[tigersassy]

Did yard work yesterday since it was beautiful. Got half the yard raked. Repotted some "rescue" plants. And felt overly productive. Little sleep the night before like 4 hours. Took a hot bath to relax my muscles. Wound up taking half of a tylenol pm because everything started to hurt. Didn't go to sleep until 9 ish to be up at 4. Want really tired until after meds kicked in. Thats the only reason I went to bed. Plan on finishing yard work today and maybe painting or shopping. Don't know yet. Oh and everything is going so slow. I feel like I'm watching slow motion videos instead of living life.

Tig

Today was not too bad. The longer I am in this clinic the more I notice the huge amount of incorrect information and advice being given on this site. Some of it is downright dangerous and people are self diagnosing left right and centre! I think again it is harmful to come here but I do appreciate the support from those that I really do believe struggle as I do. I like the daily check in thread but please friends be aware that there is some really wrong information given out, particularly in the bipolar forum. Be careful with what advice you take. to all.

[tigersassy]

Originally Posted by Supanova

Today was not too bad. The longer I am in this clinic the more I notice the huge amount of incorrect information and advice being given on this site. Some of it is downright dangerous and people are self diagnosing left right and centre! I think again it is harmful to come here but I do appreciate the support from those that I really do believe struggle as I do. I like the daily check in thread but please friends be aware that there is some really wrong information given out, particularly in the bipolar forum. Be careful with what advice you take. to all.

Thanks. Good to know and be reminded.

Tig

[Phoenix_1]

Originally Posted by Supanova

Today was not too bad. The longer I am in this clinic the more I notice the huge amount of incorrect information and advice being given on this site. Some of it is downright dangerous and people are self diagnosing left right and centre! I think again it is harmful to come here but I do appreciate the support from those that I really do believe struggle as I do. I like the daily check in thread but please friends be aware that there is some really wrong information given out, particularly in the bipolar forum. Be careful with what advice you take. to all.

I agree. People are changing their meds without consulting their pdocs and diagnosing themselves. Not good. I appreciate your comments. Thank you Supernova.

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[bumble2u]

Literally feeling like I am on the roller-coaster to simultaneous bliss and hell. Both keep clashing in the middle. How can I know everything yet do nothing? drawing now have to finish drawings. yep the feeling of eating my own head from the inside out.

[Roblovescats]

Yes we are bipolar and one minute I think one thing the next minute the opposite... I'm sure the value of any advice I give would depend on how I'm feeling at the time if it weren't for the fact that my advice is probably never worth the price you pay for it regardless of my mood!!! I will try to avoid giving any because I am no expert... Except with baking cinnamon rolls. I'll give advice on that all day long!! I'm still a little torn though on including the pecans.... Any advice on that?

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[swheaton]

Pecans..

[swheaton]

I'm doing okay. I'm feeling a little disjointed, but I think it's from lack of sleep. My mood is nice and calm. Feels good.

[Phoenix_1]

Pecans for sure. Don't use walnuts.

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[Roblovescats]

Ok wow what a surprise the "nuts" want the nuts!!

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[Roblovescats]

Originally Posted by swheaton

I'm doing okay. I'm feeling a little disjointed, but I think it's from lack of sleep. My mood is nice and calm. Feels good.

I really think lack of sleep is the biggest factor that sends me into depression or mania. Unfortunately it bothers my significant other when I sleep. She doesn't understand why I need so much sleep. I never really thought 8 hours was a lot! I get very mentally drained some days and it causes me to become physically tired. I just need to sleep when it happens but I catch all heII for it from wife. I mean I understand wanting help around the house but why is it my duty to clean the kitchen after she messes it up making food only for herself?! Vent vent vent..... Ah ok much better anybody want a cinnamon roll???

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[swheaton]

I hear you, Rob. My spouse is much better at letting me sleep. He doesn't complain much-a rested me is much more fun to be around A cinnamon roll would be lovely.

[tigersassy]

Too much stuff in my head. Can't make it slow down. Should be sleeping, but not freaking tired. Day 3 here we go. Fun fun fun... Need to force sleep. Night.

Tig

[Cocosurviving]

My day was fair. I was with a frd the majority of it and we celebrated her bday. We grabbed a bite to eat. I gave her a gift basket that she really loved. I faced a big challenge today that really pissed me off. I reported it and will be following up too.

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[redbandit]

I slept way too much today feel very depressed and have a migraine. so sick of feeling like this! why can't anything help?

[Notnrml85]

Why don't people understand that a lot of the time I just need to sit in silence with someone who I know really cares... Someone who shows me that they care by not punishing me for my symptoms and not telling me I'm selfish for feeling so depressed sometimes, or that mania isn't so bad cause at least you get stuff done; not just someone who feels like it's their obligation to babysit me when I'm suicidal, then when I'm not suicidal they just act like I shouldn't need anything and I should just be fine. There is a f-ing grey area between okay and not okay. I can be functioning and still need huge amounts of help. How I seem on the outside is NOT how I really feel.
I guess someone without bipolar has nothing close to a clue what it's like to feel such raging and intense emotions over sometimes seemingly small things.
I feel like the next person who tells me something I don't want to hear or tells me that I shouldn't let the little things bother me is going to get a verbal lashing and that's lucky that's all they're going to get. I'm sick of people treating me like I'm super strong and don't need a thing when I'm actually crumbling inside. I've been through too much bad stuff to deal with anymore right now. I should just stay in bed for the next 3 days like I really want to and see how everyone does without me faking it just to make everyone else happy.

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[Alone & confused]

Notnrml, I'm not suicidal, but everything else you said about people thinking your stronger than you are on down was like you read my mind! I just told my friend today that I ought to go back to the psych ward and see what everyone would do without me! And that just because I got out of bed today doesn't mean I'm ok! I feel like everyone I know (in rl not here) thinks that I've got it all figured out, I know how to cope, I'm "so tough" just because I'm not criminally insane yet, or locked up or something so I MUST be able to take on THEY'RE problems too! I sarcastically keep telling them "come back next week, I'm gonna be walking on water!" I don't know WHY, on our good days, people seem to want to put more weight on our backs to pull us back down instead of trying to help us stay ok or get even better.

[LadyShadow]

Numb today, not feeling anything. Not sad not happy, just existing. I feel like I'm deep in a barrel and I can't climb out. Completely stuck, hopeless and helpless.

[Curiosity77]

I've been feeling a little better each day. I've managed to work out 3 times in the last week, which is really good because i was not going at all for the last couple months when i was depressed.

I think it was a mistake for me to try to lower my dose of saphris on my own. That was a couple of months ago, and i'm only now coming out of the depression it caused. I want to try to reduce it again, but when i try it my therapist will refer me to a naturopath to supervise and help with the withdrawal. I'm going to wait a few months to get stable before trying again. I wish mu pdoc would supervise the withdrawal, but she won't. He said stopping saphris would be a "disaster." I really don't want her to be right...

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Notnrml85 and Alone & confused, I will third, fourth and fifth that! I was thinking just this morning that it seems like I'm at the top of everyone's "don't worry about her" list (when they think at all, you know?). Whatever it is, I'm just supposed to be able to "handle it". It's exhausting. 90% of the time it's like desperately treading water just to make it through the day. It's an all-out effort just to keep up with the basics. If I look calm, I'm probably just numb or completely zoned into a short circuit from overload. It'd be funny if it weren't so true. I spend a lot of time short-circuited. It's really not the same as coping...

These things especially ….

Originally Posted by Notnrml85

...Someone who shows me that they care by not punishing me for my symptoms... I can be functioning and still need huge amounts of help... I'm sick of people treating me like I'm super strong and don't need a thing when I'm actually crumbling inside. I've been through too much bad stuff to deal with anymore right now...

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

... I feel like everyone I know (in rl not here) thinks that I've got it all figured out, I know how to cope, I'm "so tough" just because I'm not criminally insane yet, or locked up or something so I MUST be able to take on THEY'RE problems too!..

or able to take on the s*** you're supposed to put up with from other people (at work for instance) then just carry on like it's no big deal on top of everything else...

Hugs all around!

Im feeling really overwhelmed today. Group was good, but we have homework and I had so much to do this afternoon that took me so long that I am not sure I can get the homework done. I have another long group tonight too and still need to eat and shower somewhere in there. Really feeling like a hug but nurses only give drugs not hugs. Trying some relaxation techniques, chamomile tea and distraction right now but the feeling of being overwhelmed is not leaving me. I do not want PRN medication but the nurses are only going to tell me to try what I am already doing. So coming here and reading what other people are struggling with is a distraction.

I wish you all well

[feferock]

I'm decent today. Kinda regretting the impulsive decision to cut my own hair yesterday. Not because it's uneven but because I miss the length. It was to my stomach. Now it's halfway between shoulders and breasts. Ugh why didn't I just go get it trimmed. And then I'm like why am I so concerned about my hair? I'm just gonna put it in a ponytail anyway

Fefe(28) -bipolar II
Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

[x_BabyG_x]

I'm finding myself starting to take control of the anxiety, it's not as bad but it's still there. I'm getting stronger by the day but I have been at work. Off the rest of the week so we will see. I'm also getting some sleep thanks to a hypnotherapy app I downloaded on the iPhone! Brilliant! I'm also placing it accountable for my decreased anxiety and whether down to the placebo effect or not, I'd highly recommend it!!

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[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Notnrml85 and Alone & confused, I will third, fourth and fifth that! I was thinking just this morning that it seems like I'm at the top of everyone's "don't worry about her" list (when they think at all, you know?). Whatever it is, I'm just supposed to be able to "handle it". It's exhausting. 90% of the time it's like desperately treading water just to make it through the day. It's an all-out effort just to keep up with the basics. If I look calm, I'm probably just numb or completely zoned into a short circuit from overload. It'd be funny if it weren't so true. I spend a lot of time short-circuited. It's really not the same as coping...

These things especially ….


or able to take on the s*** you're supposed to put up with from other people (at work for instance) then
just carry on like it's no big deal on top of everything else...

Hugs all around!

Exactly!

[r010159]

I have symptoms that indicates I am moving into mania. It looks like Lamictal does not help really well with this type of mood swing. But I am on Zyprexa, so it may not be too bad.

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