Anxiety Daily Check-In point #7

I'm a little anxious.

I was super anxious all day. But I don’t know why. The news was good. I feel more reassured about the state of the country. But my own personal issues are tough and I wish I knew why. I’m not focused on my therapist or therapy today like I had been all last week. But I still just feel off.

I’m trying to get my unbearable anxiety under control. I’m taking Xanax like they are candy.

I am calm today. I slept well last night and I've been busy cooking. I'm also playing my game and relaxing. It's a good day.

My anxiety was moderate today.

I do feel anxiety.

I have been seriously worrying a lot about my eating issues lately

because I am so picky, and because, it seems, as time moves on more and more foods I dislike, I fear I'm actually not filling my body enough. I love junkfood, and that's great for a quick snack, but it's proper actual food I'm worried about.

the hunger pains I've been getting this week (or at least some days) are just not mormal

I also had some health anxiety wednesday, but that was due to something I read online which I really do need to stop doing!.

My anxiety was really bad this afternoon. But I didn’t immediately go for another .5 Xanax. I just worked it out myself and I think I feel better then I would have felt if I had taken a Xanax. I think I still took 2 mil but it was earlier this morning.

Yeah there is for sure some addictive behavior going on though. My dad was the same way with pain meds. Yet no one really caught on to him. Especially the doctors who prescribed them.

I have very little anxiety today. I was stressed out earlier. But I got myself some comfort food and I've been relaxing. I may just do fun things for the rest of the day.

My anxiety sucked today. I took a couple Xanax mid morning. Then 45 minutes ago I took another 1mil and a 1mil XR at the same time. I also took my regular night meds a few minutes ago. So 100 mil of Geodon, 200 mil of lamictal, and 20 mil of propalanol.

I feel kinda woozy and lightheaded right now from everything but I feel better anxiety wise.

My anxiety was fine today. I still took a bit more Xanax then I should have. But I didn’t watch any news on purpose since yesterday it caused a lot of panic. I also didn’t drink any coffee because I couldn’t get to any coffee place today. So I just stuck with Coke Zero which was about 100 milligrams of caffeine for all 3 cans instead of the usual 300 mil from the coffees I get.

Anxiety 5 of 10

Anxiety very high today, talking about it with temporary pdoc from IOP tomorrow.

My anxiety is fine today. I may have a had a bit too much caffeine. My anxiety is fine but I probably need to look out for my heart as well. I had an iced latte from Dunkin Donuts then a couple hours later I had one of those new Cokes with coffee. I took a .5 Xanax just for maintenance. But I feel fine.

I went to Walmart and I didn’t freak out about crowds or any weirdos looking at me. That is improvement. I was having an anxiety attack at the mall last Thursday.

I've been anxious most of the day because I'm not feeling well. The only thing that is helping is sleeping a lot.

Very difficult apprehension.

I had some anxiety yesterday that I was going to end up in hospital because of my racing heart, but it stopped before I could focus on it too much.

anxiety is lower today

I managed to push beyond my apprehension today to fulfill a necessary goal, & I'm feeling glad I did that. And I also feel a little bit stronger at the moment because of that.

I took my morning Geodon at 1:30AM because I have big issues with taking meds properly. I had a coffee coke at about 2:30 this morning. My anxiety was bad all day. I lost track of how many Xanax I had. Weirdly after a dragonfruit refresher from Dunkin Donuts which has caffeine in it my anxiety slowed down a lot. Now I’m ok but tired. I took my Geodon half an hour ago and I’ll probably end up taking the morning dose in 6 hours or so. Med manipulating my Geodon is causing huge issues. I also don’t think it’s very safe to be taking 160 milligrams so close together.

I'm having to leave the house and take care of something I dread. Trying to think less about the anxiety I feel and more about how I will feel a relief getting it out of the way.

My anxiety isn't too bad today really.

I'm doing the best I can to keep my anxiety down. I acknowledge my anxious feelings & talk to them as if I'm their mother. I realize that my feelings are like children & need comforting & guidance.

My mind can’t even comprehend Covid or the South African variant today. I’ve blocked it out of my mind and I can’t tell if I’m avoiding my thoughts or doing healthy distraction. I’ve only taken one .5 Xanax. I chugged a bunch of water which is my other anxiety coping skill. I have this theory that I can water out my system of anxiety. It’s probably just a bunch of BS distorted thinking. Sounds like a new age yen or zen or whatever type thing actually.

I have very little anxiety today.