[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

i'm feeling seriously hurt.

today's my sister's birthday, and out of the kindness of my heart ordered her a gift

she rang me today.. " just letting you know, i don't want you to wish me happy birthday. i don't want any ****ing gifts from you... remember you're not part of this ****ing family, and goodbye"

sharp kick in the stomach or what.. i know my family don't support me and they don't like me being part of events- christmas, birthdays, easter, what ever else... but to be told that at 6 in the morning... i feel really hurt.

That's very unpleasant.

What caused such behaviour?

Turning the other cheek is probably best. Maybe send her the gift with a note saying you hope your relation will change, improve, and though she isn't receptive to your love, you'll continue to give it. Just a short note.

As long as you do what you can. Then don't invest more time into it: it's her, not you. You can be happy without their love, even on days like these.

Be the loving, kind Stoic. If it's meant to get to you, show them/her it doesn't. Be undeterred.

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

That's very unpleasant.

What caused such behaviour?

Turning the other cheek is probably best. Maybe send her the gift with a note saying you hope your relation will change, improve, and though she isn't receptive to your love, you'll continue to give it. Just a short note.

As long as you do what you can. Then don't invest more time into it: it's her, not you. You can be happy without their love, even on days like these.

Be the loving, kind Stoic. If it's meant to get to you, show them/her it doesn't. Be undeterred.

what you have to remember about my family, is.. that even if i was the last person on planet earth- they wouldn't talk to me, support me, nothing

they've shut me out since i was a child.. only call me now and again to make rude remarks

nothing caused it- they are just mean

sending the gift back today... her loss

[Tsukiko]

Yes, shattered, most definitely her loss. I know this must hurt terribly but at the end of the day, you can say you've tried. That is what matters.

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[Icare dixit]

I'd still try to be so kind they'll have no reason left, none whatsoever, to be mean. Feelings of guilt will get to them eventually. They might still not want to speak to you, but they'll get what they deserve.

Send the gift. Imagine people asking who's that gift from. Who knows what pack of lies they've told others about you.

Turning the other cheek can destroy empires. It has.

Call it active-non-aggressive.

[Icare dixit]

Maybe send 3 or more gifts, by courier, spread out over the day.

Edit:
Maybe not. May come across as crazy.

[gina_re]

I'm really curious if it's this crappy weather that is making me feel like crap. I'm working from home today, and just looking out of my office window...ugh. Even with the light on I just want to crawl back into bed.
But I've been in a funk for the past two weeks or so, and now I've had anxiety on and off the whole time. I thought it may be related to that upcoming therapy session last week. But that has come and gone and it's still there. I'm getting anxious being around people, and I can't figure out why because this has never been a concern. I'm trying to wait and see, but I will be writing my pdoc later. Besides, I think it is time to send her an update regarding the increase of Lamictal anyway.

[Tsukiko]

I don't know about where you live, but in the US, I think doing something like this may be considered harassment and people can get into deep crap over it!

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

Maybe send 3 or more gifts, by courier, spread out over the day.

Edit:
Maybe not. May come across as crazy.

[SillyMom]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

i'm feeling seriously hurt.

today's my sister's birthday, and out of the kindness of my heart ordered her a gift

she rang me today.. " just letting you know, i don't want you to wish me happy birthday. i don't want any ****ing gifts from you... remember you're not part of this ****ing family, and goodbye"

sharp kick in the stomach or what.. i know my family don't support me and they don't like me being part of events- christmas, birthdays, easter, what ever else... but to be told that at 6 in the morning... i feel really hurt.

Some of my family is like this. They are the worst type of people ever. Very materialistic and controlling. I've cut them out and never looked back

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[Icare dixit]

I feel like someone is carving into my soul.

i've juist ordered a pizza.

their goes my near perfect week of good eating. (oh well screw it. 1 takeout won't hurt me)

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Tsukiko-chan

I don't know about where you live, but in the US, I think doing something like this may be considered harassment and people can get into deep crap over it!

Not in the US. I don't think shattered sanity is either.

I think I'd be convicted for harassment every manic episode.

Will they just have you committed (never happened to me), in the US, or do they charge you with harassment and have you committed (if "need"/need be)?

Interesting.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

i've juist ordered a pizza.

their goes my near perfect week of good eating. (oh well screw it. 1 takeout won't hurt me)

I think I ate five in three days. Is that bad?

[gina_re]

I had to just use my PTO today for work. This headache is killing me..

Another distracted day at work

Pdoc refuses to give me ADHD medication, and has done some very questionable things... such as intentionally giving me an antidepressant without a mood stabilizer just to "test" if I'm bipolar. Or that time I was manic and he prescribed me gabapentin and said take a sleeping pill. Thinking about reporting him

[Standup2me]

I am saying prayers for those living in Northern Alberta who are displaced and/or lost their homes to fire.
I am safe, I pray for those who are not

Nonsense is fading to the background. I think things are getting on track.

[hopeless2015]

Home today I hate depression

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I feel anxious because my Scrabble club is meeting in a new location and i hate taking the bus unfamiliar places. But i had a nice afternoon at my support group. I just chatted with others and had a pleasant time -- nothing heavy and no one waxing too serious about how they're struggling and changing.

[Takeshi]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

i'm feeling seriously hurt.

today's my sister's birthday, and out of the kindness of my heart ordered her a gift

she rang me today.. " just letting you know, i don't want you to wish me happy birthday. i don't want any ****ing gifts from you... remember you're not part of this ****ing family, and goodbye"

sharp kick in the stomach or what.. i know my family don't support me and they don't like me being part of events- christmas, birthdays, easter, what ever else... but to be told that at 6 in the morning... i feel really hurt.

I find you very kind hearted. Sorry that your kindness was repaid that way, I vaguely remember you talked good of your brother before, I hope whatever good relationship you have left with your family, I hope it stays that way. And I was very glad to hear about your new friend, from the way you talked of her, she won't be dismissing anything that comes out of your good heart.

Kindness or forgiveness, I'm free of it. Does it sound like double entendre?

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I am saying prayers for those living in Northern Alberta who are displaced and/or lost their homes to fire.
I am safe, I pray for those who are not

I am SO glad you are safe. It's horrific what's happening with that fire. The video from people driving down Hwy 63.... my God. Harrowing.

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I'm going to try to get some things done today. After yet more raging meltdown yesterday, it's starting to dawn on me that this might be mixed. It's always the hardest state for me to recognize, probably on account of being too caught up and thrown around in the chaos. But raging meltdowns, depths of despair, joking, tackling projects, despite why bother because I'd rather be dead, to wanting to just say screw it and sleep around the clock, but (for several nights now) having to take 3 rounds of meds to knock me out from looping catastrophic and self-loathing thoughts, laughing through semi-marathon dvd watching. And so on. Exhausting. This level of turbulence is not typical for me! Writing (some of) it down here is making it clearer. Will make appointment.

[lilypup]

Day started out well. Got stuff done I had set out to do. Husband and son left and I am alone. Feeling very anxious and a touch depressed possibly. Oh god, hope it is not depression.

[Tsukiko]

Oh, no. I imagine most cases of harassment are not severe enough to get someone committed. Arrested or fined but not committed.
And yeah, some of my manic episodes have made me harrass-ish as well. LOL

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

Not in the US. I don't think shattered sanity is either.

I think I'd be convicted for harassment every manic episode.

Will they just have you committed (never happened to me), in the US, or do they charge you with harassment and have you committed (if "need"/need be)?

Interesting.

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by gina_re

I had to just use my PTO today for work. This headache is killing me..

I took some ibuprofen because I couldn't take it anymore. I was knocked the f out!! But it's gone!

[scatterbrained04]

The past two days have been really sucky.

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[piano97]

I worked a full day. I felt really foggy this morning but it got better thru the day. I had therapy for first time in several weeks. It was good and helpful. Some things I needed to hear. Some I didn't like. But I went and did it. And got in another full day of work.