Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

Well its better and better for me throught autosugestion mind i transform my mind litle by little .Now i have more confidence in me and i am not shy anymore .If you create paterns to think positively the bad things like anxiety and fear etc lose from his power .Now i am grateful all day because i attract good things in my life i try to find happy moments all time

Anxious due to titration from Zoloft which I've taken for twenty years to Lexapro. Rough going and I hope it's worth it. Zoloft finally pooped out on and I was on the max dose so something had to be done.

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Pretty high - and my CBT and coping skills aren't helping. I'm about to go into a meeting and I don't know if it is about giving me crap or cudos

This week had been going better. My anxiety is under control and while I got another diabetes attack, it was because it's part of my TOC and after talking with my therapist, it lowered a lot. Today I finally got the job (or I will get it when I sing this Saturday) as a teacher and I'm very happy because I feel productive, although I don't feel as happy or excited as I think I was going to be. An addiction to exhilaration or fantasy about it, I think it was called by my therapist. I'm mostly tired and doing mindfulness. But I feel better and stronger than yersterday.

I am not taking my meds anymore, so anxiety is out of control.

I deal with anxiety my whole life, i'm kinda okay with panic attacks due to some particular situations, but when it comes to intrusive thoughts and anxious feelings at home, when I'm not currently working, all of those feelings that happen all of a sudden on a daily basis...I can't. Because I don't understand it really and it just makes me wanna crawl in bed.
I'm unemployed now, stopped leaving the house, and my day looks...awful.
I do daytime sleeping, I wake up around two o clock when my mother comes from work, sometimes I can barely speak to her...and there I just sit and all these thoughts come to my head..
Each day I have these thoughts about how really sick I am, who I am, what's my diagnosis, am I not becoming psychotic? Or maybe I'm schizophrenic? I'm afraid of myself, because my OCD does not accept any uncertain things. I can't live NOT knowing things. I usually get some flashbacks and I start to dwell on them and get panicked because maybe that dwelling will make me lose control... And then it goes about my physical health. And how unable I am to function in society, though it;s not that true. And there are lots and lots of thoughts...even when I see a car on tv I start to think about my inability to drive due to anxiety... And that's how my day looks like, 24/7.
I literally forgot that there's a world outside of this house.

Oh, and there was this guy from pizza delivery, i opened the door for him and turned back to look for my wallet...and these thoughts came "is he looking at me? is he? in what way?" and this was so awful.

anxious today over some things i didn't really want to remember.

not made any easier by having the image stuck in my head for a pretty long time

was better this afternoon though and drank and ate a bit

Everything turned out okay.

Today, this afternoon I am feeling a little anxious and fidgety and I really have no reason. Could it be boredom?

This week was good but exhausting. Did everything today great and I got a job as an English teacher. Pay low but it's a start but today I almost miss that I needed more photograph for some papers tomorrow and I couldn't stop thinking that in the multiverse a Nimitri didn't realize it and he is know unaware of the pain he is going to get tomorrow when he find out there is no photograph and it kills me. I cried a little later and I know it's a silly fantasy but my feelings don't stop me from feeling bad, like somewhat responsible for this imaginary Nimitri and incredible impotent. I think that's the OCD speaking. Feeling better know.

I'm so sorry that you are suffering so much. Tell me, have you hear of mindfulness? Here is a page with a free course online to help deal with anxiety and OCD. It had helped me a lot with this severe falling down I got lately with my sickness.

http://palousemindfulness.com/selfguidedMBSR_week0.html

I hope it helps you.
Bless you.

their is a sense of calm about today.

little to no anxiety

I have no plans for today and have no need to go out. Thus I really don't have much of a measure of anxiety - except a little over not tidying up my home.

I'm feeling anxious but not as much as usual.

Haven't been outside in 2 weeks..

Thank you very much. I did try mindfulness but my mind is just too overactive.

Me too, I've been outside for like 4 times since February.

anxiety low

Feeling anxious but in a good way and for all the right reasons.
For once, my anxiety isn't based on fear but out of excitement to try new things.

Drove to and from several things today. Medium anxiety.

It is tolerable

i dunno what's wrong but i suddenly find it hard to type the words in a right way. i type different letters than i should or i write a totally different word. constantly. it never happened to me before. I struggle to write anything.

there's also this emptiness in my mind, like it stopped following what I'm doing.

since I woke up yesterday after a nap, the sounds seem a lot more louder than usually.

I'm in a deep deep panic.

My day started out fine, and I even got to work early so I could tidy up my office a bit. Then I realized I left my phone at home, and lost 20 minutes going back to get it. Now I feel like the rest of my day is all pressed together with no room to breath. That plus getting an unreasonable request from a client this morning is not making for a good day. I'm feeling too worried about getting everything done today and tomorrow before I'm off for a week.

On the whole my anxiety has been improving, so it seems it was just the nicotine withdrawal temporary exacerbating things over my normal base level of anxiety.

However, last night I had a panic attack. That is very unusual for me. I've had 2-3 in the past but only whilst using drugs recreationally, which I don't do anymore.

It was very different from those. I felt a sense of dread with chills & bouts of uncontrollable shaking. Sort of like shivering but 10x worse. I managed to keep my breathing under control though... just...

There was a definite trigger but still... doesn't bode well.

i have this problem ive had forever, and ive thought maybe it was anxiety because thats what it sounded like. but when i read things about anxiety its just nothing like what im feeling. its hard to describe and hard to understand. i just dont know what it is, what caused it or how to fix it. though it does seem to be mostly fear based and "avoidant"

the thing is i havent tried to do this thing this time (because i physically cant*) but i assume if i ever got the chance i would have the same problem as before. thing is there is no chance, i have been deluding myself for well over a year that one day it might happen and i'll be able to do it. but then worry about my fears. its totally pointless!

* the other situations like this, there was nothing stopping me apart from my own fears. i did always try to do it but i "chickened out" and didn't do it and then got angry with myself. this time i dont have the option to try. and to be honest i have no idea why im even thinking about it!

Kind of anxious because I think it's time to find a new therapist. Also nervous one of my meds isn't going to be covered by insurance, and it costs $500 per month, I don't have that kind of money. It probably will be covered but I'm overly anxious it won't.

I'm so anxious and angry. I got complacent and didn't l lock up my meds and my husband stole two weeks worth of my Ritalin. So I'm left without any. I'm so upset.

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