[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I finally figured out that good old coffee keeps me awake in class. I’ve never needed coffee to wake up before so I never considered it. But I had a nice 20oz cup today and I stayed awake the whole morning. Yesterday I had 16oz and had minimal dropping, though I did start to fall asleep right before my lunch. I need to get a programmable coffee pot.

This was me in school all the time. In grad school, I made frequent trips to the departmental mail-room even though it meant climbing 2 flights of stairs (scarily unreliable elevator) when I had time to wait (running a gel) or needed a break (making computer images for papers, writing journal articles). The mailroom coffee always tasted horrible, and I tended to get the sludge at the bottom of the coffee pot.

But you do what you have to do.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by bewise93

I met with my psychiatrist today and he added tegretol. I generally do better on mood stabilizers than antipsychotics or antidepressants. I also have been reading today, which is good because depression causes a loss of interest in enjoyable activities.

I hope the tegretol helps you.

I enjoy reading too and often can't concentrate on it. I love books so much, and I hate when I cannot read.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moreta

Me and my friend and her friends, which are apparently my friends now, are going out for pizza tonight at mellow mushroom. They have gluten free pizza so hopefully it won't cause issues for me.

I'm having the worst stomach problems this morning. I took some bentyl so hopefully that'll help, if not I'll try some immodium.

I got a check from my father in law for my birthday so going to go put it in the bank. I'm going to go vote today. I think I'm going to go to the mall too to the vape shop and trade in a old mod and get a new one and some new batteries. Need to go to wally world and get some dog food and I think I'm going to go to the thrift store and see if I can find some clothes that fit. Need some winter clothes since it's getting cold. I need to clean too, but I think I'll do that when I get home tonight.

I'm glad you are going to get out with friends. Hopefully, your stomach starts feeling better.

I like thrift store shopping. I love it when I find a great deal on clothing I like that actually fits me.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I compared the blood test results I got from my nephrologist yesterday to the ones from my GP in early March. They were almost the same. My cholesterol was just a teeny bit higher (still kind of high), and so were my triglycerides (but still normal range). Everything else was in normal range except my creatinine level, shows kidney functioning, but that was improved. Every time I see these docs they talk about prescribing a statin for my cholesterol, but continue to hold off. I just have to try harder to lower it with diet and exercise. My blood pressure was slightly high 2 of 3 times yesterday, but I think that was White Coat Syndrome.

The good thing is that since my psychiatrist lowered my Seroquel XR a bit last week, I haven't had bad carb/sugar cravings. Actually, I've been having vegetable cravings. Good!

I'm glad things are stable for you healthwise. Hopefully, you can get by without needing statins. If you do get put on a statin, it likely will make your triglycerides sky high, but taking fish oil daily helps with that. That was H's experience and quite a bit of other experiences I read online.

It's nice to crave vegetables I love veggies, well, mostly, I have never loved beets or liked them, and turnips are iffy too. Guess which 2 root vegetables always made well in our garden when I was growing up? Beets & turnips. Every single season.

[Moose72]

Statins raise your triglycerides?

Tired after taking my friend who had a stroke out to breakfast and the mall. Nd ive got choir tonight. No early bedtime tonight.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Statins raise your triglycerides?

I suppose not always, but it is common enough that H's doctor saw it in the bloodwork after being on a statin for awhile (don't know how long before he had a blood test), and yes, his triglycerides were insanely high, even though we eat relatively healthy, and he is thin. The PCP told him, take fish oil, your triglycerides will go down. Sure enough, she was right.

However, H has thyroid issues, has since he was a teenager. I think that interacts with statins/triglyceride levels. He has Hashimotos.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I've made it through 2 days on a lowered dose of klonopin and unlike when I tried this a month ago I'm having no withdrawal or rebound anxiety. In fact I didn't even remember I'm tapering until a few minutes ago. My OCD is a little worse but not a problem. I even managed to make an appointment with a new dentist.

Now if the robocalls would stop. I've had 30 since Monday, 3 of them at 12:30 AM this morning which woke me. Even then I did get back to sleep fairly quickly and was only up once more for a while which is normal for me.

Maybe I actually can get off klonopin??!!

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I've made it through 2 days on a lowered dose of klonopin and unlike when I tried this a month ago I'm having no withdrawal or rebound anxiety. In fact I didn't even remember I'm tapering until a few minutes ago. My OCD is a little worse but not a problem. I even managed to make an appointment with a new dentist.

Now if the robocalls would stop. I've had 30 since Monday, 3 of them at 12:30 AM this morning which woke me. Even then I did get back to sleep fairly quickly and was only up once more for a while which is normal for me.

Maybe I actually can get off klonopin??!!

The Robocalls come in at 12:30 AM? Oh my! I'd be beyond livid. We get a lot, but they always stop at about 9 pm at the latest and usually start no earlier than 8 am.

That's great that you're Klonopin weaning is off to a good start this time. I hope you can get to the next lower dose quickly. I'd love to someday get off Klonopin, but my psychiatrist is very reluctant to wean me off. I may try going to 0 mg of Ativan soon. I'm at 0.25 mg after trying 0 mg for a while with bad withdrawals.

[Moose72]

Time#2.... The board ate my last post!

Im home from choir tonight- So is n3. He was at his girlfriend's house after school. She gave him a warm jacket. She wants to sell it on ebay but i asked him to see if i could buy it from her. He always goes out in the dead of winter in just a hoodie!

I had fun living vicariously through my friend (who had the stroke) at the mall today.

I see pdoc tomorrow. N2 finally gave me something i need to give dhs and since that is only right next door from pdoc ill bring he papers with me.

Speaking of pdoc i dont know what to tell her as to how ive been feeling lately. Stressed yes but other than that? Anybody here who would like to remind me?

[yellow_fleurs]

Hmm it seems the floor has been raised a few notches on my mood. Not saying I feel totally stable, but definitely closer. It's like I have a fighting chance with the negative thoughts for the moment. I am hoping if I can maintain this for the time being that my brain can calm down. Trying to be kind to myself right now.

[Wild Coyote]

Busy day. Very irritable again today. Not sure why. Time will tell.

Started using my SAD lamp today.

Love to All!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I've made it through 2 days on a lowered dose of klonopin and unlike when I tried this a month ago I'm having no withdrawal or rebound anxiety. In fact I didn't even remember I'm tapering until a few minutes ago. My OCD is a little worse but not a problem. I even managed to make an appointment with a new dentist.

Now if the robocalls would stop. I've had 30 since Monday, 3 of them at 12:30 AM this morning which woke me. Even then I did get back to sleep fairly quickly and was only up once more for a while which is normal for me.

Maybe I actually can get off klonopin??!!

Great news about the klonopin taper!

I have tapered off klonopin this year even though I have used it for over 30 years. There seemed to be little to no withdrawal; I'd used gabapentin for anxiety. That said, we are not all the same.

Robocalls at that hour? I'd be upset! and I have so much trouble sleeping. If they'd awakened me, I'd have great trouble getting back to sleep.

Best wishes for the remainder of your klonopin taper!

How's Charlie doing?


WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Busy day. Very irritable again today. Not sure why. Time will tell.

Started using my SAD lamp today.

Love to All!


WC

I hope the irritability goes away for you soon.

Great minds...I started my lamp today.

Sending supportive vibes.

[pirilin]

Have I ever said that I'm tired?. Well.............

In good spirits thought. Looking forward to my short future.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I hope the irritability goes away for you soon.

Great minds...I started my lamp today.

Sending supportive vibes.

(((((( Jennifer ))))))

Supportive vibes backatcha!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Great news about the klonopin taper!

I have tapered off klonopin this year even though I have used it for over 30 years. There seemed to be little to no withdrawal; I'd used gabapentin for anxiety. That said, we are not all the same.

Robocalls at that hour? I'd be upset! and I have so much trouble sleeping. If they'd awakened me, I'd have great trouble getting back to sleep.

Best wishes for the remainder of your klonopin taper!

How's Charlie doing?


WC

The robocalls at midnight are so bad because I have just fallen asleep which takes hours and risks taking hours more to get back to sleep. Hopefully they don't do it again tonight. They only ring once and then hang up so I can't even yell at them.

I've been on klonopin or ativan for 16 years. I'm already on gabapentin so I can use a PRN dose of that if needed but my pdoc doesn't want me on more than I am taking of it either. I think eventually I'll be coming down on it too as my state is starting to track it like opiods (I'm in a place where the opiod mess is huge).

Charlie is doing better. He's on a diet food now that both he and his sister like (thank God) and while I call it their gold nuggets he hasn't had another sore in a while. He's still on steroids though and we won't know for sure if it is the food or the steroids until he's done with them which is several weeks away. He's getting really tired of meds; I understand completely. Thanks for asking. He's my sweet boy.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

The robocalls at midnight are so bad because I have just fallen asleep which takes hours and risks taking hours more to get back to sleep. Hopefully they don't do it again tonight. They only ring once and then hang up so I can't even yell at them.

I've been on klonopin or ativan for 16 years. I'm already on gabapentin so I can use a PRN dose of that if needed but my pdoc doesn't want me on more than I am taking of it either. I think eventually I'll be coming down on it too as my state is starting to track it like opiods (I'm in a place where the opiod mess is huge).

Charlie is doing better. He's on a diet food now that both he and his sister like (thank God) and while I call it their gold nuggets he hasn't had another sore in a while. He's still on steroids though and we won't know for sure if it is the food or the steroids until he's done with them which is several weeks away. He's getting really tired of meds; I understand completely. Thanks for asking. He's my sweet boy.

My state tracks meds, too. Gabapentin and Lyrica are now on the tracking list. The opioid epidemic is severe here, too.

I am glad Charlie is improving!

Thanks for your response!

WC

[Daonnachd]

Seeing my mother today was like seeing my grandmother two days before she died. She couldn't stay awake even through a brief conversation.
I have ECT tomorrow then plans to go back to Sacramento on Saturday, but to be completely open, I'm not very confident she'll still be alive in two days.

[MsSchadenfreude]

Feeling heavy.

I am sick of my boss. She's snobby, or maybe you call it "hoity-toity". Comes across as the person who smiles and fakes being nice, while behind the facade she is a total b****. Other people have noticed how she acts and have said things to me... We just have to deal with it obviously, but this week, I kind of snapped at her. (as professionally as I could be) I'm a loyal person to my team and I'll gladly go head to head with authority to fight for what's right, and work isn't all about "how we will look to executive team"...that's how she is. ALL THE TIME! Makes me feel physically ill sometimes to be near that kind of energy.

I can tell she doesn't know how to take me sometimes, but she does appreciate me, I know, she's said it... after all, she does rely on me, and needs me to make her "look good". ha

Blah... enough about work. I am feeling impulsive again though...that I want to just quit and find a job in something easy that doesn't even require much education.

I think I need to give up the idea of going to NP school. Might not be worth the stress. Alas, I've been on this pendulum for a few years now.

Medication being adjusted down starting tomorrow. I went to the pdoc today.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Seeing my mother today was like seeing my grandmother two days before she died. She couldn't stay awake even through a brief conversation.
I have ECT tomorrow then plans to go back to Sacramento on Saturday, but to be completely open, I'm not very confident she'll still be alive in two days.

I'm praying for you and your family Daonnachd

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Charlie is doing better. He's on a diet food now that both he and his sister like (thank God) and while I call it their gold nuggets he hasn't had another sore in a while. He's still on steroids though and we won't know for sure if it is the food or the steroids until he's done with them which is several weeks away. He's getting really tired of meds; I understand completely. Thanks for asking. He's my sweet boy.

Glad to here the kitten is doing better.

[~Christina]

My head is so very loud

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Busy day. Very irritable again today. Not sure why. Time will tell.


Started using my SAD lamp today.


Love to All!




WC

I hope you can calm and rest your mind and body

SAD light YES !!

I just want you to sleep and sleep long and well

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Seeing my mother today was like seeing my grandmother two days before she died. She couldn't stay awake even through a brief conversation.
I have ECT tomorrow then plans to go back to Sacramento on Saturday, but to be completely open, I'm not very confident she'll still be alive in two days.

Me as well. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

My head is so very loud

I hope things quieten down for you.

This cooler weather is nice. The leaves still aren’t changing down here in southern Tennessee. How about up there?