[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

their are some really lovely people left in the world... just saying

managed to get a local place to cook me a christmas dinner, and deliver it to where I am

just explained I was agoraphobic and couldn't get out to enjoy one, and they said leave it to us... we'll do it

ssooooo sweet of them!

sooo sweet

now I don't have to worry about over cooking stuff, or undercookin.

I think it's lovely what they are doing

gives me faith in humanity

That’s so generous kind and beautiful that they did that!!! I hope the meal was yummy!!!

[wildflowerchild25]

Uuuugh I just don’t understand. I went from feeling like **** yesterday AM to singing and dancing with my son, to feeling like **** again this morning. I once again feel like I’m going to cry. That’s been every damn day for a week. I wish I could just cry and let it out. Maybe I need to watch a sad movie.

[Moreta]

Every day. Same breakfast. Plain greek yogurt with a scoop of herbalife wild berry protein beverage mix. EVERY DAY. *sings* every day is exactly the same....

I really need to get out of the house today. Gonna go to the herbalife club and get a shake, trader joes, and the juice shop. I've really been slacking. Need to get back into my routine and eating better.

Christmas is a cluster**** so far. My husband called his grandma yesterday and we don't have a place to stay down there, so I don't know if we're going to get to go. It's making me anxious that our plans aren't made cause I'd like to know what's going on. He should've called last week cause I bet hotels are filled up already. grrrr. His grandma didn't know who all was coming down either and asked the plans of my husband's brother and dad. **** if he knows. I swear this family needs to communicate better.

[pirilin]

Feeling good with 1st antidepressant. Paxil 20mg. Getting fat, but getting happy too.

[bizi]

mood is good, no real picking, no real urges to drink, losing 6 pounds so far, trying to not get stressed over the holidays.
Life is good.
zyprexa 2.5mg has not increased my weight or cravings.
I believe the naltrexone is helping with cravings...ie doing its job!
bizi

Doing good!
Slept a bit more last night than I have been lately. Have a job interview coming up soon too; I'm so excited to get back to work. I hope this lasts

[Daonnachd]

Heading off to ECT in a few minutes.

I wish you all a good day.

[jmariah001]

Feeling better today. I am not alone at the moment which is good. I am listening to music and relaxing. Got a library disc to watch later. Not sure how tomorrow will go. I will be alone again for 7+ hours. I took ambien the other day and slept through most of the hours. Oh well the extra income will be nice. At least I feel safe for the moment.

[Guiness187055]

Still feeling blah. Slept really well last night for a change. Finishing up Christmas shopping. Need four new tires for my car kinda bad timing but oh well. Have a great day.

[oh_lorelei]

Major victory! Despite feeling like crap and having no confidence and feeling fat since I've gained so much weight.... I went to my job interview. I nearly had a panic attack in the elevator and needed to do some breathing exercises but I went. And I think I did well!

So I feel better because of that. Unfortunately because I'm so tired all the time and sleeping all hours my schedule is messed up. I slept from 10-12 last night then I was up until around 4, slept till 7, awake a couple hours then slept 9-12ish. I'm still tired, I want to sleep more, but I needed to finish making my Christmas gifts ASAP.

Time for coffee.

[Unrigged64072835]

Kids are out of the house so I can start making this "test-run" apple-struesel pie without a lot of impatience.

Been a long week. Lots of getting meds, doctor and physical therapy appointments. I have physical therapy and dermatology appointments next week. Real fun, because I put on this "hypoallergenic/made for sensitive skin" facial lotion and it made my face bright red and splotchy. So much for that idea.

I'm getting anxious for next weekend. I have to make stuff, my daughter has to make stuff. So waiting to see who will have control of the kitchen. Best two out of three I guess.

Mood is kind of iffy. I'm ready for this to be over. Not so much my own feelings, but a lot of people are just being idiots out there.

Time to peel apples.

Hugs to all to want them.

[Wild Coyote]

Am exhausted. Was in too much pain to sleep well last night. Had appts. 10 AM to 4 PM. Need to find enough energy to cook dinner tonight.

Love to All!

WC

Lost my lamictal. Nothing I can do. Called pdoc; voicemail said out of the office until Tuesday. Left a message anyway. Called the emergency refill line at pdoc's office and no one picked up, so I left a message (and that was 8 hours ago). No one responded. Office is now closed and the after hours service won't let me ask about medication. They don't understand.

[xRavenx]

It took 2.5 hours to get home in the snow. Feeling irritable and agitated, like I'm going to jump out of my skin. I am going to take a clonazepam and see if it helps.

[Tucson]

I have been given a home equity line of credit that I am using. I have paid off all my other debts with this line of credit. Monthly payments is a small fraction of what I was paying before this. I can now eat better meals and stop borrowing money from a freind of mine. My wait loss of 60 pounds with not wanting this to happen has leveled out. I think I am starting to gain weight. I was paranoid while I lost weight. I am feeling better now. Now all I need is a job and have my DUI charges dropped for good reason.

[Pikku Myy]

Blahhhh... Flipping blahhh and ghrrrrr .. I hate life!

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Lost my lamictal. Nothing I can do. Called pdoc; voicemail said out of the office until Tuesday. Left a message anyway. Called the emergency refill line at pdoc's office and no one picked up, so I left a message (and that was 8 hours ago). No one responded. Office is now closed and the after hours service won't let me ask about medication. They don't understand.

Ask the pharmacy if they will spot you some pills against your refill. Good luck.

[Grizabella]

The last 2 weeks have been rough, but I think I've managed to hang on pretty well. Was able to get a bit of cleaning done today which always helps me feel better, even if it's just a few things. Sometimes the littlest steps make the biggest difference. Hugs to anyone who needs them!

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Still feeling blah. Slept really well last night for a change. Finishing up Christmas shopping. Need four new tires for my car kinda bad timing but oh well. Have a great day.

where is your sig from?

I like it

no sleep

almost cut my toes at 3 A.M because of peace of metal sticking out of the floor (but I saw it just in time and through it away!)

breakfast was all eaten and cleared away by 7, (you're awake that early, so may as well eat, right?)

currently listening to EA and feeling pretty good.

[Cocosurviving]

Went to sleep naturally and woke up at 3 AM. It’s now 5:02 AM and I’m still up.

[bpforever1]

I am doing well. I am doing the laundry and trying to clean up the apartment before my online man visits. We are still talking daily. He and I are doing well. There are no dramas. I was invited to have lunch at my students' house. It was nice. They are a couple and are really hospitable. I was touched. I am happy I went to have lunch with them. Next week, I'm supposed to meet my college friend who I have not seen in 20 years. It should be fun! I am happy to get the opportunity to go out and meet people. The online man is coming the week after or the day after Christmas. He is my Christmas present. I am so excited about his coming here. I hope he is as excited as I am to meet in person. We have been sending messages back and forth daily for two months. It has been nice. We have also seen each other on videocam and talked to each other. I was surprised he has been nice all of this time. I really like him already. I hope he likes me when we meet. I have not met such a nice man before. This time I have been lucky. I hope we click and become a couple. I am looking forward to his coming.

I was contacted by my former married lover. I just sent greetings but basically am giving him the idea that I'm not interested anymore. He only comes around for sex. Who needs him? I'd rather have a man who is free than a man who has to lie about his actions and intentions. I did not know he was married but realized later that he is. Also, I was getting asked to have an affair by another married man who met me for language exchange but I blocked him. I don't know the reasons I receive such requests from married men. I am NOT interested in married men and never was. They have a tendency to lie about their marriage status and think they can get away with it. I'm NOT interested in married men.

I feel good about myself. I think this year was not bad. I am hoping my Christmas present- the online man is what I expect. I don't have too much high expectations but do hope he is what I think he is- a nice man with a good heart.

I am still taking my medication and am doing ok. I sometimes don't remember to take my med in the morning but take it later in the day. I have faithfully taken my medication daily for the past five years. I feel good. I am happy. I even drank some champagne yesterday with the couple for lunch. It gave me a buzz but I still took my medication. Life is going ok. No dramas and no major problems.

[99fairies]

My husband can still hardly move so I have been taking care of everything, even with the dystonia. I spent hours yesterday pushing through the pain so I could clean the entire house before he got up. I know when I'm feeling bad,a clean clutter free zone makes me feel a little better, so I wanted to do that for him.

[wildflowerchild25]

Feeling better today. Like almost normal. I’m a little overwhelmed by all I have to do around the house but I’m trying to make a list so I can get it all done. First thing is to take a shower, then I have to shovel snow unfortunately. But it should only take a few minutes, we only got a couple of inches. Honestly if I left it I bet it would melt but with my luck someone would be walking and break their neck on my unshoveled property.

I think I’m almost done with Xmas shopping, just a few gift cards left to get. I also need to get ingredients for different candies I’m making. I might make the fudge today because I’m feeling good and god only knows how I’ll be feeling next week. The fudge will keep in the freezer. The cookies and other candy unfortunately won’t so I have to make them fresh on the 23/24. I hope to god I’m feeling well enough.

feeling triggered this afternoon

(for those wondering, I have a thread in PTSD about it)