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#451
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I need to chill out. There's no reason for me to be this way.
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![]() SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
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#452
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If anyone bothers me at work severely again at this point, I'm going to walk out and not come back.
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![]() SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
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#453
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Good morning, listening to some music and drinking coffee. Wanted to sleep in a bit but Stash woke me up at 6am demanding food lol
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#454
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I’m going to have a glass or two of wine tonight to celebrate turning 28 today
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, WastingAsparagus
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#456
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#457
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Happy birthday!
My birthday is this month, too, at the end of the month.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#458
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
#459
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Happy birthday, Blue_Bird!
My birthday is at the end of this month too, WA!
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#460
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
#461
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I have a Zoom class at nine AM and then I hope to be an adult and go get two new tires on my car. I usually make my Dad go with me, or just send my Dad by himself, to deal with car issues. But I am hoping I can be an adult about this and get it taken care of.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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#462
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So far so good. I'm having A LOT of anxiety but I am trying to work through it and distract myself. I am trying to do a lot of distractions today!
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#463
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I hope your anxiety improves, it’s good you’re using distractions ![]() ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#464
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I’m getting my hair cut next week. First time it’s been cut in over 2 years. Getting a short layered bob and then I’m gonna dye it a burgundy-ish color. Oh and my eyebrows waxed
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#465
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I was 20 minutes late for work because I didn't want to go. I felt suicidal all morning at work.
Happy Birthday BB =] |
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#466
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#467
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I'm off the deep end.
What do you guys think about me (When I'm doing bad)? Any insights? Criticisms? I want to know truth.. I'm so confused. Horribly confused. I have so much regret. I don't know which of my thoughts are real. I want to just snap out of it - And I'll partially do that. I'll stay working - Go to work on Monday.. I'll make more money that I don't need. I just do things that other people want me to do. I should follow my own heart - But I don't know what I want. I should have been in the psych ward months ago - But at the point that I admit help, I'll have to be forced. The philosophical suicide is what I feel alone with - That we're born alone, die alone. The solipsism stays, like tripping. I don't know why some people online like to help me, say I'm strong with what I went through, smart, etc.. And then they show off theirselves to me. And reality is horrific. The reason I complain about normal things in life is cuz of the DP/DR that I had. It makes me freak out about everything. I want to stop the olanzepine.. See what happens for the 3rd time. I'm sorry that I'm so dangerously unstable. |
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#468
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I'll just listen to some songs and calm down, search a little about questions that I have. No one has to reply. I'm fine - Until my death.
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![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
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#469
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Listening to music is a good idea, I've been listening to so much music lately, it's helped my anxiety a lot, I hope you feel better
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#470
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Do what makes you happy…..maybe work isn’t that? Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#471
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I don't want that.. But no I talked to my mom and feeling a bit better. We're gonna go to a restaurant... |
![]() SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#472
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Not sure yet! Probably just go out to dinner with my friend or something low-key.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#473
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#474
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I talked with my mom for an hour or so - She and her friend said that I looked sad. I told her about the microdose, wanting to use psychosis as a way to understanding reality, being freaked out and disturbed by reality.. I said a lot of stuff.
What I'm going to do is give complete control to my psychiatrist.. She says that I can't just tell him only the good things and say everything is fine, then get the meds that I want.. Yknow? I said that I don't like being told what to do and I trust my intuition - and I admit that my intuition can be wrong.. just the bad things that happen along the way to what I know is good... Idk Yeah I want to try out school @SP - I finished that college course and THEN the pandemic happened.. Even though I have an incredible amount of uncertainty, I still want to go to school (Even if I can drop out and somehow become successful with the knowledge that I've learned/strategies to learning). When I was put on the disability for schiz, doctors said that I could use the money to pay for the meds and go to school (That was the whole idea - Until I screwed up with the things I was buying online). I won't microdose anymore.. I'll figure things out... |
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#475
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On the one hand I wish I had a job, and on the other, I'm glad I don't. How does that work?
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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