on like this.
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If you are having SI then you should go to the er. They should be able to help you. I hope you get the help you need.

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