[99fairies]

I could barley get the kids ready for school today. I woke up from a nightmare and then had horrible pain when I was trying to do their hair ect. Moving my arms too much brings on the spasms. I wish this damn haldol would leave my system already. Sorry for whining about the same old thing but my husband is totally done with my complaining.

Keeping you in my thoughts, Vertigo...


Over here, not doing well, but not organized enough in thinking to be able to go into what's going on. It's a jumble.

[WildcatVet]

*My Mood* says it all...feeling Goofy! Haven't felt this good...not TOO good though... for weeks. Hope it's not a glitch...it IS Friday the 13th ya know...

[bizi]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I could barley get the kids ready for school today. I woke up from a nightmare and then had horrible pain when I was trying to do their hair ect. Moving my arms too much brings on the spasms. I wish this damn haldol would leave my system already. Sorry for whining about the same old thing but my husband is totally done with my complaining.

could you ask for something other than haldol?
bizi

to be fair, I was doing rather well today,

that was until this afternoon when I had a panic attack while showering

and now I feel.... drained and stuff

[Daonnachd]

More turmoil - though things look better in general today, they are predicting red flag conditions for the weekend. I think my hair is turning grey with all the worry!

Nevertheless, I feel for all of you who are dealing with things in the mind. I believe that's tougher than what I'm facing right now. My heart goes out to you. I wish you strength and resilience.

[99fairies]

Bizi... I don't take it regularly. I was having some issues a couple weeks ago so I took one. It brought my dystonia back after I hadn't had any pain for over a week. So now I'm just waiting for that one dose to leave my system and hopefully I'll start feeling much better. Pharmacist said it can take up to a month for the haldol to be completely out of my system so right now it's just a waiting game...sigh.

[Sunflower123]

Vertigo — I’m praying that your neighborhood has been spared.

I’m having a really bad day. Nothing serious....just a generic bad day. It just helps to get it out. It’s one of those days where everybody irl is irritating and nothing is going right. Trying to turn it around.

Hugs to those that are struggling.

[Nammu]

It's Friday the 13th :dancingchili: and my grandson's 5th birthday! We're having a small pizza and cake celebration here before they go on the scary Halloween walk, then on Sunday he's having his party. Got him a scooter, book and skeleton. He loves Halloween.

[wildflowerchild25]

I Took a personal day to take my son to the dentist today. I took a two hour nap after he was done. I feel refreshed and more ready to take on my work. So that’s good. Im hoping to get some of my project done tonight but I’m feeling really anxious about it. It’s the biggest project of the course.

[scatterbrained04]

I've been doing some thinking this morning, as I frequently do. I think I may be dealing with situational depression and not the bipolar train ride from hell. I think I need to address the possibility of avoidant personality disorder with my pdoc. Plus I've been really bored. Today I think I will focus on thinking my way out of this and doing things to make myself feel better. If it I feel better, then it's situational and not clinical. Boy, having mental issues is so much fun.

[bpforever1]

I slept for two days straight then woke up today to go to a bar. But, the bar was closed!! hahahaaha I am glad I went out and got some fresh air. I also turned down the man who has bipolar. He wanted sex. Sex even though he has erectile dysfunction. I have another man who I like having sex with so I decided to stay with this man, instead of the man with bipolar. I don't like being used for just sex but the bipolar man thinks of me as a sex buddy. I liked talking to him but realized the sex was not great and just want to be friends with him. He is not happy but this is reality. I feel bad for him because I think he believes that we are both bipolar that we should connect. May be so for some, but not for me. I asked him if I could go to his place and he said no. Well, why not? He is still married and does not want me near his place. Well, then I am not sorry about not wanting to be with him. He is hurting his wife although they are separated and he is just using me for sex. He is getting what he deserves. This is hard for him but for me life goes on. I will not worry about him because he wants to remain married yet fool around with others. He has major problems besides his erectile dysfunction. He needs to address these before he can find anybody who will like him. He may be bipolar but this is no excuse for hurting others in his life. I find it hard to accept him as he is. This is the reason I really don't care for him. He should realize this. But, I'm not going to tell him unless he asks for the real reason I don't particularly like him. He is a grown man and should know that his actions speak louder than his words. He is nice to talk with but is not anybody I can trust. I should also realize he is still married even though he is separated and should just stay away from him. I think I will. I'm glad I turned him down for sex. May be he will leave me alone for good. This would be good for me!! I do like the other man anyways. So, I'm not unhappy one bit about this whole situation. I'm just tired of it.

[99fairies]

I lost my shyt last night. But after some zyprexa and a good sleep I feel much better today.

[Daonnachd]

Woke after only four hours of sleep, but I'm not feeling too much like I'm headed into hypomania. I think it's just the stress of the fires and the changing winds.

[xRavenx]

I have a horrible stomachache. I was looking forward to some good food, but that's not going to happen tonight.

[Lifeischallenging]

Feeling a little depressed today. Feel like no matter how hard I try, I will be stuck here forever. I'm trying, but I'm also scared like I'll fail. I'm doing good though. I have my job so thats good. I do good on hours. I just noticed though that they cut me. I have three days off and just over 20 hours. I'm still going to try, but its challenging.

[winter loneliness]

Yesterday was my birthday. So got that out of the way...

[Nammu]

Well happy belated birthday WL.

[liveforsummer]

1:58am. Can’t sleep. Wandering around the house listening to the rain outside.

[Wild Coyote]

Second night awake in excruciating pain.
Need sleep soon in order to avert a disaster.
I have plenty of pain meds; I just don't want to accidentally overdose on the combination of all of my meds, including adding too many prn meds.

Love to All!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by winter loneliness

Yesterday was my birthday. So got that out of the way...

A Belated Happy Birthday wish to you, Winter Loneliness!


WC

[bpforever1]

I am doing pretty good. I went out and ate a beef bowl. Then, I went shopping down the street. I vacuumed and washed my laundry. I am hoping to see the other man who I like for sex. He is a stud. He is cute and in good shape. I like him much. I do stuff for him too, such as buying his favorite foods. I don't think this is the reason he keeps coming back. I think he wants sex too. He has been my sex buddy since the beginning of this year. We are still together. He works a lot and is busy. He is smart too. I adore him. If he asked me to marry him, I would. But, for now, marriage is not in the picture. I am not in the position to marry. So, I don't worry about it. He does not know I have an illness. I like to keep it from him because I'm not interested in seeking his sympathy or care. I feel fine. I don't want to get too emotionally involved with anybody. We are sex buddies and if he said he had someone else, I'd let him go willingly. I want him to be happy. I'd be happy for him too. Sometimes it is nice to be with someone. I don't want to take care of him and vice versa. It works out well for both of us. I am happy! Tomorrow I work again. I don't have too much work and am enjoying my life.

[bpforever1]

Happy Birthday, Winter Loneliness!! I hope you celebrated somewhere with family and friends!!

[scatterbrained04]

Well yesterday I got out of the house and did some shopping, then spent some time playing games and watching a movie with my son. I felt much better. So I can somewhat rest easy that what I'm dealing with depression wise is NOT depression from bipolar. Nothing makes me feel better during that. So I think I can rest a little easier. I find bipolar episodes so traumatic, they kind of freak me out.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Second night awake in excruciating pain.
Need sleep soon in order to avert a disaster.
I have plenty of pain meds; I just don't want to accidentally overdose on the combination of all of my meds, including adding too many prn meds.

Love to All!

WC

Not good. I’m sorry you are in such pain and are losing sleep. I hope you’re able to get some sleep soon. I’m so glad you’re meticulous with your meds so as not to overdose. Thinking of you and sending big hugs.