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It gets us no where. I've spent long years out of control. In the back of our minds, we're always like "I need to let go and just go straight into the abyss of mental illness".. But the abyss is hell.. It is also love.. And you can find it with the opposite... |
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#952
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Not a great day for me... Just a bunch of arguing and stuff over stupid things. At least I could rehire my therapist, so that's good. Now for the pdoc.
I think medication has little to no effect on some of my symptoms, such as the obsessive compulsive crap and the impulsivity and certain other things like anxiety. I suppose it controls the psychosis, but honestly I don't even know anymore!
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#953
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Having depersonalization. Took a benzo and gonna drink chamomile tea.
Idk why this keeps happening it's almost every night now. I can't make sense of it all. |
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#954
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I get voices like that sometimes, Kit hugs!!
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#955
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Hugs.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#956
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Hugs.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#957
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Invega does not help?
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#958
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#959
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It's 10am already. I'm going to be out of podcasts soon. Then what will I do.
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#960
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Hey all, doing better this morning. I am attending a Meetup this week (it's online and virtual, of course). I am excited for that. It's about the Spanish language.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#961
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Just wrote up my first business plan for my website! I think it’ll take off!
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#962
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Idk what to do today. Think I’m a bit lonely.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#963
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making lunch
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#964
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Got my Fitbit Charge 3 and set it up. I really like it.
Have been reading a lot
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#965
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Sleeping life away. Worst pollen allergies in 10 yrs, and I am inside!!! Eyes are killing me.
I could sleep for a year. Depression blows. Hugs.
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#966
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Hope you feel better bpcyclist and newtus
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#967
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I made mac n cheese, super easy meal
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#968
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I’m ok, thank you ![]() Pics one day if I ever get it made!
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#969
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I'm not going to lie... I think I'll feel safer at a hospital
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#970
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I'd go...but I go to hospital a lot so
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#971
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I've been there a lot this past year or so. IDK anymore.
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#972
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Had a very severe panic attack last night. I think it was because of the L-Tyrosine. Not taking that again.
I told my mom to kick her bf out because I couldn't stand the way she talks and the way he talks it reminds me of abuse or stockholm syndrome. She reassured me that it wasn't like that way. I got depersonalization because I was trying to focus outside in the cold while the Vyvanse was wearing off. I didn't want to hear anymore of the drama so I told my mom to keep it down and I walked away, she still continued. I closed my door but the cat was OUTSIDE THE DOOR. So the cat started meowing at my mom and she was ignoring - What do I do in that situation? I lie on my bed, breathing with my hand on my chest - Panting.. intense panic forming "The door will be opened" so I opened the door and came to my mom and said "I don't know what you are" and not making much sense backing away from her and she said I'm being rude or something.. I don't give a **** about what is rude or not. I never did. I don't connect with social culture but I've learned to abide over time. She said that I'm not well and got her bf to leave. I couldn't look at her in the eyes - My eyes were jotting around my vision - It was complete lack of focus. I couldn't focus. I told her that I took L-Tyrosine to replenish my dopamine because I couldn't focus. I wasn't making any coherent sense at all - Just "I don't know what is real because of all the things" I said I just wanted to go to sleep. So I tried to go to sleep, took 1.5mg of alprazolam - Had a thought that I would die in my sleep cuz I took phenibut but it was an irrational fear - and I knew that. So I went to drink chamomile tea again, watched the news and couldn't understand any of it. The benzo and zopiclone kicked in and I went to sleep. I woke up 6 hours of sleep or something. I could have a panic attack again when the Vyvanse wears off and I can't focus. It's ****ing hell. I went to work though. Had a good day at work. I'll take it easy today. |
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#973
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had bad akathisia this morning.
Should I keep taking the clozapine? Or stop and re-assess monday
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#974
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After taking it?
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#975
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