[bizi]

only had one beer last night!
Think my bipolar impulses are getting under control!
YA!!!
bizi

[scatterbrained04]

Things have been going pretty well for me except work stress. Need to learn to minimize that somehow. I think pdoc must realize that's a big trigger for me. No wonder he wants to talk about my job so much.

Just been focusing on eating better and losing weight. Seems Latuda will not hinder my weight loss, which is good. Want to lose a few more pounds before I see pdoc, so I can be like "ta da, doc, lost 10 lbs" lol. Also been reading a lot and focusing on keeping my house a little cleaner.

At some point I should probably start seriously looking for a T, but the search is so frustrating, so for now I've put it off.

[Gabyunbound]

I just moved across country and have a new pdoc. She's actually an NP. In any case, she apparently sucks at prescribing and instead of sending regular Lamictal, she prescribed the dissolving one, which I don't need, and anyway my insurance doesn't cover it. She also sent me only 30 klonopin pills when on the questionnaire I was given by her office I wrote that I'm prescribed (or was) 40 pills/month, such that 10 of them are PRN.

I also had a 5-10 minute follow-up appointment with her, when I'm used to 30 minutes every appointment (my last 2 pdocs), which sucks. I'm stable, but I think it's very important to get to know the patient (talk about what's going on in life, etc.) so that if and when something goes wrong, you can respond to it in a more informed way. You can also get to know their baseline.

We'll see how it goes with her. The reason why I see her is because she's in the same office as my brother's pdoc because I didn't know where else to go. I don't want to just google pdocs and find one that way. But I'll give her a chance. Maybe next time I'll tell her about what's going on in my life and talk really fast, lol. I think she only has 10-minute slots.

[Miss Laura]

Had a fab night out last night. Thinking of going back on my meds next week as I don't want to go to the hospital. A little irritated today

[hopeless2015]

Doing good today. Took my husband out to lunch for his birthday today. We were supposed to meet friends out for dinner but my girlfriends dad is in hospital not doing well. Saying prayers for her today. Hugs to everyone

[liveforsummer]

Better day today. Not as anxious about being away. Walked this morning then went for swim. Had lunch and reading outside now. Snacking waaaay too much.

"It is no measure of health, to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society". <--- this is the quote stuck on a loop in my head today. Everyone keeps giving up on my son .....even when they are paid not to. With no details whatsoever they make judgements on his worth and abilities.....in a day and a half they want to kick him out because he cannot yet conform to a routine after admitting he's been pickling his brain daily for 2 years. What the hell is wrong with people? What the hell is wrong with me and my son that people give up so easily and happily with smug smiles upon their faces? I cannot communicate with these people in a way which they understand......we speak the same language in a technical sense but our comprehensions are so vastly different. I'm tired, I'm weakened, I'm losing all that I had and my body and mind are giving out. I'm trying to fight but everyday is a war.....to be treated with common decency seems too much to ask. People with too much power and not enough compassion is just a recipe for disaster and there is not one damned thing I can do about any of it.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs to those that need them.

After a grueling week of finals and other crap, my husband and I went to a park in the area. Even with temps in the upper 60s it was so humid that it felt 10 degrees hotter. Even so we took photos and enjoyed nature for a while.

Other than that--he's making roast chicken tonight so I'll make the side. I also vacuumed the living room and master bedroom. Hoping knocking some of the cat fur and dust down will help with the stuffy noses and watery eyes.

Mood is better today. Hope we can enjoy the next two weeks before school starts again.

[porcelainboy]

Why am I so awkward?
I went to a specialty supermarket today with my mom and my sister, and I repeatedly had to interact with others and failed every time. They may have seen it as either being disrespectful or just ditzy, but it's eating me up. I have zero social skills...

[Daonnachd]

I just turned down the teaching position. I came to the realisation that I could not do a good job of it.

[bizi]

I am sorry elsa.....
HUGS to vertigo (((((HUGS))))

Before lunch I saw clients in less than an hour so I got a longer lunch which was good. I am so tired after seeing 9 clients today. I saw 6 yesterday. Inormally see 4 or 5 a day.
after lunch I took a little bit longer with clients, got home at 6:20pm, Nicole showed up shortly afterward.
Pork came out great.
ate some raspberry gelato, man was that good!
I was going to take a bath but am too tired so am waiting to go to bed as late as possible.
Don't want to get up at 4 or 5 am.
I will take a hot shower in the morning.
My back is killing me!
bizi
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[bizi]

Amazed at how good I feel this morning from our new mattress!!
Just one beer last night. 5 days in a row.
yes! Moderation has come to me.....thanks goodness for meds and the right combination!
Feeling very blessed this morning.
bizi

Doing "okay", I guess.

Donating a bunch of old clothes and stuff to Goodwill, but the line has been suuuuper long today, so I'm eating at Panera across the street right now until the line dies down.

I just want this depression to end and for my extreme anxiety to subside, at least temporarily.

Also f_cked up and got triggered in therapy. Not doing the greatest.

[Wild Coyote]

Dystonia has let up since decreasing Wellbutrin.
I don't know what we'll do about meds now. I'm so sensitive to them.

I hope everyone is having some fun today.


WC

I'm sick, in pain, mind is racing, can't sit still or concentrate, can't focus on anything long enough to distract from the racing thoughts......it's not horrible.....I'm coping but it's not good either......had trouble sleeping last night and was talking in my sleep again according to my hubby....I was yelling at my son again according to him.....restless even in my sleep......I'm tired but wired....drinking a 20oz Red Bull and not sure if it's a good idea or bad......tomorrow I will know just how screwed my families situation might be........everyone telling me not to worry but unlike them I don't have a switch I can flip to turn it off.....it's not as easy as just not thinking. I hate to complain....it's not that bad.....or maybe it is......I don't know. I'm stressed, that much I know. (((Hugs to all who need or want them)))

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I'm sick, in pain, mind is racing, can't sit still or concentrate, can't focus on anything long enough to distract from the racing thoughts......it's not horrible.....I'm coping but it's not good either......had trouble sleeping last night and was talking in my sleep again according to my hubby....I was yelling at my son again according to him.....restless even in my sleep......I'm tired but wired....drinking a 20oz Red Bull and not sure if it's a good idea or bad......tomorrow I will know just how screwed my families situation might be........everyone telling me not to worry but unlike them I don't have a switch I can flip to turn it off.....it's not as easy as just not thinking. I hate to complain....it's not that bad.....or maybe it is......I don't know. I'm stressed, that much I know. (((Hugs to all who need or want them)))

Elsa, I'm sorry you're struggling so. Any chance your doctors could help you?

[bizi]

I am sure that once you hear the decision you have a better idea about the future and where/how to proceed.
Maybe you have a therapist to help you process all of this?
thinking about you tomorrow.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Moose72]

So many things to do this week. Finish cleaning the house (Noah) and my room needs vacuumed. Have a terrible Dr appointment too.

[bizi]

This is the email I sent to my pdoc:

Dr. Orazio,

Just a brief update:
I am happy to say that I think my meds are finally working.
Perhaps with the increased dose of seroquel to 100mg at night, it is acting as an additional mood stabilizer.
I have been able to decrease my drinking to1 beer a night since August 1st (the past 5 days). And able to diet since then as well, have lost 2 pounds so far (it is a start).
Our new bed arrived Saturday and I slept great last night!
I saw 9 clients at one location and came home with my back killing me and on a heating pad. Woke up feeling great with the new bed!

My picking has basically stopped which I am happy to report.

Stability has been a long time in coming.
Thank you for your assistance in my mental health care.
Elizabeth

[Guiness187055]

It's been a pretty good day. Mentally I feel good, physically my blood sugar has been out of control. Probably did not help that I had biscuits and gravy for breakfast. Went with my wife and son to the outlet mall to buy my son school clothes. It was relatively painless. I also booked our hotel room for the total eclipse. The family is driving from Florida to South Carolina to see it. We also were able to get our viewing glasses on Amazon hopefully they get here on time. I have a plan B if not. Have a great day.

[bizi]

Took a shower this morning and am on my third load of laundry.
Dinner tonight with friends,
life is very good.
bizi

[Moose72]

Yay bizi!

[Moose72]

Yay yay bizi!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I'm sick, in pain, mind is racing, can't sit still or concentrate, can't focus on anything long enough to distract from the racing thoughts......it's not horrible.....I'm coping but it's not good either......had trouble sleeping last night and was talking in my sleep again according to my hubby....I was yelling at my son again according to him.....restless even in my sleep......I'm tired but wired....drinking a 20oz Red Bull and not sure if it's a good idea or bad......tomorrow I will know just how screwed my families situation might be........everyone telling me not to worry but unlike them I don't have a switch I can flip to turn it off.....it's not as easy as just not thinking. I hate to complain....it's not that bad.....or maybe it is......I don't know. I'm stressed, that much I know. (((Hugs to all who need or want them)))

((((( ElsaMars ))))))

Much Love to You and Your Family

WC

[hopeless2015]

Nice quiet day today. Got a load of laundry done and put away. Took my Sunday nap and husband is grilling chicken for supper. I load and run dishwasher after. Hugs to everyone