[Unrigged64072835]

Baking a pie tomorrow, and helping my daughter bake cookies on Saturday. That's in addition to the usual cooking and the feast on Christmas Eve. At least my husband tried making taquitos and I made queso dip. It turned out pretty good. Geez, my life seems to revolve around food. We had physical therapy this afternoon so we feel really wiped out.

My husband also riled me up last night over what's going on with the Internet. Felt really paranoid and anxious. He hasn't talked about it today. I ended up closing one FB account and made another that is vague. Don't know if he's doing anything else. I just want to have a nice Christmas. I've already had enough anxiety and I need to relax.

Mood has been all over the place. I'll focus on calm and peacefulness for now.

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

I have the same song stuck on repeat in my head for the past two days, slicing through the rest of my lovely thoughts. If this song does not go away soon it will surely be the end of me.

I'm experiencing the same problem. It's so annoying!!

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I will be participating less for awhile. Lots going on, lots of demands, lots of stress in my life right now.

I wish everyone a blessed Holiday Season.

Much Love to All!

WC

Wishing you happy holidays Sorry that you are feeling stressed. Take care of yourself, WC.

[hopeless2015]

1 more day of work then 10 days off. I'm so excited about that. An actual break from work where I'm not sick or inpatient or on unpaid fmla. We are too broke to do anything but I have to remind myself money isn't everything. I'm going to go over to my mom's Xmas morning and help her cook and enjoy the day with family.

Hugs to everyone!!

[Naynay99]

Just wanted to wish everyone a happy and healthy holiday.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. My online man is doing ok and does not have a fracture. I am relieved. He is coming to see me next week. I am so excited. I was wondering how we are going to continue this relationship if we don't meet. However, he is determined to meet me. I hope he likes me in person and vice versa.

I ate a burrito and nachos today. I am feeling fine. I took my medication and will get refills while my online man is with me. He is going to the doctor with me. The reason is because my doctor is located in a resort town, and he wants to go see the town. He also knows that I have an illness and accepts me still. I have been doing well.

I feel good.

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Exhausted, in pain. Mother (lives with us) had a hip replacement approx. 5 weeks ago. Brought her to ER. She has serious infection in hip and was admitted. Had another surgery to clean up infection in hip. Starting all over with rehab. Lots of nights at the hospital 'til 2 or 3 a.m. Am wiped out.

A very serious situation. Very lucky to find infection when did. She seems to be doing okay for now. She will come home soon. There's a lengthy protocol of daily antibiotic infusions after getting home. Has to go out for them. It will continue a bit hectic between that and her PT.

Trying to clear schedule for long sleep tonight!

Thoughts and prayers appreciated.

Love to All!

WC

Sending good vibes and energy to you and yours! Hope you are getting rest

I'm extremely anxious. I keep hearing weird sounds that only come in my right ear... and whenever I ask my dad what that sound was, he says he didn't hear anything. Same with my mom.

Static-y music, laughing at me, echoing of sounds that I've already heard, sounds stuck in an endless loop...

Either my parents have extremely poor hearing, or I'm totally losing it.

My therapist did say I was hallucinating, but I can't tell what's real and what's not.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

Sending good vibes and energy to you and yours! Hope you are getting rest

Thanks, jacky!
I need it. Am fighting a cold/cough now, too.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm extremely anxious. I keep hearing weird sounds that only come in my right ear... and whenever I ask my dad what that sound was, he says he didn't hear anything. Same with my mom.

Static-y music, laughing at me, echoing of sounds that I've already heard, sounds stuck in an endless loop...

Either my parents have extremely poor hearing, or I'm totally losing it.

My therapist did say I was hallucinating, but I can't tell what's real and what's not.

(((((( Blue Bicycle ))))))

[emgreen]

I'm sorry about the added stress, WC. I hope matters improve so you can enjoy the holidays.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by emgreen

I'm sorry about the added stress, WC. I hope matters improve so you can enjoy the holidays.

Thanks, emgreen.

WC

[sonjaward809]

Well I haven't been on here in a little while now, but things are progressing slowly for me. Therapy is going good and I was just recently appointed a lawyer to help me with my disability case and I was approved for food stamps, which I've never had before. So I'm a little nervous about that. I never thought I would need them really but since I lost my grandma about a month ago I've been having trouble making ends meet and rely on family to help me pay the bills at her house. That's one thing that has been pretty difficult on me because the reason I moved into her house was to help take care of her. She ended up having Stage 3 small-cell lung cancer by time we were able to catch it, then it was a matter of 3 weeks before she passed. I was with her every day and it's taken a toll on my mental health. Then earlier this month I ended up breaking my foot, ironically enough it was when I was getting rid of her flowers from the funeral. I was making my way back up the deck when I tripped over the welcome mat and face planted into some boards we had laying around on the deck. Man the pain was excruciating!! I've never broken a bone before so I had no clue what was wrong until I finally got it looked at yesterday and it was confirmed that I broke my 5th metatarsal bone. Clean break all the way across but it was non-displaced, so it should heal up fine in about 3-6 weeks. Until then I'm in a weight bearing boot and crutches But I did get a vocational counselor recently as well and I just have to wait until my foot heals up fine before I can start looking for work. I'm going to try to work 4 days a week for 5 hours each day, so a total of 20 hours a week. That's all I can work when applying for disability anyways and that's all I can handle as well. I get overwhelmed really easy while working. So that's what's been going on with me. How are you guys doing?!

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs to you, WC and Blue, along with all who want them.

Made muffins this morning and pie this afternoon. Husband vacuumed and cleaned the master bath. We're both hurting so we're having pizza delivered. I'm still going to make chicken fajitas tomorrow, but I may not do another round of muffins if I'm going to be in this much pain.

Mood is kind of better, but being in pain doesn't help. Only a couple more days...

[Sunflower123]

Holidays are just rough. My coping with holiday stress tip sheet said to surround yourself with positive people. I thought ok I’ll be one of those positive people and work on not shutting down into a depressive state or having panic attacks. My challenge is that right now the people around me are stressed, sullen or yelling. Tough crowd. It’s hard to be positive.

I’m grateful to be amongst friends here who get how hard holidays can be on many of us. I will continue plodding along.

Sending big hugs, best wishes and positive vibes.

[wildflowerchild25]

Still sick with a cold. I don’t think I’m going to be able to see my brother and his wife on Sunday. She is heavily pregnant (due any day now) and the last thing I want to do is increase her misery by giving her a cold. I wanted to see her though before the baby came but it’s not looking like that’s going to happen unless the baby decides to stay in for longer. I have a lot of anxiety surrounding the birth of my niece because I know so many things can go wrong in a second. It’s one of the many reasons I could never have another child. I had terrible anxiety with my first pregnancy even though everything was perfect the whole time. I just hope that everything turns out well for them.

I also think I am suffering withdrawal from rexulti. My insurance wouldn’t release the script until Wednesday and then of course they were out of stock until today and by today I was so sick I couldn’t go out and get it. Very dizzy and nauseous. My mother thankfully picked it up for me on her way home from work. And now there’s some **** going on with my new prescription; they need my dr’s approval. Isn’t the script the approval? I’ll probably have to wait awhile for that as obviously it’s chriatmas and I’m assuming my dr won’t be in for awhile.

Still have my Christmas baking to do and cleaning, oh god the cleaning! I haven’t been able to do anything due to illness. Only two days left!!!

Not been around. Hugs to all I've missed in the missing time.

Doing meh. Busy. Tired. Overwhelmed, but there's nothing new about that one.

Hugs to all who need them.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Not been around. Hugs to all I've missed in the missing time.

Doing meh. Busy. Tired. Overwhelmed, but there's nothing new about that one.

Hugs to all who need them.

Welcome back! I’ll take a “distant” hug, I have the flu.

Me: Stomach flu the past two days, depression is ongoing but expected grieving a loss of a loved one. Had a run of hypomania that my psychiatrist didn’t seem too concerned about...boyfriend and I thought he didn’t grasp the severity of my online spending for the holiday...yet, it’s been worse and, well, all that crashed and I have tons of gifts to wrap. Need to quit with all the physical sickness first.

I think pdoc was glad my mood state elevated a bit. I was feeling suicidal there for awhile. I need to show up here more but stay away lately. I don’t know why.

Hugs to all the peeps here.

*shakes fist at sky*

[xRavenx]

I have a feeling tonight is going to be one of those nights of hardly sleeping. I know that's a negative way of thinking, but I know my body when my anxiety level is so high. For a little while there, I was not experiencing any neck or back problems. Ever since I have been hit by more stressors, now the physical problems are back. My heart is beating fast from anxiety. I have to be somewhere early tomorrow and really hope I can wake up without feeling so groggy. That's the bad part of a lot of AP meds. I am hoping for a better year in 2018.

Sending hugs and peace to you all.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I have a feeling tonight is going to be one of those nights of hardly sleeping. I know that's a negative way of thinking, but I know my body when my anxiety level is so high. For a little while there, I was not experiencing any neck or back problems. Ever since I have been hit by more stressors, now the physical problems are back. My heart is beating fast from anxiety. I have to be somewhere early tomorrow and really hope I can wake up without feeling so groggy. That's the bad part of a lot of AP meds. I am hoping for a better year in 2018.

Sending hugs and peace to you all.

I hope the anxiety eases for you soon and you start feeling better.

[Nammu]

Baking is done! Only 15 snowballs but 3 dozen each of the other 3 so they should last the day. Now all I gotta do is wash up and take a shower. Daughter and family is coming tomorrow instead of Sunday night. So Sunday is looking like a slow relaxing day.

[Tucson]

My daughter is sleeping over tonight. This makes me happy. Due to her running away, her mother took her from me because she thought I was to easy on her. One day they came to take all of her stuff out of my home, including the TV I bought for her. This made me terribly sad. This was a painful time for me. Now it is better.

I am smelling banana bread baking in the oven. I showed my daughter how to make it. We are going to eat a couple slices before going to bed.

[emgreen]

*shakes fist at sky*

That sounds like a plan, Glamslam! I've never tried that before, & I've tried almost everything else! Maybe it will help...

[Sunflower123]

Peace and love to everyone on the thread. Sending big hugs.

[Vaporeon]

The holiday season is difficult for many people but I hope you guys are doing okay despite some stress, maybe. I'm sort of depressed and isolating this morning even though I'm at my parents' house for a visit and to do laundry (which I haven't started yet). I just remembered that today is the anniversary of my suicide attempt in 2008. I was also hospitalized for depression last year around this time, and I was just discharged from hospital 10 days ago, I think. December is a tough month for me but I seem to feel better in January - new year, fresh start - I know it's cliche and silly but the new year helps me somehow. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day. I'll be around if anyone "needs" me.