Roll Call 105

That exam is so brutal y'all

Six straight hours of coding

Hole crapoly

How many absences are you allowed?

If I miss my meds I can tell a diff in the way my mind and thoughts work. The longer I go the worse it gets with delusions and of course the voices

I just emailed my old therapist in the United States to catch her up on the times over the last year and a half. I heard she was interested in hearing from me through my partner.

I told her a lot of things from a Facebook post I did recently a few weeks ago catching up people on what's been happening with my life. I'm not afraid to share what happens for me in my mental health, because I figure I have nothing to lose, and if it helps someone in the process, that alone makes it worth doing.

But one thing I struggle with....it...seems so vivid looking at my medical records that I've been struggling with psychotic symptoms since January 2016 periodically. I swear, how can this be happening? I know I repeat myself saying this, but I swear; how can this happen? How is this real? I should be able to quit my meds and forget about it...but it probably isn't that easy or simple.

My order is shopping now, if they can't find something the refund you or make other spur of the moment modifications......all by text, it's cool......

Not sure there is a hard and fast rule. My attendance is at 50% now... but it’s always more dramatic near the start of term. Generally we have meetings after missing as much as I have. It’s more unexplained absences that are a problem.

We need 80% attendance to get on the next course though...

I can't seem to muster a single emotion today. I feel so dead.

The 4pm vape break! Hiyo Silver, Awayyyy!!!!!

What my instacart adventures are no fun for you?

Seriously though I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Here's a tip from the woebot.....think of three positive things that have happened in the last 24 hours. (You've gotta have at least one, I mean your roommate wants to marry you )

It gives you kind of a bump to remember all the good things together.

i went to walmart and bought a pie with my last $4 and ate half of it on the way home.

Using Colorfy app. SP, you're right this is fun

My groceries have arrived! Yay that was so easy

Isn't it?

I posted a couple in bluebirds coloring club....

https://forums.psychcentral.com/grou...ring-club.html

Im bored

Those are beautiful

I have to admit something to you guys but theres two sides to it...

Food should come soon. I have an upset stomach and it usually helps to eat something.

I wonder if anyone will be watching the walking dead tomorrow in the solarium. Might be a good idea to see if I can watch it there. In my room I'll need the sound loud and sit uncomfortably. I missed almost all of season 7 though.

Ooh gossip spill it.......

Btw i feel horrible. I have a headache and im nauseous. I think all because i have barely been eating or drinking anything. Not by choice. Just cuz im so darn busy. The less i eat, the less i wanna eat.

Hmmm don't get dehydrated at least carry some water around with you.....

Sorry Newt, I'm getting the Pixel 2 128gig when in the spring. :P *

My peer worker accused me of using the system. Not because of my mental health. She said it has nothing to do with my mental health; that my mental illness is valid etc. But because of monetary reasons.

She claims i dont really need disability money. That the only reason im on disability is because my parents willingly refuse to pay for my health care, like my mental health care. She says they have the money. She also said i dont really even need the funds that come through the clinic that pay for my services in full. She claims i have no concept of how much things cost, etc, all this stuff about me.

I explained to her that on one hand my parents pretty much refused to pay. But i told her that at the time my dad put me on disability he had just been mostly cleaned out by my mom through their divorce, just paid for our house in full, was paying thousands in hospital bills etc etc. So at the time HE couldnt pay for it. My mom was really the one that refused to help. Plus she kicked me off her insurance because my stepdad complained to her about a lot of my hospital bills. So the main reason my dad even put me on disability was for the insurance but he knew the money would help me out later on because i was i was also extremely sick at the time and couldnt work worth a darn. Nor goto school.

It just made me feel really really bad about myself. She basically went off on me and mocked me.

Whatever makes you happy. Im sticking with apple.

It does look good but I'm locked into apples world as of the moment......

Here's the thing, you're an adult, you should be paying for your own care not your parents. Wasn't your dad retired or something and went back to work due to financial reasons? And the last thing you need is to depend on your mom? You're not using the system you're trying to survive like everyone else. Sure you have more money, odds are your pss is jealous.

When I was in college one of my profs told me life is unfair make it unfair to your own advantage, I live by that advice.