[CloserToTheMid]

Feeling better than yesterday. Hoping this means I’m leveling out.

[incogneo]

I just want to quit my job right now. Walk out of the office and not come back.

[Unrigged64072835]

Another day of having to breathe through my mouth, running through a lot of Kleenex, and feeling someone put a lead weight on my lungs, plus my stomach feels like Kīlauea with all the acid reflux. And I forgot to cancel physical therapy tomorrow, so I have to go in or pay a fee.

My daughter also got the runaround at the base hospital. Apparently there are provider issues and the new insurance provider hasn't completely kicked in yet (supposed to Jan 1). So she and my husband had to wait over two hours before she can be seen. She was given referrals that are past her birthday, so I have to scramble and find how we can get supplementary insurance at $315/month.

I need to make dinner, since everyone feels like crap except daughter's boyfriend who can only make spaghetti and meatloaf, neither of which sounds appealing. So off I go...I can make a quick chicken noodle soup.

My mood is pretty crappy, mainly because of this freaking cold.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Another day of having to breathe through my mouth, running through a lot of Kleenex, and feeling someone put a lead weight on my lungs, plus my stomach feels like Kīlauea with all the acid reflux. And I forgot to cancel physical therapy tomorrow, so I have to go in or pay a fee.

My daughter also got the runaround at the base hospital. Apparently there are provider issues and the new insurance provider hasn't completely kicked in yet (supposed to Jan 1). So she and my husband had to wait over two hours before she can be seen. She was given referrals that are past her birthday, so I have to scramble and find how we can get supplementary insurance at $315/month.

I need to make dinner, since everyone feels like crap except daughter's boyfriend who can only make spaghetti and meatloaf, neither of which sounds appealing. So off I go...I can make a quick chicken noodle soup.

My mood is pretty crappy, mainly because of this freaking cold.

I hope you and your loved ones feel better very soon!

WC

I've been feeling physically unwell for parts of the last few days. I don't know if mood issues are partly responsible, or something else. Certainly feeling ill doesn't exactly help with feeling productive and mentally well. Chicken or egg first?

[Pookyl]

Mid morning here. Made the mistake of going onto FB for the first time in ages. Way too much stupidity on there. Now feeling a bit crabby - will go for a walk I think.

[RainyDay107]

I feel crummy.

[sonjaward809]

Recently out of IP so I took some baby steps today. I took the garbage can out, did some dishes, and grocery shopped. So I'm glad I'm doing a little better. Taking some baby steps to my recovery from this nasty depressive episode. I'm still not 100% better but I'll get there. It's really the little things I didn't notice I wasn't doing while being depressed. Like forgetting to not take the garbage can out, that seemed like a huge task to me but it's not anymore. I was in IP for 5 days and I think it helped me out a bit. Wayy more than my first time being in IP 7 years ago. I was in there for 2 weeks that time and I was terrified the entire time, so I didn't get much out of it. But this time I just accepted the help and took in as much as I could, like a little sponge. There's been times where I should've been in IP but was soo scared so I wouldn't be honest, but I'm no longer afraid of being in there really. So that's a positive thing that's happened. I'm still trying to manage losing my brother to sui on X-Mas day but I just try not to think about it as much as possible because I don't want to undo the bandage yet. I'll dig into my feelings about that more with my therapist when I'm strong enough and ready to. But so far things are looking up, except my car issues and my back giving me hell today .. but those things can go away and/or be fixed. Just waiting to hear back from my lawyer about my disability case is taking forever it seems like. I called her when I got out like I was supposed to but she hasn't gotten around to calling me back yet. I'm supposed to have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow but since my car is on the outs we're trying to arrange something else so that I can still get the extra therapy I need right now. They wouldn't fill my Ativan prescription because the pharmacy said I need to see the pdoc first on the 22nd .. they don't like giving out benzos. Which is understandable but it's the first thing that's ever worked on my anxiety, so I'm hoping we can come to an agreement on that end. Other than that, I'll keep taking my baby steps. I plan on cleaning the kitchen tomorrow, that's my task for the day.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by incogneo

I just want to quit my job right now. Walk out of the office and not come back.

I've done that not my best idea I have ever had.

[xRavenx]

I went to the dentist to get a crown after a root canal. When I went home, I felt that he made it too high, so my bite felt a little bit uncomfortable. The office had closed by that time, so over the next day, I went to see if the feeling went away. It didn't. My gums hurt too now, and I keep having this weird sensation in my mouth that I have food stuck in there, because now my tongue is hitting it. I will have to take more time off of work.... I have no choice. I hope they take me, even if they are full. I have to be firm with them.

I found out my mother might need back surgery, so I need to help her out. I feel it's one thing after another lately with appointments and medical issues. I just want things to go back to normal.

[jtassar93]

Just found this thread. I guess I can post in here everyday instead of making my own complaint thread.

Got 4 hours of sleep. Day was alright at the start. When I’m depressed I always go to petco to see all the cats. Did that today and I felt a little better. Didn’t have too much anxiety while I was out of the house.

Got home and my mood shifted. My half brother was talking to his grandma through FaceTime. Made me miss my grandma. She practically raised me.

My step cousin is 12 and got diagnosed with bipolar a couple weeks ago and that’s all my step dad talks about when he gets home from visiting her. He doesn’t even care about what I go through every day. Not as long as a lot of you but I’ve been dealing for like 8 years.

Collapsed on my bedroom floor and cried for an hour. Then just laid there staring at a lamp for like 2 more hours. Kind of felt like I was going in and out of consciousness for some reason. Like I was dozing off but not sure. It seemed like I was there way longer than I actually was.

After that I sat in a hot shower for an hour until the water got cold. Washed away the feeling from crying.

That made me feel better. Then I was looking forward to playing bingo on an app but I don’t have enough credits or coins to play bingo or slots so kinda bummed now.

Just laying here now. Considering going to sleep. What really depresses me is that no one even seems to notice if anything is going on with me unless I’m bouncing off the walls manic. Some comfort would be nice.

[sonjaward809]

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed today. I haven't done anything yet today but just thinking about trying to clean up the house is making my anxiety flare up. I know I need to push myself to do thing but it's like my energy is gone now. I woke up feeling kinda down but I know that's because I'm not fully out of my depressive episode. So I might take the day and relax then get to things tomorrow if I'm feeling better. I should be better tomorrow.

[99fairies]

I feel better today. The kids are home due to the cold temp. -34... thats cold! Zyprexa seems to be helping.

[BPQuestions]

Im feeling better today. I think the Latuda is finally really working as I dont feel as depressed and hopeless. There was a time I was very afraid for myself for how down I was feeling. So I seem to be coming out of my depressive episode.
I was still feeling pretty lonely and crappy last night but that could be for the fact that Im getting a divorce. I wish my soon to be ex wife could see how much my Bipolar condition affected my actions and thoughts all of these years and give me a chance to show her something else. But thats not the case.
Today seems to be a good day though and my anxiety is low right now so I think thats good as well.

[Tucson]

I am alive. I am becoming much more depressed. I lay in bed for a couple hours before making myself get up. It has not been this bad for quite awhile. Allot has happened to me over the past several months. Too much. Much too much. So I must look for the positive things that are in my life. I am alive. I have an adopted family who are taking care of me. I have a good friend back in Michigan who I talk to about my problems every few days. I survived a bad car collision without getting hurt much at all. My daughter is well. That is all I can think of now.

[hopeless2015]

HOLY **** you guys! I just deleted a very important file in my email inbox. Restored the folder back into my inbox and now every pdf attachment from those emails is in my recycle folder. IT support says I need to create another folder somewhere with the attachments just to be on the safe side!!

At least this is fixable but this is going to take me the rest of the day. I can't believe I did this!!!!!

[incogneo]

Had a job interview this morning at 8:00. Got a call this morning about another employer that is interested in my resume and wants to interview me tomorrow after I get off of work.

[Unrigged64072835]

Starting to get over this cold. Yay!

Went to physical therapy. Therapist changed my schedule to a walk-in fitness program on Tues and regular appointment on Thurs. My right hip is much better but I still have pain on the left side now. I don't want to use up all my appointments as I only get so many on Medicare.

Need to get the Christmas tree down before tomorrow. Hopefully the kids will be able to help, but they're going to a memorial service for the boyfriend's neighbor

Possible trigger:

who died by suicide about a week ago after being paranoid and depressed. She was also leaving an abusive husband.

I know the boyfriend's mom is upset, so they're going to support her. The neighbor was also a Spanish teacher at the high school, so they may see some old classmates there.

My mood is actually pretty good. I'm just grateful to be breathing through my nose again.

[scatterbrained04]

I'm so tired of the cold and the dark. Just zaps my energy. Having such a difficult time not crawling into bed early. Last night I crawled in at 5:30pm. Definitely a seasonal component going on with this depression. Really going to -try- to stay out of my bed this evening.

[xRavenx]

I went to the dentist and got that issue resolved for most part. Now, I'm so sick though. I must get through tomorrow, but I don't know how I'll do. I am afraid of my supervisor putting pressure on me. I put pressure on myself when it comes to work.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better, but when I get sick, it's usually for a long time. I need to see a doctor.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I feel better today. The kids are home due to the cold temp. -34... thats cold! Zyprexa seems to be helping.

I started taking zyprexa about 6 weeks ago. 2.5mg, I also take geodon.
This has made all of the difference in the world. I can actually lose weight!
I have lost 11 pounds!
bizi

[bpforever1]

I took my medication and slept for most of the day. I am going to try to finish the last course of five courses. I am feeling ok. I am also going to respond to my former employer's request for an interview. I am happy. I might be leaving the city for this job. I have to wait to see if I can get it first though. We shall see!

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by bizi

I started taking zyprexa about 6 weeks ago. 2.5mg, I also take geodon.
This has made all of the difference in the world. I can actually lose weight!
I have lost 11 pounds!
bizi

Bizi,

I lost weight on Geodon, too! A friend with BP1 had the same experience.

Happy for you!

Glam

[RainyDay107]

I’m feeling physically unwell but fairly ok? Well, depressed, too. It could be worse?

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by bpforever1

I took my medication and slept for most of the day. I am going to try to finish the last course of five courses. I am feeling ok. I am also going to respond to my former employer's request for an interview. I am happy. I might be leaving the city for this job. I have to wait to see if I can get it first though. We shall see!

Good luck and keep us posted!