Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

Read through most recent treatment records. Perhaps, not a good idea.

I am surprisingly coping quite well all things considered.

My coping skills are being put to good use & everybody around me is noticing it.

Life is not a test. It's practice until you start getting better at it. There is no test.

Just go with the flow. Go with the flow.

My sleep was more restful. My day has started better.

Well, my course of therapy is coming to an end. My therapist asked me to make a list of the sorts of jobs I might consider as a transition back into the workforce. It turned out just as we were discussing this I received an email inviting me to apply for a job at the musem I recently started volunteering at. Whew. anxiety, Anxiety, ANXIETY!

So, my check in - I am obviously quite nervous about this. It has been several years since I last worked and I worry about my ability to do so again. breathe, Breathe, BREATHE!

TIme to pull out every tool in the coping strategy toolbox.

You must be doing something right, rcat. Be brave. Be yourself.

Good luck.

The coming weeks I have appointments I would rather avoid, but cannot. I must convince myself they are opportunities.

Grrrrrrrr anxiety ggrrrrrrrrrr

Reading "treatment" records likely would add errors and negativity to "cope" with

(This is not about anyone on PC )

Still moody and anxious.

My anxiety is about average. At least it is under control.

Well folks, I did it. I had the job interview. Now it's the waiting game.

I was so very anxious. Did everything I could think of to deal with this and cope the last few days. Lots of rubbing the worry stone, lots of essential oils, lots of journalling, lots of exercise, and lots of music and sleep. I did it! I'm on the otherside!

I'm anxious today about my mental state. It's like hypochondria, but not? I've studied psychology and been warned about the "med student syndrome" of self-diagnosis, but I still see myself so vividly in major disorders. It feels like crisis, and crisis means anxiety.

I had a bout of extra anxiety this morning. Not sure where it came from.

I went to the hospital, but the clinician discharged me. The ER there is sooo noisy, and my head was feeling like a cracked egg. I wanted to be sent up to the psych ward but I was discharged. Even though I told the clinician about my delusions.

No word on the job - but I am coping with the anxiety rather well.

Did 2 job interviews this week - I absolutely hate the waiting!!!! I can't focus on anything else! the anxiety is overwhelming to say the least. I have a lot of other things I need to be doing.... just can't seem to get started.
help!

I'm so sorry, but I have been away from this forum for months. I just tend to left thing go when I (feel I don't need them)

Well, today after nearly 4 months I had another panic attack. I think it was because yesterday my mom told me she felt a lot of sadness this last two days and it triggered in me the desire and impotence of "How can I make her stop suffering?" reaction. Yes, I know it's a dependent relationship and I'm a psychologist, but it's like my self control goes haywire when my mom is included.

It had been... a little difficult. I feel more in control yet at the same time I feel weak and tired and a little lost. Nothing extreme, mind you, but it came as a very rude shock and while I know how to deal with it, I feel afraid of it.

I keep going.

Any word? None on mine. The waiting is now beginning to rattle me. I am procrastinating everything. I'm afraid of the call but I can't wait for it any longer either.

My anxiety is low for what is had been. Returned to my medicine in a lower dosis but I can't stop the self-recriminating thoughts and attacks of energy. I fear the future. I feel that I, with so much I have, don't deserve to feel bad. To Fear unemployment? My mom is giving me everything from great quality food (we at shrimp soup) to a life belonging to middle well to do class and there is no fear of losing it. That made me feel so ungrateful, like a winny baby and the sheer unfairness of all scares me, because I feel like I'm going to pay this severe debt later.

I want to do so many things but I feel like I can't do them or I'm just going to fantasy about them and do nothing and waste all the love and care given to me and this made me so short of breath and cough/retching time to time.

Right now I'm more calm. did a lot of exercise, kept looking for a job, did a lot of to do things instead of procrastinating, studied and working for maybe an scholarship, if I can pass the sheer frustration that it's the educational bureaucracy.

Feel better saying it out loud, even if it all came garbled and silly. Thank you.

Congrats! I bet it feels good to be done . That in itself is a big victory : )

Sad and Afraid, a little. Got up fine but took a scare for information I left in a job interview. Talked to my mom. I feel guilty of all the good I have as if I don't deserve it. Sick in my stomach when I think that I want a job but I don't have any speciality, master degree and my knowledge is 3 and half years old without use for RH. I'm sorry, sorry. I'm going out to see an arts festival so I can't stop wallowing. I would send another solicitude to a new company. Lets see what happens.

In general, my anxiety is not as bad. But, I do have spells of it from time to time.

Today started kind of bad. Woke up with a mild panic attack at 4 so I tried to do all the exercises but I was tired and afraid of calming too much and going to sleep again because I had an interview at 9. Ate banana and milk and when to another city for the interview, being recommended from a friend that work there as a teacher. During the drive me and my mom talked and allowed me to calm myself, to accept this pain as mine and control it.

Resulted that the interview was a bust. My friend called the director but the director didn't said anything to the campus, but I think I acted calm and fine and gave a good impression. Took me nearly an hour to find the bus station and return to my home, but since I got earlier I managed to get on time for my swimming class. Helped me a lot with the anxiety and the internal critic. Walked from the school instead of taking the bus. Was good exercise. My mother recieved me with great food and in an hour my friend is coming to visit. I feel more relaxed but my back is killing me and sometimes I want to cry because my life is so good and I fear something is going to hurt me or take it all away as karmic retribution. Trying to stay positive and love myself.

It is one of those days of anxiety!