[scatterbrained04]

I feel so STRESSED out!! I hope I can keep from having another episode.

[MobiusPsyche]

I'm sitting here waiting for it to be time for supper as it will mark time for me, not because I'm hungry. Having dinner is one step closer to bedtime, which is what I'm really looking forward to and waiting for. Not tired, just bored and sad.

[Unrigged64072835]

It seems that as soon as one thing winds down, another starts up.

We're done with this term. Husband was really stressed out today with his final exam. After that we did lunch (his comfort food) and grocery shopping. With the heat and humidity it wore him down. Now we have medical appointments out the wazoo, both his and mine. He just wants a day off. I don't blame him.

Daughter and her boyfriend went on a date today (how cute), but one of their friends is having family trouble so he may come over to get away from them.

Did a load of laundry and made dinner. My mood is kind of a rollercoaster at the moment. I feel bad for everybody.

[Wild Coyote]

Laid up for a couple of days with migraines and a very painful, stiff neck -- a few days after increasing Wellbutrin dose. Have now dropped the dose down in hopes of relieving those side-effects. Have tolerated lower doses for years.

hope to catch up here soon. Have been in too much pain.

Love to All!

WC

[xRavenx]

I had what almost felt like a panic attack today and started crying at work. Luckily, I wasn't around anyone. I'm hoping that I am cut out for this job and to keep working in general. It's frustrating that my meds are only doing so much, and I think I've been having some rapid cycling. I look at all of the things that I spent in the past month, and I'm horrified. I am looking for the receipts to certain things, but can't find all of them. It makes me feel so irresponsible.

[Standup2me]

Ah sleep, she is a cruel mistress.
Whispering in our ears
Calling us
Wrapping us in the comfort of her arms
Summoning us...and then slipping away like smoke under a door

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Take an Uber.

I live 2 hours from the hospital. Then I'd have to have them wait 2 hours while I undergo the procedure, then the 2 hour ride home.

I've never used Uber. What would that cost?

[bizi]

Just found out today that the new bed will come in on saturday...or rather it should.
I was hoping for a good nights sleep before saturday.
sigh
oh well
bizi

[Lifeischallenging]

Originally Posted by bizi

I don't understand how you ran out of meds?
Call the pdoc office and tell them what happened. They will help you figure it out, that is their job. Always remember they work for/with you.
good luck.
Call!
bizi
p.s. The pharmacy can help in this matter as well.
You need to take control of this matter.
Good luck at work!

Well, my pdoc only gives me so much to get me through to our next meeting. No refills. I think he wants to get me on a steady regimen is what is happening. I don't know. I will definitely be giving them a call. Tomorrow. I don't/can't be off them for long.

Reintoxication! Forgone hotboxing after approximately 80,000 metric bong hits over 16 years; that together with an aggressive organic diet has me losing weight precipitously as my body eagerly eats itself at the astonishing rate of a pound a day. I must be delicious. Fat cells retain THC, so I am still high all the time.

The appetite crash could be an indication that I still reside in the Mixed States, although my mood remains inarguably depressed. Losing 89 pounds by Halloween should be marvelous for my knees, self-esteem, and Unabomber costume.



Ukiyo-e (woodblock prints) depicting female guardians of Chiyoda Palace armed with naginata covering the retreat from a burning castle; Toyohara Chikanobu, 1896.

[RainyDay107]

Doing well! Sleeping very well, which is great for me. Enjoying time at the beach. The atmosphere is so relaxing.

Haven't been online here much but I'll get more involved soon. Yesterday, I was swimming, walking on the beach and spending time with loved ones.

I am having a struggle with my eating disorder right now. The ED board here is unhelpful for me, so I go elsewhere. Basically, bipolar and anxiety are in check, ED not so much. I can handle it, it just is requiring my attention right now. I'll level out, so to speak, if I focus. I'll spiral down if I ignore it.

[Miss Laura]

I'm relapsing!! I've been off my meds for 5 and a half weeks. I'm paranoid, delusional, hallucinating, self harming. I just saw my CPN (Community Psychiatric Nurse). He has mentioned the hospital but I am NOT going there. I'll be fine. He is off next week so I'm seeing him in 2 weeks time. None of my family knows what's going on. I can't rely on my 2 friends. It's not fair on them. He is disappointed in me as I was doing so well on my meds too. I was stable.

[hopeless2015]

Miss Laura, keep all your appointments and let them know what's going on. Hugs!!

Glad it's Friday, not feeling very motivated today, don't think anyone else is either, lots of chit chatting going on here at work lol. Mentally still feeling pretty good, and z pack and steriod is kicking in and feeling physically better as well...day 3 on those. Anyway, just need to get through to 4:30, then it's 2 days off! My son's birthday is today, he is 25!! How did that happen? Lol. Husband's birthday is tomorrow, dinner out with friends that night.

[Naynay99]

Doing okay. My cats staged a coup de etat against me when I wouldn't wake up this morning though. Can't a girl sleep late without getting pounced on?! Sigh.
Anyway, I am determined to clean up my messy house today- once agin it's the kitchen and dishes that I am avoiding. I wish I had a dishwasher. Ah well. I can do this. Well at least I can try anyway.

I am planning on going to a free outdoor concert tonite, a cover band that is supposed to be be good. Part of me wants to blow it off bc it's an hour away but I know I will regret it. All is fine here, I'm just feeling a bit pathetic and wishing my life was a little more like the people on tv and in the books I read. I would just like things to be easy and actually go my way for once. I have leaned enough fuucking lessons from the universe, thank you. I am tired of carrying more than my fair share of bad luck around on my back. I just want things to actually be okay and not have my life implode just when I am actually feeling good. Is that really too much to ask?? Anyway, take care everybody.
Still here...

Things are going better.....I'm afraid to jinx them by writing about them. It's as if something terrible will happen if I write about it. Magical thinking? Paranoia? A reasonable response to the stress I've been under? I don't know the answer but I'm staying cautious. My noodle is thinking again.....clear thoughts that I believe will serve me well in the long term. Maybe I'm wrong. Time will tell. I'm very hopeful at the moment but also with a healthy dose of fear to keep me on my toes. I'm wishing everyone well. ((Hugs))

[liveforsummer]

Feeling better today than yday. Still quiet, not talking much and trying to adjust to being on vacation. No SI today. By the time I feel good it'll be time to go home no doubt. Took an immovane again last night. Had to. Been sleeping awful. Last night slept 10 hours tho yahoo. Needed that. Doc follow up next thurs. Prob good thing.
Hugs to all struggling and hugs to all in a good place too!

Doing okay, I guess. A bit depressed, honestly.

Getting more and more worried about the removal of my wisdom teeth! I really am freaking out now that I have a set date for it and all.

At least my health insurance is covering it. Not sure how much I'll have to pay, but I know it's covered and that I'll pay less than I would if I had no insurance.

I just want it over with! I keep having anxiety dreams about it! But August 31st is the day. Set in stone.

[Unrigged64072835]

My husband needed a slow day. He got one. He was napping so hard I had to take my daughter to work. Managed to do it okay, but was flipping after I got home. At least the traffic wasn't bad. Had to chill out with more Vistaril for a while.

Now I need to make dinner. Hopefully I can do that.

[fishin fool]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Doing okay, I guess. A bit depressed, honestly.

Getting more and more worried about the removal of my wisdom teeth! I really am freaking out now that I have a set date for it and all.

At least my health insurance is covering it. Not sure how much I'll have to pay, but I know it's covered and that I'll pay less than I would if I had no insurance.

I just want it over with! I keep having anxiety dreams about it! But August 31st is the day. Set in stone.

I have had all my wisdom teeth out and honestly it really isn't that bad.
I know it is easier said than done but try not to worry to much you will
be ok.

[sonjaward809]

I'm doing a little better today, no voices or shadow people. I do keep smelling odd smells though, like food being cooked when nobody is in the kitchen. Other than that I'm still pretty depressed. I'm worried cause my psychotic symptoms seem to be coming back .. which usually mean hospitalization for me, so my anxiety is through the roof. I want to start therapy to help me work through the flash-backs I keep having of my past sexual abuse that went on. as well as the violence I saw while little... but I'm scared they will want to report it. I don't want to report anything which is why I don't say anything. But I plan on finally bringing it up to my doctor so I can get a referral for a therapist. It's been a rough few months and I've stayed quiet the whole time, it's time to speak up though. So wish me luck, hopefully I don't have to go IP.

[xRavenx]

I deleted my Google+ because I do not want to be found, nor do I want anything I've said or posted to come back to bite me. My privacy is really important these days. At this moment and time, I'm okay. On the way home in the car, I started losing my focus though, nearly had a panic attack. After tomorrow, I think I'm just going to stay in for a few days and hide.

[Cocosurviving]

My day has been ok. My dog woke me at 5am wanting to go out. I watched the last of Golden Girls on Hulu. I made some calls about taking a ceramics class. I use to take one when I lived in Tennessee. Lately I've been depressed and irritable. Winter I was fine then spring and summer it's been depression. I'm usually mixed or manic I'll be ok soon I hope. I started a Zoloft increase so hoping it helps.

[Daonnachd]

I had an interview today. I went in thinking it was for a teacher's aide position, but the principal made it clear she'd rather have me on as the Spanish teacher. This would be ranging from 3rd grade to eighth. I've never taught elementary, though, so that's scary.

Next, ECT has wiped out the majority of my teaching repertoire. I can barely remember being a teacher; I have an inkling that putting me in the classroom, especially with the smaller kids, would not be the best.

How do I negotiate this? It's a lot of stress, tons.

[Lifeischallenging]

I have some very good news. I have finally got my perscription. Am comfortably back on the lithium. My pharmacist was confused. She thought something else about my medication. But it was the one that was over a month ago that she was talking about. This has really made me think about wanting to go to another pharmacy like CVS or Walgreens or something. I was surprised to see a refill was given to me too. I still look at my situation and am really hesitant on buying a car, but I think I really should get one regardless of where I go to college.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by TheHPEnthusiast1987

I have some very good news. I have finally got my perscription. Am comfortably back on the lithium. My pharmacist was confused. She thought something else about my medication. But it was the one that was over a month ago that she was talking about. This has really made me think about wanting to go to another pharmacy like CVS or Walgreens or something. I was surprised to see a refill was given to me too. I still look at my situation and am really hesitant on buying a car, but I think I really should get one regardless of where I go to college.

Yes I think you need a car, giving you much more independence!
good luck!
bizi
We use our small pharmacy at a grocery store they know me!
Cvs is so big in my opinion.