Roll Call 193

SlumberKitty · Jun 06, 2022 at 10:11 AM

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I had a really good birthday

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Glad to hear!

convalescence · Jun 06, 2022 at 02:33 PM

My therapist advised me to come up with a resolution or action plan for those around me for my manic episode(s). Crazy.
I haven’t had mania in a long time.
It was a good feeling… while it lasted.
Now I don’t know what to think. I think some of it was grandiosity and delusional, but some of it not so much.

Blue_Bird · Jun 06, 2022 at 02:42 PM

Jesus I about had a panic attack. Someone rang my doorbell and I was sure it was someone coming to complain about Mustachio but it was just my friend asking if I wanted any hamburger meat.

I’m having a few glasses of wine and trying to distract myself from the meowing

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Blue_Bird · 03:16 PM

Just wanted to share my new cartilage earring, it’s a music note.(not a new piercing just a new earring for it)

My piercing aftercare spray came today so I’ve been using that on my nose piercing

Taking the picture down in about 30-45 minutes

WastingAsparagus · Jun 06, 2022 at 04:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Sorry - I'm so used to seeing my psychiatrist once every 3 months. I know that people get to see them more often + Different ones.

It's hard for me to make appointments lately cuz every time I want to make one, it's Friday (An hour too late) or Sunday.. Like now..

I am listening though... I forget a lot of things though my mind is so scattered ^-;

I can only imagine how much the decision making frustrates you - There was a disorder about indecision that I found and wrote here (I forget the name of it) - But I think that it means the same sort of thing that I'm dealing with. It's stressful + stress makes it worse..

But it will get better (I say this as a form of good luck)

Yeah, it's like a form of self-doubt, I think. Luckily I am trying to help myself, and at least I am aware of the decisions I make, so I could have it worse.

I want to be able to accept it. It's not easy.

WastingAsparagus · Jun 06, 2022 at 05:45 PM

I made my homepage Google Scholar. Ha.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 06:15 PM

Oh fack!!

Life.. reality..

Gotta keep moving

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 06:24 PM

I'm throwing the gabapentin away cuz it does something weird to my heart.. and my mind..

I smoked indica with it and I was so-dizzy-that-I-felt-drunk... I tried to go to sleep but was afraid that I'd stop breathing in my sleep... Cuz I tried not breathing to see what would happen and I was so relaxed that I didn't get any suffocation effects.. I manually took each breath, waiting for stuff to clear my bloodstream to prevent oxygen deprivation and sudden death (This could be all in my head lol...). I fell asleep 2 hours later.

But yeah. That was my night. I said, "if I wake up in the morning, this is a start to a new life...."

Went to work.. No energy.. Enough of this nonsense. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 07:28 PM

I'm save up money to move to Guatemala..

Edit: If I could be a hippie... But idk

convalescence · Jun 06, 2022 at 09:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I'm throwing the gabapentin away cuz it does something weird to my heart.. and my mind..

I smoked indica with it and I was so-dizzy-that-I-felt-drunk... I tried to go to sleep but was afraid that I'd stop breathing in my sleep... Cuz I tried not breathing to see what would happen and I was so relaxed that I didn't get any suffocation effects.. I manually took each breath, waiting for stuff to clear my bloodstream to prevent oxygen deprivation and sudden death (This could be all in my head lol...). I fell asleep 2 hours later.

But yeah. That was my night. I said, "if I wake up in the morning, this is a start to a new life...."

Went to work.. No energy.. Enough of this nonsense. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Before I started Depakote I was complaining to everyone around me how WEIRD the side effects were from anticonvulsants! I tried Tegretol & Topamax previously. That’s the only way that I can describe them - weird.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 10:07 PM

My mom says that she's afraid that she caused my anxiety.

I said she didn't.. But I think she caused my paranoia cuz she's so social (And I have slight autism/introversion) so that = schiz

Criticisms to my conclusion are welcome.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 10:10 PM

Possible trigger:

I just get so scared and apathetic when she drinks "You have to take care of me" she says while she's wasted.

I'm gonna try my hardest to try and be independent. I'm gonna learn the rules to driving again tomorrow and get a full drivers license.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 10:14 PM

I felt a sort of anxiety attack because I procrastinated taking the atenolol and olanzepine. They help after kicking in but I really wish I didn't have to take them. It's my fault for abusing stimulants and psychedelics.

Desoxyn · Jun 06, 2022 at 10:22 PM

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Originally Posted by convalescence

Before I started Depakote I was complaining to everyone around me how WEIRD the side effects were from anticonvulsants! I tried Tegretol & Topamax previously. That’s the only way that I can describe them - weird.

I was put on 200mg of topamax "for addictions" in the hospital and my outpatient psychiatrist took me off of it. I remember him saying to my mom "This med can make people lose 20 IQ points when they're on it" lol..

Not that you shouldn't take similar... But Topamax is no good I think.

Blue_Bird · Jun 07, 2022 at 05:38 AM

Good morning. Woke up at 4am and have been up since. Didn't sleep well again.

Going grocery shopping in a couple hours.

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WastingAsparagus · Jun 07, 2022 at 06:05 AM

I am seeing my old therapist again. She was very helpful. Anyway, that has me in a better mood this morning. Hope everyone has a good day today.

Blue_Bird · Jun 07, 2022 at 08:14 AM

Went grocery shopping. Food is so expensive

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SlumberKitty · Jun 07, 2022 at 09:00 AM

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Food is so expensive

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Agreed. I spent $70 on Friday and hardly got anything!

SlumberKitty · Jun 07, 2022 at 09:02 AM

Dude. Lybalvi really messes with me. The Pdoc says it shouldn't be any more sedating than Olanzapine but that crap puts me out. I took one yesterday morning for anxiety, paranoia, and agitation. I could barely make it through work. I stared at the same invoice for like two hours trying to make sure that I did the taxes right. I got home at 3:35 PM and went right to bed and slept until 4 AM this AM. I am still feeling messed up. I asked my Dad to bring me a coffee because I can't concentrate. I feel so freaking out of it. I think I have some Olanzapine that was filled prior and I will just take that. The Lybalvi like freaking puts me to sleep!

Also I was on Topomax for a little while. I saw a discussion of it above. Yeah, that messed with me too. I couldn't remember my coworkers names. I had to get off of that mess.

SlumberKitty · Jun 07, 2022 at 09:03 AM

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I am seeing my old therapist again. She was very helpful. Anyway, that has me in a better mood this morning. Hope everyone has a good day today.

Hope you have a good day too WA!

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convalescence Member Member Since Dec 2014 Location: USA Posts: 473 9 106 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 02:33 PM #522 My therapist advised me to come up with a resolution or action plan for those around me for my manic episode(s). Crazy. I haven’t had mania in a long time. It was a good feeling… while it lasted. Now I don’t know what to think. I think some of it was grandiosity and delusional, but some of it not so much.

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 05:45 PM #526 I made my homepage Google Scholar. Ha. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 06:15 PM #527 Oh fack!! Life.. reality.. Gotta keep moving

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 07:28 PM #529 I'm save up money to move to Guatemala.. Edit: If I could be a hippie... But idk

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 10:07 PM #531 My mom says that she's afraid that she caused my anxiety. I said she didn't.. But I think she caused my paranoia cuz she's so social (And I have slight autism/introversion) so that = schiz Criticisms to my conclusion are welcome.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 10:10 PM #532 Possible trigger: I just get so scared and apathetic when she drinks "You have to take care of me" she says while she's wasted. I'm gonna try my hardest to try and be independent. I'm gonna learn the rules to driving again tomorrow and get a full drivers license.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Jun 06, 2022 at 10:14 PM #533 I felt a sort of anxiety attack because I procrastinated taking the atenolol and olanzepine. They help after kicking in but I really wish I didn't have to take them. It's my fault for abusing stimulants and psychedelics.

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Jun 07, 2022 at 06:05 AM #536 I am seeing my old therapist again. She was very helpful. Anyway, that has me in a better mood this morning. Hope everyone has a good day today. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,905 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Jun 07, 2022 at 08:14 AM #537 Went grocery shopping. Food is so expensive Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi