Roll Call 192

We always get decaf…….but sometimes it’s worth it to stay up until midnight if you’re feeling good.

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Also my friends in Michigan have timmyhos and they absolutely love it. Kinda wish we had it here.

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Coffee and pastries,,,,, my two major food groups

Or in my personal case at this exact moment, coffee and Reese's

Love that we’re all having coffee together 😉

Looking at Japanese shops online

I love coffee.

Do you guys think working full-time is unrealistic?

I drank the coffee and then came home and went straight to bed - Crazy crraaazy dreams.. Makes me want DMT again. It was like HD video of another world.. Amazing phenibut dreams never disappoint.

It's day 8/7 working in a row.. lol.. I'm good though. I'm drinking a strong coffee with Dexedrine. Not sure what I'll do.

Yesterday, I was drinking rum as well but I don't really feel like drinking alcohol today. I seem to tolerate it well the longer I drink it. I like the anti-anxiety effects and muscle relaxation. I used to get DP/DR panic attacks from drinking which are gone.

I'm starting to feel somewhat normal now.

It depends on the type of work (If it makes u happy/can progress for future)
If not, it depends on how much MONEY you have/will get from the job
Depends on how you can adapt to your fluctuating mental state
Etc

What is not realistic is society! All of the Americans.. They check up every so often if someone is still "disabled". Like fck leave the disabled people alone. There's 20 million millionaires in America (Not including the billionaires which is a whole other story).

Do what makes u personally happy + your loved ones in alignment with true nature of your potential in the world ^-;

About to make an iced coffee, and watch Pokémon. Just talked to my friend for awhile. He gifted me a game on Steam on my wishlist on there, and I'm gifting him a game from his wishlist

True, true. I'm not about to go get a job for the money. And yeah, not to harp too much on capitalism, but the system allows for the wealthy to get wealthier and those who do not have wealth suffer.

I'm lucky in that I have a supportive family. So I can pretty much do what I want in terms of work. It probably won't be like that forever, but I am at least working on my master's in translation and hopefully I'll be able to start a business doing that. Anyway, that's my plan. It needs to be clarified/expanded, but that's the general outline.

No but you need to get your adhd or whatever causes your indecision under control. Sure we all have days we feel like quitting but we don’t quit.

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Got my candy…already ate two scotch mallow eggs….so good!

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I have a lot of these types of delusions but they have settled once familiar over time and I have become less reactive to them. Some have changed from green to yellow to red and back, depending on how sticky they can be.

Delusion - PsychonautWiki

I think, the longer I think about things, I see them differently, the same, differently... new perspective happens.... all of the time. So not to trust the self too much - But also, take responsibility for thoughts.. ideas.. actions.. feelings.. Trust the true self completely - The deep, trapped self.

And everyone can tap into the divine energy of the puzzle.

Mystical psychosis - Wikipedia

It's good to see you, Kit. Hugs 2u.

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Yes, that's what I loved about drinking, it pulled me out of myself.

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I wish I had some chocolate fudge that my friend got me for Valentine's Day a year or three back. But I want a lot of different things lately.

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I can't sleep, I've had a lot of trouble sleeping the past week, sleeping 4 or less hours a night, and I'm starting to get a bit hypomanic

True, true. I think it's just stress that causes my indecision.

Do you have a prn AP to take when stressed because stress can definitely increase psychosis? You also need to do more self care when stressed.

I ran into a lady who I went to day treatment with like 5 years ago yesterday, she said I looked like I haven't aged a day, which made me feel good, because I'm turning 28 in June and have been feeling really self conscious about getting older

You will look good upwards into your 40s. At 50 I think I began to age. Weight gain and stress really came on hard in my 50s. Think of all the new beauty treatments and products and you might look good through your 70s and 80s and 90s. And 100s.

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About to have a chicken pot pie for dinner