What did you do right today? Part 2

I helped my grandma at her doctor appointment.

Got through the busy shift at work on my first day at the register. And I got even more "hard-worker" complements from my manager.

Meditated, went grocery shopping, and stood up for myself.

I finally started on my Narrative outline and finished it.

Successfully got my therapist to enroll me in DBT classes.

I got up and took a shower, took my meds, and have finished my to-do list for the day, INCLUDING rescheduling my T appointment.

Well, my manager basically told me that she wished she could give me more hours because I work so hard. Lol. So that felt good.

Eh, got my first pay check and did well at work. That's about it, though...

Kept calm and carried on and even got something to smile about

I went to breakfast with my wife. Took my meds. Did a load of laundry. Checked on my mom.

New to group...I get up, take care of dogs, thinking what would I do withhout them...I think I need them more than they need me at times...I take care of my sister, who is retired. I make it to the store, and right away I try and smile but I just opt to be on the down low as I feel people are thinking that I'm outta place as I'm alone, no wife or kids and in a small town, people know everyone and sometimes it`s difficult to admit that I have a failed marriage and after almost four year, have not recovered financially and emotionally...I have dated but it seems most women I meet are empty nesters and all they want is good times, yachts, going to expensive beach vacations and when they see I'm retired, the brakes go on and I don't fit into their jetset lifestyle, it's so long sucker...Anywhoo, I have lived in the same rural town for 40 years and believe that everybody knows my problems and they forget all the good qualities in me and focus on the negative...So I get back from store, do house chores and by then I'm so mentally tired I nap, then sometimes get lost in all my old shows...By that time I fix dinner for us then I have no feelings of accomplishment...I don't know why I feel negative towards myself, so any ideas or strategies would be a boon to my daily regimen...thank you

I'm getting off the computer before 2pm.

I got outside and went a few places on my own and got some things accomplished. I've been feeling confident today. Probably because I've been pretty much on my own for two days, as my girlfriend is out of state.

Smiled my way through some emotional pain.

I made a kick *** dinner that my whole family enjoyed. Everyone went back for seconds. And even though I was depressed and didn't really want to, I made time to play with my kids in the pool.

ok right now i need some positive...
what have I done right lately.

I shipped off my sister (#4) a bear and what I made her a while back-- It is a good thing due to I just needed to give it to her, and now I have-- though I sometimes i want to see her (but can't due to my messed up mind ) any ways-- i sent it off I gave her one of my favorite bears that I have made It always makes me smile, I hope it makes her smile.

I worked my butt off at work-- I did this for myself-- I realize that there will be no validation but I am sure there are emails of "Beauflow did wrong" by the monster at work... I am getting to the point of thinking of her as a monster which is horrible of me-- but she IS SO Vindictive and mean and I think she gets off on hurting people... aka monster to me... she refuses to see what she does--- NO This is not projection SO many others see it- But the economy and corporations are allowing this toxic envirnment to be--- and I read from others I am not theonly one

But I worked my butt off last night-- I have three busy more days to come which is good- i will be able to see a Manager that I want to talk to in the morning so that is a good thing-- I hope we have time to chat and smoke a cig together.

I started "blanket" project of crocheting even though I have my doubts-- I will see how it comes out and learn what I may be doing wrong by examining it.

I realized that my fear of repeating of losing everything as in Childhood over and over, in my teenager years and then in my early 20's-- is a big part of why I am not moving my butt I think-- I need to some how turn this into-- probability-- OR Perhaps- What is the probability of me losing everything with just not taking the chance??

last week i was really good with writing in my journal == I should really find time this week to do the same...



sorry for the rant

I ignored the advice my family gave and took the advice from someone here who has walked in my shoes. It was absolutely the right choice.

I learned a new song on my guitar!

I didn't SI today after having a stressful trigger. I didn't shave my legs in the shower because I didn't trust myself. So I have stubbly legs but no new cuts. I'll consider that a win.

I had a good belly laugh with two co-workers, which is a rarity in the office!

Today I got up and went to work. I was friendly and productive. I didn't beat myself up over the big mistake I made yesterday.

I am still a non-smoker today. 285 days of freedom so far, the rest of my life to go.

woke with optimism and did some routine things that seem so painful yesterday to do. a bit ahead of myself today hoping not to run out of motivation.

Went to work and did my best! Came home relatively early, didn't want to overwork myself!

I've had two good days in a row which hasn't happened in a long time. I practiced smiling at people and most of them smiled back.