Admitting that I'm in too deep now... Need withdrawal advice

I don't know how it was a good idea to take me off all my meds at once. That plus coming off the uppers, I'm a crying mess. But I know if I call pdoc they'll just tell me to go to ip. I've never cried this hard or this much

Detoxing at home from all psych meds at the moment because of self admitted abuse. Doctors orders and then new cocktail. Just being honest.

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This ****ing blows! I can't tell what the physical discomfort is from. The psych meds, phetamines, or suboxone? I can't ****ing tell. I want to be high so bad right now but all I can do is sweat and cry. Cry and sweat. I called the guy from the pdocs office and left a msg begging for an antidepressant from the come down of these uppers. I know he'll just call back in the morn saying "nah nah boo boo go to IP!" No! Just let me have my psych meds back! Who's smart idea is it to get off bipolar meds all at once?! I'm mad! I'm not going to the hospital unless I want to do something bad or I start seeing ****. I've never had psychosis from my BP before but maybe this will be my lucky ****ing day?!

Detoxing at home from all psych meds at the moment because of self admitted abuse. Doctors orders and then new cocktail. Just being honest.

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Hang in there. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. It will get better.

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You're almost in the belly of the beast! It's going to get downright awful in a few more days, but then it will slowly get brighter and you can have a new life. Hang in there!

moogs

I don't think I agree with taking you of all psyche meds at once but definitely some of those needed to go with BP. That is for sho.

I hope you are making it through and can start fresh. Losing the job was probably best. To bad Michigan doesn't have state disability. I got to the point where I felt forced to apply for SSD and did. I won after a year and a half.

Main thing is to get sober and on the right meds. I suggest using all resources available. NA AA.....whatever. IP if needed. food stamps. Very few of us can do this thing alone.

They gave me my psych meds back. I've been sleeping off the adderall for a few days now. Sub withdrawal kicked in hard so I took some Tylenol 4 which I hate because it makes me dysphoric. That was like two days ago and I'm still fine. If anything, I'm dealing with major depression from coming off the stimulants and losing my job. All I do is sleep and cry. Oh there's a shower iN my house? Don't even care.

I think I'm going to go for SSD at this point. Many pdocs have told me to. Every job I get I have massive panic attacks, get fired, then falling into this deep deep depression. A ****ing marry go round.

Detoxing at home from all psych meds at the moment because of self admitted abuse. Doctors orders and then new cocktail. Just being honest.

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Give yourself permission to sleep and cry all you need to.

SSD, get the ball rolling when you are able. They will deny you straight up. Then get a lawyer and appeal. There is no lawyer fee unless you win and then it is like 25% of back pay or $6000 whichever is less. It is worth it. Long and often frustrating process but once I had a hearing with the admin judge she was very fair and understanding. The law is in your favor at that point. Get all your medical records and make sure the lawyer has them all. I mean all of them going back as far as possible. Try to document how it has effected your work over your life.

Sorry you don't need to worry about that now. Just detox and staying sober is all that matters.

If it helps at all, I'm in the same boat. Just used up the last of my oxy and not planning on getting more. I know I am going to have a rough week, but I will make it. Been through this many times before! If you are going to quit cold turkey and deal with the withdrawals, just make sure you take care of yourself. Be good to yourself, drink lots of water, eat as you can tolerate....it's tough, but we can do this!

You need to go to rehab. I am a tiny bit concerned (not to get intimate), but I can relate to the being wired thing. I used to get strung out off of Fentanyl and would drink pots and pots of coffee in an attempt not to fall out. Being strung out is not a good feeling. You are not high, you are strung. It's not even recreational at this point. If you are a hard worker, do whatever you can to save your life, but go to rehab as soon as possible. Tell the truth when you get there. Also, why are you on both Buspar and Ativan? Is the Buspar your mainstay, and Ativan for breakthrough anxiety? All I can say is that, that is a lot of chemicals and you must be strung. I would stick to more organic substances if you could, like the Trileptal. If you quit you will go through some serious post-acute withdrawal syndrome. You may feel tired or want a fix, I struggle with it myself. But in the end it will pay off for you. Don't be in such a hurry, please!

Taking drugs to get off drugs isnt the answer. I get your fear and desperation. I have no health coverage or any means to rehabilitation or therapy. No access to suboxone or methadone clinics. Ive dont the withdrawal thing so many times that Im skilled to get through it. Whats gotten me through is preparing myself mentally and accepting its gonna happen, and just deal with it. I used to go into full blown panic when my dope was low but realized it only made it worse. The first day is hard, the third day the hardest. After that gets easier and easier.
Seriously though, using the prescriptions to get through is just a cycle. You'll be good after the doc visits but by the end of the month your screwed again. It'll never end that way.
Good luck.

She may have legitimate needs for some of the medications she has been taking. It's just the ones that are being abused that appear to be the problem. There are no hard and fast rules about recovery and for many, there is a real need for medications to treat underlying MH issues. Suboxone and methadone may be controversial, but they have helped many when done in the context of a full recovery program.

Well, it would appear you are in a quagmire, something easy for me to spot, as I am in one, as well..addicted to stimulants, convinced they are necessary in order for me to half-*** function, and I say that is a generous description, as I'm barely squeeking by, by the skin of my effin teeth, but as I feel outside pressure to continue, I mean I have to work, or I lose my house, my kids, my car, but in order to get out of bed the stimulants are a requirement at this point, I don't have time to go thru the ******** of crying, paranoia, sleeping 18 out of 24 hours, and getting paralyzed by fear cuz I don't know where to start cuz there is just too much to do...wish I could stop methin-around, unfortunately have no desire to stop right now, for to stop means life as I know it will cease to exist, and I sure as hell don't need another fear on my pile of fears...(fear of change and of the unknown) so, guess I don't have any advice, I guess I just wanted to tell you that I can relate, been there, done that, haven't stopped yet....

I came off of a little bit of everything back in September (24 mg of subs every day for two years, klonopin, Xanax, & adderal). So I seriously feel your pain. When I got off all of it, I did it 100% by myself, no meetings, no detox, no rehab because I had done all of that for ten years. I knew I needed to home, alone. I had the willpower bc I had to this so that I could be the mom my daughter deserved. It was hell & I had my mom (she knew what was up) to help me with my daughter (she was 7 months @ the time). I was lucky that I didn't have to work. You may be able to do it. It takes: being able to give yourself a totally stress free environment for awhile, willpower, can't get those scripts filled or have it around anymore, or anyone else doing it.

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Also, what I forgot to say, (this is what happens with toddlers talking while you type, lol) is that you need to do whatever it is that you have to do to get clean. If it means telling your job, or taking some leave and not telling them. Your health and sobriety are more important than anything. Plus, I don't think your boss is allowed to look @ your medical records due to the hippa laws??

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They say PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome) can last a year. That can be daunting when you are quitting. But know you need to take extra care of yourself during this time. DO what you need to. I didn't take this seriously and thought I was fine and I was not. SSD sounds good.

That depends on what you are detoxing from.
You can die from detoxing from alcohol and any benzo!

That is true. My general dr had to check me into a local hospital when I quit drinking. The ER at a different hospital treated me like crap and let me go once I sobered up. I followed up with my doc and he was very surprised. I'm in the medical field as well and when any patient would come in with alcohol withdrawal we sent them to the ER.

Absolutely, take it from me you don't want to suddenly stop drinking, it needs to be done carefully and in a controlled environment.