Roll Call 192

I've never felt this drained in my life

If anyone has any tips, let me know..

Sleep…sleep…sleep…..

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Got an appointment set up for my root canal, it’s on June 24th.

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I don't want to suggest it as a blanket statement, but meditation has truly helped me a lot. I use the app Headspace and have been using it for 8+ years. Having stability of awareness like that has truly helped me. Not saying it's right for you or for anyone else, just saying what has worked for me. And it's no panacea. I mean I still have days as you all know when I doubt things a lot, etc. But at least I know I have my meditation practice. It truly is a refuge for me.

Yeah I just ordered Amazon Fresh this morning cause I realized I have 0 food in my house.

Oh, and I have a job interview tomorrow. I got over all my worries about it.

Good luck!

I'm having so much anxiety today. I might need to medicate but I am trying other things first.

Got my Instacart today phew.

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That's a relief!

I don't feel like going to aftercare tonight but I will probably enjoy myself once I am there and in it and doing the music therapy and stuff like that. Just gotta psych myself up for it!!

Today I paid off my car! Felt good to make that last payment. Wow, five years went really fast!

So I went to sleep - Woke up feeling better. Now I'm learning again, about meditation - But really, being meditative.

I know you guys could have made shots in the dark - But these things I know will help. I just procrastinate meditation but I know that it's the best thing for me.

What happened to the "Flower people"? If you put flowers into your home, you check on them 5 times a day - "Are they doing ok? idk"

We keep plastic flowers in our home - Good for 5 years.

Meditation is a quality. People are goal-orientated and want flowers and fruit - But we need to think "Soil, water, sunlight, etc"

lol..

Glad you woke up feeling better Desoxyn. Meditation is really good.

I got diagnosed with bipolar I disorder again today.
Idk why everybody thinks that I’m bipolar. It’s mostly the CPTSD and OCD that’s keeping me in harms way.
I know that I’ll get there eventually.

Also, Desoxyn, I’m glad that you’re feeling a little bit better!

It's frustrating when you don't match the diagnosis. It's a relief when you finally get the right diagnosis. I'm sorry for the CPTSD and the OCD. That's tough. I don't have PTSD or CPTSD. But I have OCD, ADHD, GAD, and Schizoaffective disorder. Sometimes I feel like a freak!

Congrats!!!

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Thanks!

I think the Zoloft is sedating me + Invega

Edit: Energy dead. Motivation dead. I hope this strong coffee helps.

Edit: It's probably the Invega - Although I feel less messed up.. so idk. All of this psychiatric stuff is so confusing for me. I wish I was born in Peru.

Ugh.....

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I'm still doing good - I just feel like I have fatigue and low energy. It happens sometimes - Especially after the Invega.

Tmi warning….I’ve been bleeding for weeks…finally put a tampon in a figured out it’s my period not the stones, phew. In other news it’s been years since I used a tampon and I thought you could flush them but apparently you cannot….eek!

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The coffee is helping + Dexedrine.

The Zoloft is quite calming actually. I have zero anxiety. I used to like anxiety - But recently, it's been way too much for me.

I remember starting Prozac again after stopping it and my anxiety went away after 3 days. With Zoloft, this is just day 2.

I'm not really understanding much of this - Just observing, which could be wrong... Just documenting in real time.

Edit: I took phenibut too. I don't expect an interaction with an SSRI.

Okay, I'm glad you are still doing good. Fatigue and low energy are no fun but as long as you aren't feeling super depressed or SI or anything. Maybe take a nap if you can or just chill and zone out a bit. Watch something mindless on TV.

I have nothing to do right now.