i hate myself

I did it. i cut. i lost. and i was not satisfired. i also stbbed myself with a needle four times and now I have bad bruises that i am very embarressed about on my arms and legs. and although it bleed like i liked i was not happy and it did not make me feel better like it normally does. i do not want to cut anymore. i hate myself so so much for it. now i have to hid the scars for a while more until they heal... i still have these tough emotions i don't know what to do with... i can't cut, so what do i do?

*hugs* I hope things get better for you! (I know EXACTLY how you feel.)

<font color="green">Try writing about your emotions. Or tell someone you feel safe talking to or tell it into a tape recorder. You could try doing a painting or sculpture to get the feelings out. Snap pencils into pieces or rip paper.
I know it is difficult at first but you can do it. </font>

(((((((((xxemogurlxx ))))))))) Writing it's a great idea, please try to do something to get it all out, but that is not going to make you feel this way.
Tons of hugs!!!