[kala83]

after nearly 5 days of being manic I have finally fallen to a point of being depressed and it seriously came out of no where

I just ended up feeling like I was being selifsh and not helping out people that I care about as much as I needed to and started randomly balling my eyes out in my car...
not one of my greatest moments....this week with being snowed in and having FAIRLY expensive car issues has been incredibly stressful on me....in general..
I have always been fairly hard on myself ...but lately I just have seemed to be even more so as of lately.

[tigersassy]

Got told to calm down at work yesterday. Didn't realize I was acting up. Third health person confirmed mania. If only pdoc appt was sooner.

-Tig

[Cocosurviving]

I've been stressed from being around others
that are going at it. You can feel the tension between them. It's hard for me to not be around
them but I'm trying to limit my time. On to me personally I've been dealing with a lack of financial funds. I'm near the bottom of the barrel. I've filed for disability and I'm playing the waiting for a hearing game with them. Then my windshield got cracked I guess by a rock on the
interstate. It has to be replaced. In a nutshell I'm try to stay centered. I do not need to be around constant screaming and bickering.

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things have been pretty calm here.

i've started reading again (in hope that it will inspire me to restart my journal). i'm reading terry pratchett's disc world series.. for like the 5th time

don't think i've anything else to say. life's been pretty dull (as usual) but for now stable enough

even laughed at something yesterday (a comedy show) and i never laugh at anything, or rarely

[Phoenix_1]

Still a shut-in after knee surgery. I'm afraid to go out because all the sidewalks and parking lots are so icy. I fell in my bedroom Thursday night. It took me forever to get up and the pain is only now receding. The pain pills the orthopod gave me don't work. I hate this. I'm depressed and don't have a clue what to do about it. I don't see a way out any time soon. I see my pdoc on the 26th. I need to make an appointment to see my T. Please let spring come soon.

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So I didnt last long before getting sucked back in. Stress drove me back into bad habits. Today will be a distraction day online. I just need to remember not to get pissed off at all the uneducated and unhelpful posts. Life hurts, I am coping, its not affecting my mood but it is making me emotional and drives me to not so healthy coping strategies. I feel guilty for failing but I guess its always 2 steps forward and one back...

[blue_eyes23]

feeling really sad today, like no one understands how I feel. Im feeling neglected by my husband and family. I am trying to fix it, but it seem that talking about it makes it worse, I am praying I can feel better tomorrow. all I want to do is sleep all day. that's my depression, I am proud that I have not gotten angry, or have rage, but its sever depression, im not suicidal, thank goodness, but I am overwhelmed, and sad, like in a dark room, and I cant find the light, but I keep searching and will never stop looking for the light, and once I find it, it shines so bright, I feel over joyed with good emotions, I love being happy. And hate being sad. As do all of us. I will get thru how I am feeling, and it is a process making any relationships work, I cant control what or how others act, but I can control my self. I need to remember this, and the good things that come of it.

[blue_eyes23]

[Roblovescats]

Feeling depressed.

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[LadyShadow]

Pretty calm here. Feeling pretty sad after being dumped, but handling it pretty well. I hope to sleep through most of the day tomorrow.

[Phoenix_1]

Not showering. Bored and restless at the same time. Can't concentrate. Housebound. No one phones. All my friends have disappeared since I can't go out. Depressed.

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[x_BabyG_x]

Better, if a little high.

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Blugh sucked in and addicted to the net again. I thought I might fall in a hole this week, I had a stressful week last week and while its not triggered a mood episode it has made me cling to online distractions. I have a bit to do today, I will be happy if I get a few things done but motivation is really hard.

[manic_me]

I'm trying to stay on the bright side of things. I've been having trouble controlling emotions lately. For like 2 weeks I was extremely manic and now I'm having terrible rapid cycling. I'm still trying to find a way to see a doctor to get medicines and talk therapy. Hopefully I will be able to switch insurance to something that will cover that kind of stuff. I'm a full time student who tried working in addition too, but my grades suffered so bad and the stress put me in the hospital so now that I'm not working money is non existent. But again, to look on the bright side, once I graduate I will be able to make big money and get the help I need

[tigersassy]

Anger has been burning so deep inside me. But at the same time I'm up. Well maybe it's not at the same time. I'm up until something annoys or pushes a button. Then I want to hurt someone. I'm sleeping but it's only because of the seroquel my dose got upped. In the hope that I'll even out. In the past 3 days I've spent too much money not that right now I don't have it, but some needs to be saved. Just in case I get put in the hospital. I'm not hidding the problems I'm having while I'm at work. My desire to be noticed for my special abilities is too strong.

-Tig

[x_BabyG_x]

A lot better, starting to slowly be sociable again but anxiety is still tearing me apart.

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[tigersassy]

Is it possible to be manic and be able to sleep only when you take your med (seroquel). I mean... I know if I wasn't taking the seroquel I wouldn't be sleeping for 6.5-8 hours. But because I'm sleeping that long does it mean I'm not manic? So confused.... I want a straight answer but I don't think I'll get one...

-Tig

Originally Posted by tigersassy

Is it possible to be manic and be able to sleep only when you take your med (seroquel). I mean... I know if I wasn't taking the seroquel I wouldn't be sleeping for 6.5-8 hours. But because I'm sleeping that long does it mean I'm not manic? So confused.... I want a straight answer but I don't think I'll get one...

-Tig

If you are still having other symptoms of being manic, the fact that seroquel puts you down for a few hours doesn't change it. Hang in there
with us!

[Cocosurviving]

My day was a bxtch plus ten. I was asked to work which I didn't mind doing after my pdoc appt. I had to cancel my CM appt tho. Received a call from my CM she thought I was a no show. The fukn receptionist did not cancel my appt. I vented to her several things that were on my mind. 1. I live someone that I can not stand. 2. I have no choice b/c I'm wait on my disability 3. The disability ppl are dragging their fukn feet 4. 5. I'm around ppl that regularly agree all the time
I asked my CM if she could look into why it's taking the SSA so long to contact me abt appt. They are suppose to have me meet with a psychologist

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[Roblovescats]

Crashing hard from mania getting depressed rather quickly. I don't like this.

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[manic_me]

Originally Posted by Roblovescats

Crashing hard from mania getting depressed rather quickly. I don't like this.

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You are not alone. I'm going through the same thing. I spent over 2 weeks consciously manic and now am coming down into depression hard. Feel free to let me know if there's any way I can help you and I wish you the best of luck ��. Just remember to keep your eye on the prize (in theory) we all have to stable out sometime, and usually (if it doesn't cycle) depression is the last phase! Sorry, idk if this helps or is even true, just what I was told and it seemed optimistic. I hope something helped ��

[sayako]

I'm told I'm psychotic. I feel and think more well than ever.

[Moreta]

I woke up early today. Hopefully I can get some work done today. Yesterday was hectic at work and I think I messed something up, so I feel bad about that.

i've decided that pop-up blockers on computers are pointless. (and had an angry session because i couldn't get in to a certain window). i actually at 1 point popped the control key out of it's socket- powerfull!

all this over a missed show

[Roblovescats]

I'm worried that my students will find out that I have bipolar I and will lose all respect of everyone I work with and teach. I make conscious efforts to not be emotional but as you all know that's not always possible. I'm glad I'm not manic anymore. I would rather be depressed. I feel like taking tomorrow off. I worked on both Saturday and Sunday tutoring my students for an upcoming test. Nine days straight is getting to me. Anyone heading to Starbucks I need a cup of coffee!!!

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