Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

Had a GREAT experience today- even if it only lasted for a moment. I totally felt comfortable talking among 3 other people at the same time,....and it lasted a good 3 to 5 minutes before my anxiety started.
Progress, not perfection

I'm really thankful I could leisurely chat with them briefly.

(paying for it tonight right now. LOL trembling, stomach ache, headache, and going over and over what happened.)

I didn't sleep well last night due to some physical health issues that I have but also because I am worried sick about my puppy who is spending a few days at the vets to see why he is so sick. I am counting down the minutes until I can call at 10 this morning and hear how he did overnight.

i hope you feel better George. it is a good thing to try to relax with CDs and stuff.

anxiety is pretty bad this afternoon. i can't even decide whether or not to take a shower. think i'll skip it and try to distract myself. ugh.

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Anxiety seems better with the change in ADs. I hope the trend continues.

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Still in a fairly alright state.....but it is fading.
I'm going to practice my breathing. And pamper myself for the rest of tonight

thinking about meditation. it's not really something that appeals to me but i've been hearing how much it can help, and i am really feeling like i need to try something else besides going in circlles

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This morning I snapped a little on the bus ride to work. Lately my depression has been more of an issue than anxiety. But I've noticed that in the past few years my responses to certain stimuli are becoming exaggerated. I can't stand when people start yelling around me, even if they're not mad.
This morning we had a new bus driver who didn't know the route very well. There was also a couple who kept yelling at each other even though they were sitting yards apart. By the time we reached the transfer station, someone had turned on some vulgar rap, and there were so many people yelling it felt like I was on a school bus instead of a public bus. When the ruckus started I hunched over my book, put my hands on my head and my thumbs on my ears. I probably looked crazy already, but there was no way I could concentrate on my book anymore and I was trying to just block it out. Finally it reached such a pitch I just snapped, sat up, turned around since I was in the front of the bus, and yelled above everything, "How the **** is he supposed to drive when you're all ****ing screaming at once! Shut UP!" Luckily we were pulling into the station and I got off before having to hear any replies.
I never do stuff like that though. I just felt like something was rising up inside me and screaming at them was the only way to relieve it.

doing ok. made my trip into town for recycle day since it was raining not icing. back home. want to do some knitting.

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I'm freaking out. Saturday is the busiest day at my work and people keep walking in. When they leave me clothes and I barely have time to invoice one order before more people walk in I start to panic, even though I know I still have four hours to do all this, plenty of time. I just can't handle talking to that many people in a day. And today for some reason most of them are going beyond the meaningless courtesy "How are you doing?" and asking me about my holidays, or asking like they really care, and I have to keep saying I'm okay, I can't even think of any details I just have to not break down in front of them.
I seriously almost started crying when I saw the last guy pulling up. I had less than 30 seconds to compose myself, which I managed to do mostly, but my voice broke a little when I said I was doing okay.

Nothing overwhelmed me today. Worked on a project that involves physical labor. As a result feel quite good.

Anxiety comes and goes today. Peaks when I start thinking about having to leave my house.
But then I think- "STOP" I'm perfectly safe, and it's okay to go where-ever I want.
No one will take that from me.

anxious as anything this morning with being locked out of my car, unable to get my kid out, and my phone not working and being late to pick up my other kid. drained now. but thankful we are all ok.

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Feeling ok today. Glad to have this day!

Scared that the neighbors are going to escalate what they've been doing to me.

My anxiety seems to be a little bit better since I quit taking Fetzima and started Brintellix. I hope this continues.

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doing ok. remade my spare house key and have an extra car remote to open the door in my bag after yesterday's lock-out. drove to the y and did errands with kids and we were ok. the worst thing that happened was i drove off a curb to get out of the parking lot because i was so afraid to hit someone's car in that tight space. trying to accept myself with my anxiety instead of always going against the current. feels a lot easier

A bit agitated but I've been cooped up in the house all day. I may try walking to the mailbox if the agoraphobia doesn't kick in.

I had a moment of clarity today. I began feeling the physical effect of increasing anxiety.....preparing myself for a panic attack. It then struck me......I was super unsure of a job procedure, and worried the entire time I was doing it. Ah HA! That's what triggered the attack. So, I focused on breathing, and re-assured myself I followed the written direction as it said. Nothing more I needed to do. The physical effects began to get softer!! They didn't totally go away- but at least I felt more aware. Progress today

After a week of upheaval and things removed from my control the anxiety and tension has begun to subside. I have gone from nearly having a breakdown to being able to manage quite well. This sudden move forced unwillingly upon me may turn out to be a positive thing.

doing ok if i don't think too much. trying to stay on top of my headache and lay low today

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Awful today. My anxiety made my IBS become very bad. I am in such mental and physical pain. My joints hurt and I am cold and I'm anxious about feeling like this for the rest of my life.

I thought my anxiety was getting a little bit better but as of the last three days I've changed my mind. It's back as bad as ever or worse. I see my pdoc tomorrow and will discuss it with him but I don't expect him to be able to do anything new to help it. The klonopin just doesn't seem to be doing it's job.

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Worried about taking the dogs out for a walk

Kinda weird how some of the physical symptoms of my anxiety disappeared when im outside, and then a different set of anxiety came while i was on the way to work. Regardless of what anxiety, i feel crappily edgy.