Roll call 81

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I'm not sure how smart it is to watch TV until 5am, but I did want to see "Fear the walking dead". Maybe I can set my alarm app for 9am.

College starts on Wednesday.

I'm so worried, worried I'll get lost on campus and not know where my classes are, or I'll mess up and fail them.

why do I worry so much

You'll do great! I'm very worried too since I start classes the week after next. We can check in and support each other

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I'm sure you'll be ok.

You know, it's pretty normal to worry about those sorts of things when going to college. That might sound like an unhelpful thing to say but...

I know first hand how much the worrying sucks, but in a way I find it makes me more prepared for these eventualities... as I do my best to avoid them happening!

Plus... let's be honest, why do these things have to be negative experiences? Anxiety disorders have this way of making you think these things will be 100x worse than they will.

I think basically everyone gets a little lost at uni/college the first time there... it's usually just a case of following other people or asking someone for directions. It's strange how much easier it is to strike up a conversation with someone when there is something you are worrying about more than talking to a stranger!

Also if it came down to it, there are lots of people that fail classes. That's just part of life. There might be a good reason, there might not but I can assure you there are lots of people who do resits. It might be different in the US, but over here it doesn't affect your final grade or anything.

College is about learning life lessons as much as anything else. The great thing about though is there are lots of other people doing it all at the same time!

I hope this helps rather than making you worry more but... it will be ok!

Enjoying the 4th season of Game of Thrones. And the books of course. It's kinda nice out today, it's breezy and not too hot.

Hope everyone has a good day

Yup, that's 3 of us in the same boat!

I mean I've done it all before but still, going back after many years out of education with mental health problems sort of makes it all a little unnerving again!

My first class is next Tuesday. I think the tables will be turned by the weekend & I'll be the one worrying again.

So I didn't get the job. Oh well, just keep trying.
Went to the beach so bf could look for new Pokemon today haha. Had fish and chips and a wander. Screw the rain, I had a nice time all the same

I'm sorry you didn't get the job. At least you got a bit of practice with interviewing though... always a positive to come out of everything!

Glad you had a good day too despite the rain. Fish & chips sounds great... I've not had any in a while myself.

Hi everyone. Watching pit bulls and parolees. I hate when the adoptions don't work out . It always makes me sad. I love my dogs so much. I can't imagine why people treat them so poorly. It makes me wonder what happened to mine before they came here. <shudder>
Anyway having a decent day. I feel pretty good mentally. Tomorrow I'm bringing the kids to an amusement park. They are so excited. I'm just waiting for the stress to kick into high gear. I hate worrying about things that haven't happened yet.
It's beautiful here today. It was supposed to rain but it only rained a bit overnight. We really need the rain.
I hope everyone is having a good day.

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i am being stalked

but no one believes me

I'm sorry. Have you called the police? Surely they will believe you. again. That's scary.

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No cops scare me... I do t know what to do. I have a weapon

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I miss you guys, I hope everyone is doing well. I have another rapid cycle again, lots of time I wanted to post here but then delete it instead of posting it. I think.. I finally get off of my delusion. There is this some kind of weird mist that slowly has been lifted from my brain. Weird as it sounds. I keep reading rollcall tho I don't post, you guys are in my thoughts and prayers, always.

Welcome back I was worried abt u

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I need sleeps

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Be careful

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I hate my life.

I feel anhedonic as hell and getting paranoid.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I can't stop eating.

I quit weed because it makes my mom upset that she has to work all the time and then when she gets home, she can't send emails on her ****** computer. I'm buying her a new one but I have no god damn money.

I won't take anything.

I don't want to take my meds either.

I can just deal with it.

I'm going to go for a run and I'm gonna do that every day.

I don't care if I get a heart attack I'm going to keep running until I collapse.

Hey, what's happening?

I took 2x 10mg Abilify cuz I haven't taken any in a while except the injection and feel a bit better.

Felt a bit dissociated.

I hope you'll tell your pdoc. Maybe they can tweak your meds if you think you're doing better on a higher dose.

Mentally rehearsing what I would say to a doctor if they made me go to one. Trying to think how to phrase things so they don't put me in a psych ward or loaded with meds. My history doesn't sound good hahaha.

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I find that I stop checking this forum when I feel better and I gravitate back when things start up again.

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