[Standup2me]

Another day of living the dream she said with tongue planted firmly in cheek

Bought a cake for my dad for Father's Day. The cake decorator at Walmart miswrote "you're" as "your"!

Grammar, people! Grammar!

Oh well. What is done is done. My sister and I had actually told the cake decorator to write "you are" instead of "you're". The lady even confirmed the order when we made it. Like, she confirmed that we said "you are". Whatever. I'm not too peeved. My sister is livid, though. lol. "We should demand a refund!"

In other news, my dad went on a rant yesterday about mental illness after he read a story about some local kid with autism who unintentionally hit an elderly woman with his bike. I don't want to repeat what my dad said because it's particularly triggering, but yeah... what he basically made his same "argument" about how people with MI "need to be locked up for the rest of their lives before they further damage society".

[Sunflower123]

We got back last night after an 8 hour drive. We had word waiting on us that my daughter had been awarded 4 scholarships to a big university 2 hours away that will pay for everything from room and board, tuition, even books. I am proud of and excited for her. I'm also very grateful because neither her father nor I could afford that college.

I know she has to fly and I'm learning to let go. I don't show it but I knew this was probably going to happen and I've tried not to think about it. It's really been hard for me depression and anxiety wise although I don't let on to her. I had bad dreams last night about it and woke with a pounding heart. Am I just a big mess or what?

My life has revolved solely around her to the point that my pdoc and tdoc are worried about what will happen when she leaves in less then a month. I don't know what I'm going to do. This less then a month thing came rather suddenly. My tdoc wants to see me once a week and my pdoc every four weeks with a call in once a week. I hope that's enough.

Hope everyone is ok and hugs to those that are struggling.

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Objects become currency.

We are there too. Roof: Objective #1

To all who are going through a rough time.

Here... Not good. I'm lost. The usual. BF is incapacitated by head pain and is at a week and a half now of being bedridden. This has become a frighteningly common occurance. (He's been under care for a few years now about this.) Then it all falls to me and I can't handle it. I'm seriously unequipped. I don't know what is going to happen.

I had a Dr. appt. this past week and mentioned unrelenting tiredness. She was not surprised. She knows I'm his sole caregiver and we're in a bad way financially. Sorry to blather, it just weighs so heavily and I don't talk about it.

Mood is head above water, but some crying spells. (I reduced a couple of meds that seemed to be keeping me from being able to do that -- and it felt necessary for release. Have a psych appt. this week, will discuss.)

[liveforsummer]

Ok I think it's time to get up for the day and shower..here I go .....

[scatterbrained04]

Doing a lot better today. I don't know what was up with yesterday. No triggers or anything. I'm still scratching my head over that one.

Today I've been cleaning. My son had MY bedroom completely disgusting. I got my floor picked up. The rest I'll have to do in small chunks over the next few weeks. Got most of our bedding washed, including tossing the pillows in the wash. Also did the dishes.

Will be picking up what little is on my living room floor and vacuuming here in a couple minutes. Then grocery store. Then other than laundry I'm calling quits to cleaning for the day.

[dshantel]

I dont really know how to say how I'm feeling. So much going on in my head. Its all kind of just jumbling together.

[Moose72]

N1 can get her level 1 driver's license! Then she drives for so many hours and gets her Level 2.

[Moose72]

I'm reading this lately. Oddly, its soothing. https://www.amazon.com/Moreschi-Voic.../dp/1905791429

[liveforsummer]

Feeling better after finally getting up. Just feeling fidgety/restlesss.
Shall make a yummy Father's Day dinner.
Happy Fathers Day to all the dads out there

I'm feeling good. Second day of taking high potency vitamin B stress pack which seems to be helping a lot. I'm just really afraid what's around the corner.

[Incubus]

Feeling like crap. Bad father's day. No one cares

[Moose72]

Listening to an old CD https://www.amazon.com/Hidden-Spirit.../dp/0877939667 a group I was in- The Ann Arbor Grail Singers http://annarborgrailsingers.org/about-us.html - made. This was when I was pregnant with N3 and now he's 15. I remember every nuance of recording those pieces- at least some of the better ones, I do. I can hear myself and I think, "I remember being able to sing like that, but I can't anymore." Then I want to go to the director and go over old times with her, but she died a few years after the recording was made in an accident. I think the group still exists, but I haven't been in it in years and years. All I can do is listen to the recording and remember. We were very good.

[Unrigged64072835]

Reminded daughter of Father's Day this morning. She's been under a lot of stress (school, work, boyfriend and his grandfather) and she forgot. Thankfully she got him "the weirdest card they had left" and a gift card to Bonefish Grill (his favorite restaurant). We're going out to dinner on Tuesday.

Did four loads of laundry (the quilt is still in the dryer) and made a hefty dinner. Other than that I've been trying not to move. I hurt and sweat buckets when I do. Mood has been kind of blah today. Didn't go to church because I was in pain.

[Moose72]

Fharraige, it sounds like you got a lot done despite being "blah", hurting and sweating buckets. Tuesday sounds like something to look forward to, though!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Incubus

Feeling like crap. Bad father's day. No one cares

I'm sorry you're having such a bad day. Hope things start looking up for you soon.

[liveforsummer]

Feeling batter now than I have all day. Bbq'd supper, dishes all done. While the moods good think I'll go for a walk.

[gina_re]

Another good day. I didn't go right back to sleep after my morning bowl of cereal like I usually do. I somehow found the energy to go outside and cut the grass in the backyard. It took like an hour, mostly because I took a few breaks since I'm not used to such hard labor lol. Then I showered and dressed and went to my aunts house where my mom and nephew were. Eventually my sister came over with my older nephew. He turns 8 tomorrow. I bought him one of those fidget spinners that are popular with all the kids these days. About an hour later from when my sister came to the house we decided to call it a day and we all went to our respective homes. I'm exhausted and ready to go to sleep.

[zijax]

Feel lifeless. Started on depakote and effexor two weeks ago and have been blah ever since. Had two red bulls and 2 pots of coffee and i just want to go to sleep. This is not going to work out.

[VerMOZZica]

I went to church in the morning with my Mom.Some of my family went too.Then later we went to a family gathering at my sister`s house for Father`s day.It was nice visiting with my family.It was a pretty good day.

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Roof: Objective #1

If you have homeowner's insurance: on Valentine's Day 2015 wind gusts in our neighborhood briefly exceeded a certain velocity threshold; a roofer inspected our roof and found relatively minor damage that could plausibly have been attributed to the Valentine gusts. He called our insurance company, they sent an assessor and we ended up with an entire new roof for a deductible of $975. Call a reputable roofer and ask for an inspection and a history of recent weather anomalies. The roofer told me about a little-known catastrophic possibility: past a certain hurricane wind velocity, all the solar panels on Oahu would detach from their mountings and fly away, posing lethal danger to life and property, so we have that to look forward to.

Yikes, that would be scary(!) That's a good price for your roof. We don't have homeowner's insurance, as we're renters. I meant it more in the keep a roof over our heads sense.

Off to sleep...

[Blaire]

Happy Father's Day to all you dads!

We had a nice family lunch at my sister in law's place. I had a spicy hot link that ruled. I remembered what a nightmare those family meals were when I was anorexic, and that made me feel very grateful to be free to eat what I want now.

It was over 100 degrees, so we took our daughter to the pool. She loved that. Then we came home and I worked on my profile page and my recovery journal. I battled a lot of weird thoughts, but I controlled my mind pretty well. It was a good day.

Today is going to be a looooooong day

Too much to do, so little time.

I'm getting stressed out and not getting much sleep, but the good news is that I think my meds have started to prevent hypo/mania, as usually I get hypo/mania after I start experiencing insomnia. Seriously, I'm exhausted.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Today is going to be a looooooong day


Too much to do, so little time.


I'm getting stressed out and not getting much sleep, but the good news is that I think my meds have started to prevent hypo/mania, as usually I get hypo/mania after I start experiencing insomnia. Seriously, I'm exhausted.

Time to power through with coffee.

I stayed up too late with a free trial on ancestry.com. Found my roots back to Germany in 1735. Also found the ones who emigrated to the US. Good times.

Time for more coffee.