Roll Call #79

I'm having a really rough week.

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to those that need it.

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I had to postpone my pdoc because of my knees. I'm worried he won't understand, and that he'll fire me.

So much work to do and I'm wore out!!! Need sleep but have to get college work done for tomorrow! Arghhh!

Hugs to all that are struggling, I know my difficulties aren't major like some of you guys.

Hi everyone I just wanted to check in and let you all know I am doing much better
I had to get things in order with my mind... but now I am feeling ''normal'' as I may/
I know it's been a while!.... I still experience mild hallucinations, problems speaking straight
and drops in moodlessness followed by mild noises. I hear like beeping, someone speaking
or laughing,.. and far away noises like machinery that aren't there but all very mild .
I am no longer taking medication though... it's as if I haven't really needed it I can operate much better without it I think. And it was making me sick and I was waking up in the middle of the night gasping for air and couldn't sleep because it felt like my body was on fire.... If my symptoms ever get worse enough I will take it again though. I am working I am attending college still I am working towards a life career. I am married now. and I have found religion.... so I think things are going better for me now. I am more stable. Just wanted to share in case anyone missed me or was worried about me! ALSO I am losing weight because I gained a lot...

*Hugs*.......

This jaw clamping shut involuntarily is scaring the crap out of me.

The RLS has been getting so bad I'm actually taking half of my morning dose of Cogentin to save for extra at night. But I think doing that is messing up with the tongue Biting involuntarily. A few minutes ago I came close to Biting off my tongue, and it happened a few times earlier too.

I need to call in my script and I need the doses raised but just by coincidence I had to reschedule my appointment for July because I'm terrified of the stairs here (because I fell on the stairs coming back from the last time I was there and now I have an especially worse phobia of the damned stairs) but I don't want to say that because I don't want to chance him committing me now too.

What a stupid situation I've gotten myself into. Maybe I should try getting drunk and see if I'm still afraid. I don't know what the h to do.

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Hahaha! Maybe, but at least it wouldn't freak me out so badly if I fell off the stairs again.

Oh, because my teeth are totally messed up now. I have an overbite and my tongue just doesn't fit in the lower teeth.

It sure is quiet around here lately.

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Totally....

I'm so ****ing sick of people. There's someone I really want to tell off at the moment but I figure it's not worth the emotional meltdown that would ensue if I did this revolutionary thing called telling the truth.

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It's obviously me for being a psychonaut

I put trigger for a reason ...

i told my manager i wanna live in an underground cave where no one will bother me

Morning folks,

I had a good time down with my parents. Went around the Botanic Gardens that had tropical butterflies in one of their greenhouses that was pretty cool. Got some photos I'm meaning to put in the little thread of happiness soon...

However... caught some lurgy whilst I was down there. Nose was streaming the day I came back & now progressed to full blown cold or something. Think I might have a chest infection too because I'm coughing up some yellow mucus here & there... fun times.

What are you talking about..?

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Glad you had good time with your parents and yes please post the botanic garden pictures. Get well soon for the mucus.. I mean YOU get well soon not the mucus

I want a cave too, lol!

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Morning everyone. Had an MRI this morning. Now I just have to wait for the results.
Still feeling sad and anxious. My dd is graduating elementary school in a couple weeks and I can't even cry . I hate this. All of this ****ing blows

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That's a lot to handle. Do you have any way to express how you feel? Sometimes getting it out somewhere does help.

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Ahh sorry valley How long will you have to wait for the result?

I don't. I don't have any coping skills which is probably why I'm maxed out on meds.

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Shouldn't be long. It's nothing I'm worried about.

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Every single damn thing is going wrong for me this week. I'm displeased.

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Felt weird today. Saw my support worker for a coffee then tried to find stuff to do, job hunting etc.
Been for a run! Trying to do some exercise and get fit. I eat healthy generally but I do zero exercise atm.
I'm dying off after the run but I'm glad I did it. Went with the bf. I ran 3 miles in 34mins and burned off a good 300calories. Pretty happy with myself for bothering.
I had a panic attack halfway round so had to stop and get my breathing under control