Anxiety Daily Check-In Point! #2

No meds y/day. Low anxiety this morning after a night alone. Therapist today - scared about what may come up.

I would rate my anxiety level at moderate this morning although I had a restful night. I don't think it's helping that I see my Doc today because while she is nice and understanding I get nervous around doctors. Going to have to go to the dentist to get a bad tooth pulled and that definitely has me on edge and in pain.

Anxiety has been fairly low today, however mind chatter has been in high gear. No rest for the weary.

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Anxiety was fairly low today till about an hour ago. Now I seem to be cranking up. Opposite of what usually happens so I don't know whats going on..

Anxiety has ramped up today. I don't know why. I took hydroxyzine but it hasn't kicked in. Maybe I should take some extra. I only took 30 mg.

Some days I wake up feeling anxious and today seems to be one of those days. When I stop to think about it there usually is a reason for it, I just can't see it at first. Other days there is no reason for it. Today I have some things coming up so that is what is causing it.

I went through an exposure last night. Felt very anxious, almost backed out, but I [had] to do it. The more scared I feel the more motivation I feel to kick this agoraphobia/severe anxiety in the butt!

Had to call in sick to work because of anxiety today. Feel a bit bad about it, but I really needed the day off. Then my friend asked me if I wanted to go see a movie with her tonight. At first I said no, but after explaining my situation to her she thought it would still be best for me to go with her and see the movie. I think she's right, being alone with my anxiety only makes it worse, the only thing I feel a bit bad about is that when I called my boss today I told her my stomach's upset, since I didn't want to tell her about my anxiety issues, and I feel like I should behave like I have an upset stomach today for it to be "okay" me to take the day off.

Anyway, what I actually have is anxiety, and that's what I need to treat, so I'm going to the movies. It's not like I called in sick just because I wanted a longer weekend or something.

Anxiety is still very bad today. I bought cigarettes on Tuesday when I had to go out and I've smoked 4 since then, soon to be 5 because I've had no encouragement not to and the anxiety is kicking my butt.

I have to call the clinic and reschedule an appointment which I hate to do but I could only make an early appointment if I stayed up all night which I just can't do. I'm so scared I'm sick.

Oh my ! I am anxious today! I keep glancing at things that hurt me in the first place and the anxiety rises with every painful thought. I feel like the pressure is building up inside me. I seem to have lost my inner self control. I hope I will be helped by my upcoming appointment with my counselor.

My anxiety level has been pretty low today. Thank goodness for small favors.

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My anxiety is really bad again. I keep taking hydroxyzine (and they don't even give me much of it at all) and it makes me fall asleep for a little while and then I wake up and get acute anxiety again. I'm wondering now if it has a boomerang effect. I can't take this. I'm dying for a cigarette but I mustn't smoke.

I was feeling a little better for a while and now it's getting worse again. I identified the trigger, thinking of having to go to the clinic for my prescription refills every month, especially winter when it's too hard for me! I only have a small shower stall, no tub, no laundry facilities, no intercom for my apartment to the outside, a huge flight of stairs to get outside, more stairs outside the front door, just everything is wrong with this place for me now. I feel so hopeless and lost. I don't want to be here anymore! I want to be away from here!

Stupid 4th of July celebrations today. Fireworks had me on edge. I hate those blasted things.

Got HUGE tightness in my face and upper back today. TERRIFIED of the possibility of someone talking to me. Face gets so tense, I can feel the scowl/raised eyebrows. Then I get a migraine from it.
I'm so sick of being scared all the time; scared to even talk to anyone (or have them talk to me)

My anxiety is low this morning. I'm testing out a theory that my anxiety might be caused by my Ritalin. I've been away from home for three days now and have not taken my Ritalin and my anxiety does seem lower.

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Right now, I have the usual anxiety about going into work tomorrow. I can't sleep now- though earlier today, I had no problem. Go figure.

Full blown attack now. Didn't go into work. Having trouble breathing and my heart is racing--- but consciously I know this is nothing more than the physical side effect of my anxious thinking. I'm keeping conscious, rhythmic breathing.

Took Ritalin this morning and found my anxiety was a little higher.

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Anxiety is worse now. Jerk downstairs turned its noise on and before that had an unpleasant run in with another of them.

Hi Angel

Would it possible for you to get into income based place or assisted living?

Take care

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Thank you but I don't think so. I'm still too young for the elder services in my state and the waiting list for subsidized housing is several years. I'm probably not going to be alive that long.

I almost had an attack today. I was sick all of last week and forgot about a paper due today

Damn panic and ****ed up family...

Got to see the kids and got through it with just one panic attack through out the five day trip. It was a good trip for the most part and both boys seemed to be doing okay and managing their illnesses to the best of their ability. The panic on my end came when I was left alone for just 10 minutes with the son that attacked me several years ago. I was told that I wouldn't be alone with him but it really couldn't be helped and looking back now he was really well behaved and once he realized that I was having a panic attack he got me a drink and turned on the TV so that he was out of my hair so to speak. See? I have such a kind hearted soul for a step son, a young man that wouldn't harm a fly but when he's off meds it's a different story.

Over all it was a nice trip. It was nice to have the four of us back together again and we got to beat the heat staying in hotels during our visit..

TODAY my anxiety is moderate which is normal for me the day after a panic attack but I'm dealing with unpaid medical bills that should be covered but the right hand has absolutely no clue what the left hand is doing at the insurance office or the dental office. *Bangs head*