Roll call 80

Hey guys, hope everyone is doing okay.
I've had a nice weekend, went to a friends bbq yesterday and got sufficiently drunk, I tried jello shots for the first time!
Been for a wander round a puppet festival today in the sun. I'm still not used to having my arms out. I had a crop top on at the bbq and everyone said nice things about my tattoos, no one mentioned the scars so I don't know if they noticed or not.
I feel so much freedom with my arms out, I can't even describe how nice it is after over 5 years of wearing long sleeves in summer.
This week coming is a lot busier for me so hopefully keeping busy will keep symptoms at bay. I'm still going strong on my meds and mostly psychosis free, just the pesky negative symptoms I have to battle.
Good thoughts to you all

Be careful. It will make you feel good and you'll lose a bit weight and you'll have energy and stuff.

Very dangerous.

That's the kind of thing that sounds like a good idea when manic... but stimulants are rarely the answer.

It's always nice to think <x> drug can solve a problem, sort of like taking a shortcut but generally speaking there are better ways to get what you want long term.

Glad things are going well for you Justme! Delighted you can wear a T. People take it for granted, I can't wait to have my tattoo's done, got a job now so it's on the cards in the next few months! Going to just go for the two half sleeves, then full sleeves when I lose a bit of weight on my upper arms. Thinking loads of colour like yours! Keep it up hun!

Thanks mo! People really do take it for granted. Awesome that you have a job now, hope it goes well for you good luck saving for your tattoos, I hope you find some cool designs. Onwards and upwards!

He's 13. Teens. Yikes

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Sorry your son is acting out...thoughts going your way.

So what's everyone up to today? Since my son was sent home from his sleepover it's the 3 of us hanging out. Grabbing drinks for our ride now. What's a roadtrip without sodas lol.

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Thank you.

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Aaaaaa.. okay no stimulant. Thanks guys, yeah that wasn't a good idea. Anyway.. none of my cats want to sleep with me tonight

Well my punishment didn't win me any mother of the year awards but he's not talking to me so I must have done something right. *sigh*. The absolute worst part of parenting.

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I often did this (not talking) to my mom when I was a kid, regret it so much now Maybe he just need a time to be alone, I believe he will understand that what you did was for his own sake

It's OK. You have to be stronger now, for the teen years. It's unavoidable for any good mom/parent that ever raised a child, that you have to be firm and consistent with the house rules.

So now my kitchen sink is completely plugged up and I only saw it when I went into the kitchen to take my Advair. I don't have a bucket so I'm bailing it out with two large cups and I had to sit down. Oh my God. I'm so upset. Oh my God. When will they ever fix the sink. I have to call the landlord/manager now and I probably won't be awake. I'll have to set my phone's alarm clock. I wish this place would stop torturing me.

I stopped the 10mg oral Abilify for a few days. I'll continue it cuz of paranoia and agitation.

I'll ask my psychiatrist to stop it so everyone knows about it instead of not being able to explain myself.

It feels cleaner and better off of it. I want to be able to deal with the least amount of antipsychotic.

This time I'm going to take it at night now instead of in the morning.

He won't be a teen forever. I hope he outgrows the troublesome behaviors sooner rather than later.

I hope so too. It's why I'm so hard assed when it comes to his punishments.

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Well, here am I after taking my sleep potion, I guess it's getting harder to resist the effects. I'm not sure if it's different from before. (Tried a week or two without it, because of fear it would lose its power.

I don't look forward to the plumber, and I have no idea what day or time they might want to work here.

I have this weird sadness today at everything bad about the world. I'm sad about everything.

There's never a good time to call my mother. But I usually try to call on Sunday afternoons. I have to be quiet and listen to her social gatherings with scores of people I've never met. It is quite an achievement to get through one of these calls, much less be committed to weeks months and years of it. Still, I am terrified of her dying.

I know it doesn't make sense. It's just that my guilt would be boundless. Even hating her, the guilt, the guilt, the guilt.

hey sup. got a new car. 2015 mustang. been driving it everywhere, cleaning it. its not a GT but its the premium package. touchscreen display, heated/cooled seats, sirius xm, you can change the color of the guages and interior lighting, etc, the works. so yea been driving that and hanging out with friends/family. gotta wait to get the tags for my car.

big thing is this is the first car in my own name! so yea im paying my own insurance and (repairs in the future). its got 310 horsepower. gonna tune it up to 400 hp. im quickly becoming a car girl.

anyway small update. gonna head out later today and go geocaching. maybe play around with that new pokemon go trend at my boyfriends apartment.

Sounds fantastic newtus, glad everything is going so well for you

Hey guys how is everyone? I'm doing really good. I take a placement test at my college Wednesday then I can start picking my classes. School starts in September, so does the RCIA classes I will be going to, and of course I still have my day treatment program. Gonna be busy but I'm excited about it

Good luck to you,I'm sure you will be fine

personally i am doing very good with treatment

I'm glad to hear you doing so well! Are you selling your old car? If I were closer to TX I'd want to buy it, lol.

Hey! Nice to hear from you. Congratz for the new car, it sounds cool

It looks like the plumber hasn't been by today. I slept until just before 11. I'm imagining the conversation between management and the janitor with plenty of loud guffaws. There's no way I'm going to let that pos in here. He'll make it worse, to amuse himself.