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Old Jun 09, 2022, 01:41 PM
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Yeah true. I mean I've had a T before that actually helped with depression and mood stuff. Because I take meds, but meds are not the whole equation for depression. In fact, for me, I feel like they are less of the equation than what I do to make myself feel better. So hearing a therapist say that I should actually do less is very invalidating to me.
Yeah for me self care often works for milder depression….and it helps to have someone rake that for you and offer ideas.
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Old Jun 09, 2022, 01:42 PM
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My doc told me to half my lithium and go on lamotrigine. So I halved it last night and this morning (pharmacy didn’t have the lamotrigine ready yesterday so I’m picking it up after work today). I feel pretty awesome right now.

Im tired because I haven’t been sleeping well (constantly thirsty in the middle of the night) but I feel excited and just want to do things.

I know this is a sign my mood is a little unstable (even after halving for one day!) but I’ll enjoy it while I can!

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My psychosis came first too by several years…I can’t help but feel that the APs cause the adhd in some of us…..I used to have awesome focus. In my case though the AP dose is low so it’s not impossible to overcome. That’s why I was wondering……but if you’re having derealization that’s due to the stim odds are your stim is too high compared to olanzapine right?

How much were you sleeping? I sleep ten to twelve hours typically.
In 2020, the DP/DR usually happened when the stim wore off. But I also smoke a little weed every day - So that could be the cause of the derealization.

My mom HATES that I smoke it.. We were watching a documentary about a suicide related to schizophrenia and there was video of the guy smoking weed and my mom said "Did you realize how I zeroed in on that?" - Because weed wasn't mentioned in the documentary.

The reason I smoke it.. or really, do anything like this - Is cuz of objective paranoia.. the government is not to be trust/psychiatry trusted less too..

The derealization is mild - But can cause problems with me complaining to my family (And they don't really know what the hell I'm talking about)..

I try SP.. I don't want to deal with this stuff - But I'm consumed. The conspiracies and lateral thinking... finding connections.. magical thinking.. coincidences and synchronicities. I need to save myself, know about dangers. Idk. I'll try to ease on everything and relax.

I'm going to Mexico for holiday soon - My dad will come to visit. There's things to look forward too - The pandemic etc.. made everyones mental health worse. So people look at my mental health and say "It's not that bad" when before the pandemic, I could have been hospitalized.

My focus is very good - It's just my concentration.. And I'm so much more aware now - It's just too much information about life, quotes, cliches, meanings, advise, rules, responsibilities, realization of consequences - I'm better than before and during that time when I was bad, I was neglected. So it's different now.. I'm doing better but everyone is on me, making it seem worse. So I learn about what it takes to concentrate, find meaning in life, enjoy myself. My focus was bad since I was born. Very bad.

The basement was a bad time. I want to prevent anything like that ever happening again lol..

I sleep 10-12 hours a night as well - Fully. I don't really wake up in the middle of the night (Just to drink some water).
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Old Jun 09, 2022, 01:53 PM
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It’s like the weather…enjoy it while it’s good!

Trying to! But sucks I’m in the office today with no work to do so I’m just booooorrreeeddd. Wikipedia only entertained me for so long lol.

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It surely can't be healthy to be on high dose AP and stim though. I'll get this sorted out eventually. I said it is only supposed to be a short term thing - Until I get my life sorted out.
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I'll go for a walk and listen to a good podcast. It's a really nice/sunny day out.

I'm just afraid of bears though..
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I'll go for a walk and listen to a good podcast. It's a really nice/sunny day out.

I'm just afraid of bears though..

Eat the bears.

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Trying to! But sucks I’m in the office today with no work to do so I’m just booooorrreeeddd. Wikipedia only entertained me for so long lol.

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In 2020, the DP/DR usually happened when the stim wore off. But I also smoke a little weed every day - So that could be the cause of the derealization.

My mom HATES that I smoke it.. We were watching a documentary about a suicide related to schizophrenia and there was video of the guy smoking weed and my mom said "Did you realize how I zeroed in on that?" - Because weed wasn't mentioned in the documentary.

The reason I smoke it.. or really, do anything like this - Is cuz of objective paranoia.. the government is not to be trust/psychiatry trusted less too..

The derealization is mild - But can cause problems with me complaining to my family (And they don't really know what the hell I'm talking about)..

I try SP.. I don't want to deal with this stuff - But I'm consumed. The conspiracies and lateral thinking... finding connections.. magical thinking.. coincidences and synchronicities. I need to save myself, know about dangers. Idk. I'll try to ease on everything and relax.

I'm going to Mexico for holiday soon - My dad will come to visit. There's things to look forward too - The pandemic etc.. made everyones mental health worse. So people look at my mental health and say "It's not that bad" when before the pandemic, I could have been hospitalized.

My focus is very good - It's just my concentration.. And I'm so much more aware now - It's just too much information about life, quotes, cliches, meanings, advise, rules, responsibilities, realization of consequences - I'm better than before and during that time when I was bad, I was neglected. So it's different now.. I'm doing better but everyone is on me, making it seem worse. So I learn about what it takes to concentrate, find meaning in life, enjoy myself. My focus was bad since I was born. Very bad.

The basement was a bad time. I want to prevent anything like that ever happening again lol..

I sleep 10-12 hours a night as well - Fully. I don't really wake up in the middle of the night (Just to drink some water).

Yeah my pdoc said weed is terrible for this, but I’ve never gotten anywhere near trying it and I still have this garbage. It won’t help your paranoia though, you need the AP for that. You might be at a balance point for you given the amount you’re sleeping now is about as good as it gets. I still say cbt could help you…it changes the way that you frame things.

I’m still kinda negative but often can reframe to a slightly more positive view.

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Eh I got lots of things I could learn but I’m just not feeling like learning too much now. I’m picky with my boredom cures.

Thanks for the suggestion though!

I got about an hour and a half left I’ll scroll Facebook and bug my mom while lip syncing music.

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Yeah my pdoc said weed is terrible for this, but I’ve never gotten anywhere near trying it and I still have this garbage. It won’t help your paranoia though, you need the AP for that. You might be at a balance point for you given the amount you’re sleeping now is about as good as it gets. I still say cbt could help you…it changes the way that you frame things.

I’m still kinda negative but often can reframe to a slightly more positive view.

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Yeah I really need therapy.. ill call my therapists office today after the walk.

She has bad ADHD so our talks are really scattered/tangential but I just need input on the way that I think (Negative, cognitive distortions etc) and how to change it.

She always refers me to the community centre - But I tried that and I'm too shy I guess to participate in activities/events alone.
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Yeah I really need therapy.. ill call my therapists office today after the walk.

She has bad ADHD so our talks are really scattered/tangential but I just need input on the way that I think (Negative, cognitive distortions etc) and how to change it.

She always refers me to the community centre - But I tried that and I'm too shy I guess to participate in activities/events alone.
It helps me when I go into therapy sessions to write notes beforehand for the therapist so they know what to help me with... I don't know if that's something you've tried?
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What if I'm just autistic with trauma😭

Anyways, this has been a really nice walk. I'm gonna find a bench to read - No distractions. I should do this more often.

I'll post pics later =]
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There was a fire in the building next to ours. We all had to evacuate at 3am and just were allowed to come back inside at 4:30am. Whole street is blocked off and filled with fire trucks etc. I can smell the smoke in my apartment even an hour and a half after the fire started, and with my windows closed

I guess there was concern that it could catch our building on fire because it’s so close

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There was a fire in the building next to ours. We all had to evacuate at 3am and just were allowed to come back inside at 4:30am. Whole street is blocked off and filled with fire trucks etc. I can smell the smoke in my apartment even an hour and a half after the fire started, and with my windows closed

I guess there was concern that it could catch our building on fire because it’s so close

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My best friend from high school and I are planning on a trip to London, England together in a few years. It's gonna take a few years of both of us saving money, planning, and researching but we're gonna do it! We both want to have more experiences, and neither of us has been out of the country before, we're both getting kind of frustrated that we're both 28 years old and don't have many fun experiences in life, going different places, etc
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Called my psych today & I’m seeing him Tuesday to discuss mania and med adjustment even though I’ve tried calling for a week Roll Call 193 just up my Seroquel, bro.
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My mania was a blessing.
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My best friend from high school and I are planning on a trip to London, England together in a few years. It's gonna take a few years of both of us saving money, planning, and researching but we're gonna do it! We both want to have more experiences, and neither of us has been out of the country before, we're both getting kind of frustrated that we're both 28 years old and don't have many fun experiences in life, going different places, etc
This sounds wonderful, Blue_Bird! I want to go to Ethiopia and Shetland but I am not even in the planning stages yet!
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Old Jun 10, 2022, 10:23 AM
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I might elaborate sometime.
I don't get mania but sometimes I feel like some of my mental illness symptoms are a blessing. Sometimes a curse! Maybe they are both!!
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Well my work stress should be better. The bosses either went back to NY or went on to Las Vegas for a trade convention. Either way, the office feels more peaceful today. Although it is going to be one long day because I do not have very much to do. Ugh. I am so tempted to go home early but I should just stay and get paid. I am taking next Friday off already so I don't want to be seen as being too flaky. But it is 8:22 AM and I am already out of work for the day. Ugh.
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I am listening to a philosophy podcast this morning. It is good. I was gonna complain about how I have no work, and I still feel like I ought to have a job, etc., and that I ought to send out resumes, and cover letters, and what not, but I realize I have it pretty good right now.

I am changing meds to risperidone, which is something I'm glad for, as the olanzapine was causing a lot of weight gain. This is in concert with my psychiatrist, of course.

I am feeling pretty positive this morning.
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Glad to hear you are feeling pretty positive, WA! That's awesome!
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