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Old Jun 04, 2022, 12:55 AM
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 01:22 AM
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If anyone bothers me at work severely again at this point, I'm going to walk out and not come back.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 07:00 AM
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Good morning, listening to some music and drinking coffee. Wanted to sleep in a bit but Stash woke me up at 6am demanding food lol
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 07:43 AM
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I’m going to have a glass or two of wine tonight to celebrate turning 28 today

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:17 AM
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:22 AM
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:31 AM
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Happy birthday!

My birthday is this month, too, at the end of the month.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:34 AM
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Happy birthday!


My birthday is this month, too, at the end of the month.
Thank you! And oh cool! Are you doing anything special for it?

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:35 AM
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Happy birthday, Blue_Bird!


My birthday is at the end of this month too, WA!
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:40 AM
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Happy birthday, Blue_Bird!


My birthday is at the end of this month too, WA!
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:41 AM
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I have a Zoom class at nine AM and then I hope to be an adult and go get two new tires on my car. I usually make my Dad go with me, or just send my Dad by himself, to deal with car issues. But I am hoping I can be an adult about this and get it taken care of.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 10:43 AM
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So far so good. I'm having A LOT of anxiety but I am trying to work through it and distract myself. I am trying to do a lot of distractions today!
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 11:55 AM
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So far so good. I'm having A LOT of anxiety but I am trying to work through it and distract myself. I am trying to do a lot of distractions today!

I hope your anxiety improves, it’s good you’re using distractions

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 11:56 AM
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I’m getting my hair cut next week. First time it’s been cut in over 2 years. Getting a short layered bob and then I’m gonna dye it a burgundy-ish color. Oh and my eyebrows waxed

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 02:23 PM
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I was 20 minutes late for work because I didn't want to go. I felt suicidal all morning at work.

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 02:24 PM
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I was 20 minutes late for work because I didn't want to go. I felt suicidal all morning at work.


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Old Jun 04, 2022, 04:30 PM
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I'm off the deep end.

What do you guys think about me (When I'm doing bad)? Any insights? Criticisms?

I want to know truth.. I'm so confused. Horribly confused. I have so much regret. I don't know which of my thoughts are real.

I want to just snap out of it - And I'll partially do that. I'll stay working - Go to work on Monday.. I'll make more money that I don't need. I just do things that other people want me to do. I should follow my own heart - But I don't know what I want.

I should have been in the psych ward months ago - But at the point that I admit help, I'll have to be forced. The philosophical suicide is what I feel alone with - That we're born alone, die alone. The solipsism stays, like tripping.

I don't know why some people online like to help me, say I'm strong with what I went through, smart, etc.. And then they show off theirselves to me.

And reality is horrific. The reason I complain about normal things in life is cuz of the DP/DR that I had. It makes me freak out about everything. I want to stop the olanzepine.. See what happens for the 3rd time.

I'm sorry that I'm so dangerously unstable.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 04:33 PM
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I'll just listen to some songs and calm down, search a little about questions that I have. No one has to reply. I'm fine - Until my death.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 04:47 PM
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I'll just listen to some songs and calm down, search a little about questions that I have. No one has to reply. I'm fine - Until my death.
Listening to music is a good idea, I've been listening to so much music lately, it's helped my anxiety a lot, I hope you feel better
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 05:11 PM
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I'm off the deep end.

What do you guys think about me (When I'm doing bad)? Any insights? Criticisms?

I want to know truth.. I'm so confused. Horribly confused. I have so much regret. I don't know which of my thoughts are real.

I want to just snap out of it - And I'll partially do that. I'll stay working - Go to work on Monday.. I'll make more money that I don't need. I just do things that other people want me to do. I should follow my own heart - But I don't know what I want.

I should have been in the psych ward months ago - But at the point that I admit help, I'll have to be forced. The philosophical suicide is what I feel alone with - That we're born alone, die alone. The solipsism stays, like tripping.

I don't know why some people online like to help me, say I'm strong with what I went through, smart, etc.. And then they show off theirselves to me.

And reality is horrific. The reason I complain about normal things in life is cuz of the DP/DR that I had. It makes me freak out about everything. I want to stop the olanzepine.. See what happens for the 3rd time.

I'm sorry that I'm so dangerously unstable.

Do what makes you happy…..maybe work isn’t that?

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Old Jun 04, 2022, 06:14 PM
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I do want.. to work. But in my own way - Without the clock towers watching me, having to wake up when the bells ring - I see the towers outside the office window.. watching.. A coffee break for 15 minutes.. Overtime, pennies, working 35 years - Benefits... Old, then die.

I don't want that..

But no I talked to my mom and feeling a bit better. We're gonna go to a restaurant...
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 07:16 PM
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Not sure yet! Probably just go out to dinner with my friend or something low-key.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 07:29 PM
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I do want.. to work. But in my own way - Without the clock towers watching me, having to wake up when the bells ring - I see the towers outside the office window.. watching.. A coffee break for 15 minutes.. Overtime, pennies, working 35 years - Benefits... Old, then die.

I don't want that..

But no I talked to my mom and feeling a bit better. We're gonna go to a restaurant...
The higher you go the more autonomy you get…..maybe aim for a masters or PhD? Alternately try entrepreneurship.
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 08:23 PM
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I talked with my mom for an hour or so - She and her friend said that I looked sad. I told her about the microdose, wanting to use psychosis as a way to understanding reality, being freaked out and disturbed by reality.. I said a lot of stuff.

What I'm going to do is give complete control to my psychiatrist.. She says that I can't just tell him only the good things and say everything is fine, then get the meds that I want.. Yknow?

I said that I don't like being told what to do and I trust my intuition - and I admit that my intuition can be wrong.. just the bad things that happen along the way to what I know is good... Idk

Yeah I want to try out school @SP - I finished that college course and THEN the pandemic happened.. Even though I have an incredible amount of uncertainty, I still want to go to school (Even if I can drop out and somehow become successful with the knowledge that I've learned/strategies to learning). When I was put on the disability for schiz, doctors said that I could use the money to pay for the meds and go to school (That was the whole idea - Until I screwed up with the things I was buying online).

I won't microdose anymore.. I'll figure things out...
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Old Jun 04, 2022, 08:38 PM
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On the one hand I wish I had a job, and on the other, I'm glad I don't. How does that work?
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