Roll Call 174

Bb did that

There were people in my class that were already baptized but had to go through the whole RCIA process as well in order to get confirmed. I wasn't baptized at the time, but we all went through the same class. I'm pretty sure you have to go through it whether your baptized or not. On Easter I was baptized and confirmed while the people who were already baptized were just confirmed.

Ordered Instacart. I think they stole 4 of my items. None of my junk-ish food is there.

Had a busy day. Orkin inspection, then went grocery shopping, then walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. Then I just had a meeting with my care manager. She said I look like I've lost a lot of weight and look good so that made me feel good. It was nice to see her in person. We met outside at one of the picnic tables. I talked to her about wanting to do some kind of volunteer work so she is going to help me find some.

I got a bunch of healthy stuff at the grocery store. And they actually had hand sanitizer. I was shocked cause normally they've had zero for the past several months but they had a little display near the register that had a bunch of them, so I grabbed one while I could. The cashier was super nice.

I was having dystonia last night in the middle of the night. I'll have to watch out for that...

I'm too young for my dopamines to die..

Got the dentist appointment scheduled for September 18th. My care manager will schedule the ride. She said if they don't show up for some reason to just call her and if she's in town she'll pick me up and take me there so I don't miss it like what happened the other day

It’s raining!!! And gonna rain all day! What a nice day to curl up with a book or the Nintendo Switch, with a warm drink! Ooooooo I can’t wait for Fall!

Honestly? I feel like I have no time to advocate anymore for mental health. All I do is write about mental health and read about it.

My tooth really hurts. May have to take some ibuprofen.

I'm hoping I can get below 150 lbs by October. I'm at 152 right now so not much more to go.

Just watched Mulan. Really like it

I have some news

Tell Tweaky the news..

Fiancé might graduate from the training program by the end of this month. He has to do one more thing (observation of someone getting fired).

But he said, they want him to relocate. So if he graduates to manager at the end of this month, I gotta start looking to live elsewhere. They also won’t pay for us. If we don’t move from here for another year, he’ll be driving 3 hours (back + forth) or more 4-5 hours, just to goto work, everyday.

So idk what to do...

The move will be stressful if you decide but at least he gets paid more? It'll be ok in the end. ~1 year and we'll all be better... I hope he gets it =]

I hiked to the top with my mom and she was having drama with her friends. All they talked about was sex and fashion so I got agitated and asked my sister to bring me home - My mom and I got separated from the other two so my sister brought both of us to the restaurant.. My mom forgot her phone in the car so my sister brought it back all pissed because she was late for work.

I have mixed feelings about this day but I had a shower when I got home and I feel better. My mom says she tries so hard and just wants me to be happy - But I'm not using phenibut so I'm just asocial and moody - It sucks..

. Just trying to avoid a panic attack.

My mom texted my dad that she's stressed out about work etc. My dad called me and we talked for a bit. I said I'm just healing mentally for now. He works in Mexico right now but applied for a job in Canada so he might get a house here - So that's good.

He said for me to be patient with my mom. She wanted to climb that mountain today - Ridiculous with her heart condition. She's exercising as if she's an athlete. Hopefully it's good for her heart rather than bad idk..

Bad news, I'm having short term memory loss from ambien and I blacked out last night in a hypnotic state.

That really sucks because everything has been going so well. I can't even follow an audiobook now.

Should i break the ambien in half until i see my pdoc?

I bought a



Should be interesting

Gonna take the olanzepine a few hours before I sleep to prevent depersonalization. I had depersonalization for the past 3 nights before I went to sleep. It wasn't so bad last night though.

Hey everyone. I got back into graduate school. They said this is the last time they'll readmit me, so I have to stick to it now.

I really, really need to stick to it. I feel like I can now since the meds are right and I'm seeing a good therapist.

I need to find my way through it. I only have two classes left then I will write my thesis. I am extremely glad I have been given this opportunity to continue. I was basically feeling ridiculously anxious and stressed without school the past week when they were deciding. I never want to subject myself to that anxiety again. I don't deserve that kind of anxiety and feeling bad about myself.

Also I watched a ridiculously depressing film last night. It was like beyond bad. It almost made me not take my meds, but I got over that one. I sometimes get thoughts of not taking my meds, and it's hard to deal with because the thoughts are so overwhelming. I'm glad I was able to power past them last night. That would have really thrown me off not to have taken them.

That reminds me of courses that I do online. I change my mind and want to do another one but the key is sticking to the ones that I have and just do them anyways to keep my mind active and prevent further cognitive impairment.

Olanzepine is like pouring water on my brain when it's on fire.

So the "piggies" shot a dog a block away from us...