Anxiety Daily Check-In Point! #2

Had blood drawn today and I was quite anxious and feeling faint. Got through it fine. It's really all in my head. Hoping the anxiety from this will subside throughout the day.

I just found out that a friend from High school passed away. We've been out of school for 25 years now. It is just so sad. This got my anxiety going. It just makes me realize how short life can be for some. I am doing my best to get rid of the anxiety. Took my med about a half hour earlier than normal to help me cope with the anxiety. I am hoping that I do not have a panic attack. I'm doing the deep breathing thing to calm me down.

Anxiety is extreme today. I took hydroxyzine and I'm hoping it's finally kicking in (the very mild extent that it does, of course I could take more and be knocked out). I have calls to make but I'm much too afraid.

I've been having very extreme anxiety the worst its ever been. The tiredness is awful and I want to sleep all day. I hear death screams in one ear representing my moms many surgeries (she has every year and nearly dies) and dad just recently lost his job and Intel could f themselves and liar scum. I don't see the purpose of getting up with the exception of checking the Internet but otherwise its pointless like my f- up life. See that cardboard box on the corner? See the rainstorm approaching? It is going to be above me and that represents my future and I am psychic. When I heard about the layoffs on the news and I told dad he is going to be one of them. I am GOD of predictions. We just moved here 6 months ago, just settling in. Although the scum who sold us the house (he wanted to kill us {not a delusion he deliberately blocked the house inspector from deadly electrical issues}) now we have to move again. Here's what i see. We move within a year to a dump. Next mom dies. Then dad dies. Then the house goes away and since I have the mental health issues and can't keep going I end up on the street. I see it with perfect clarity. Once again I am GOD of predictions. My own life. I see it all. The weight on me is too much. Crushing me under all of it. It's nothing now since I don't exist because the weight crushed me and I'm nothing. Constant panic attacks and can't breathe. Speaking of breathing, I found out I have sleep apnea. I have to have a CPAP machine. See the stock market? The Nasdaq recently hit record highs, God is mocking us and laughing. The finger from the sky is pointing at my worthlessness. The lesson is don't trust another human being. It ain't worth it because if you don't trust then you won't be surprised if they stab you in the back. All life is pain. My brother continues to live in a fantasy world thinking homes are handed to you for FREE. He also thinks there's nothing to be stressed about!

Anxious over the fact that I might have to miss yet another family event b/c of illness.

My anxiety is high today. alot going on. sometimes i feel like its more than i can handle!!

Anxiety is very bad today and my whole body is feeling it. My breathing is rapid and shallow and my digestive system is out of whack. I'm very afraid.

Had a day to myself except for a T session. And I was able to stop off at a new place for lunch. Take away, but, still.

Anxious over everything it seems. I can't seem to get it under control today.

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Anxiety is high today but I can't figure out why. Usually I can at least figure out why I'm so darn anxious.

It's way over the top today.

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On my own for the next few hours - Son on way to Africa for two weeks, wife travelling up with the group he is going with. Hate being on my own these days as the mind wanders and panic sets in - air crashes, car crashes etc etc worry me

Afternoon everyone. I haven't been having any anxiety issues for the past couple of weeks but for some reason today has been so horrible. I tried breathing exercises to calm myself down but it doesn't seem to be working for me. Every time I feel like I'm getting better, this happens and screws up my day.

Gaylegg i often forget my meds too and isn't it a great feeling after you take them after you remember?

Its me again, i think alot of us are having a bad time lately, could it be the season change? Although summer is a great thing i have seasonal affective disorder but don't understand why i would get it for such a good season.

something about this day feels 'off', which gives me anxiety...

i feel it too!!!!!!!!

Here too. I ordered pizza and the crust is too tough to chew. I'm kind of stuck with it.

Me as well Bad week with emotional distractions..

Not too bad for anxiety today, and I feel like I'll sleep tonight! Yay.

Got through y/day afternoon on my own but took a tablet to calm me down. Today less anxious - just wish I could switch my head off for a while.

Really good day yesterday but today started with a panic attack. Now I'm quite numb because of my medication. Seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow, I'm scared she'll tell me I need to take a sick leave from my job.

Love to heat anxiety getting it in the face.

I think I'm suffering from a phobia or two. Will be talking to my T about this. I realized that I feel anxious about leaving the house and being trapped. I always think about that. It's exhausting.

I've been taking my clonopin spread out throughout the day instead of 2 during the day and 3 at night because the night ones weren't helping me sleep and somehow I feel more anxious.