[BeyondtheRainbow]

Seacat, have fun tomorrow! I'm sorry your father made today difficult.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys! Today I dealt with a nasty headache most of the day. It was really unexplained and came out of the blue. Excedrin didn't even want to help the headache which is strange because it usually works.

Also my dad is on my last nerve since he keeps trying to get me to go back to the old NP I saw as a teen, he went to his doctor and mentioned my health issues to his NP who I saw in my teens and she told my father I need to come back to her and that she would write a Benzo script for me. For one I used to be a patient, for two I'm well over the age in which she can discus diagnosis's to my parents, and three my primary, a med student, a therapist, and two PA's have told me Benzo's are not the answer for my anxiety disorder; and besides Buspar seems to be working for it, so why would I need a control substance to help me, not to mention this NP is very judgmental and hung my Birth Control over my head until she did a women exam when I have PMDD and it it remains the only thing that helps. Not to mention she was super judgey during the exam.

I have a list of who I would see in the event my current doc ever leaves his practice and she isn't even on the list. That was entirely inappropriate of him to do. I am grown adult women who knows what she is doing with her health. Not to mention she is one of the three reasons I will not ever see a NP.

I am ready for tomorrow and hanging out with M and to have morning coffee with R and talk about becoming roommates which she's mentioned a few times to me. That has got to be better than living with the parents and being bombarded by my father in that my current doc is stupid. Um no he's figured out my issues, got me on a cocktail that works, and who noticed something was wrong with my heart and made me see someone that could help. Best of all his provider has a triggering name for me, so the last thing I want to do is make the PTSD worse.

Hugs to everyone

it's way out of line for this NP to be discussing you at all with your dad or anyone else!

it's great you have made some new friends at work!

BTW, just started watching "The Resident" episodes. Would not have known about this show if you had not mentioned it.

I hope you have a FUN weekend!

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

it's way out of line for this NP to be discussing you at all with your dad or anyone else!

it's great you have made some new friends at work!

BTW, just started watching "The Resident" episodes. Would not have known about this show if you had not mentioned it.

I hope you have a FUN weekend!

My thoughts exactly; I think she needs to brush up on HIPAA.

I am so grateful for them.

How are you liking it? It is one my favorites.

Thank you, I hope it's a fun weekend too

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

it's way out of line for this NP to be discussing you at all with your dad or anyone else!

it's great you have made some new friends at work!

BTW, just started watching "The Resident" episodes. Would not have known about this show if you had not mentioned it.

I hope you have a FUN weekend!

WC is right. It's a violation of medical ethics for the NP and a violation of personal boundaries for your dad to have any kind of conversation about your health without your expressed permission. That is a serious no-no. You can report the NP to the board of nursing for your location. Here is a link to help do that; Filing a Complaint FAQ | NCSBN

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My thoughts exactly; I think she needs to brush up on HIPAA.

I am so grateful for them.

How are you liking it? It is one my favorites.

Thank you, I hope it's a fun weekend too

The main doctor in the show is very cute! I'd liked him on The Good Wife, too. He does a great job! Good actor! I have found the show interesting! Thanks for mentioning this show!


WC

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

WC is right. It's a violation of medical ethics for the NP and a violation of personal boundaries for your dad to have any kind of conversation about your health without your expressed permission. That is a serious no-no. You can report the NP to the board of nursing for your location. Here is a link to help do that; Filing a Complaint FAQ | NCSBN

Thank you for the link Tecomsin, I've already talked to her practice manager and her supervising physician, regarding the issue. I figure they can deal with her violation. Sad thing is she isn't the first NP in the office that I've had to report.

[Wild Coyote]

Bronchitis. Weary. Cranky.

Love to All!

WC

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis. Weary. Cranky.

Love to All!

WC

I'm sorry Wild there is nothing worse than Bronchitis, I hope it clears up fast.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am sorry you could not get to sleep.
I hope you are able to get your meds squared away.

WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis. Weary. Cranky.

Love to All!

WC

Feel better soon!

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

it's way out of line for this NP to be discussing you at all with your dad or anyone else!

it's great you have made some new friends at work!

BTW, just started watching "The Resident" episodes. Would not have known about this show if you had not mentioned it.

I hope you have a FUN weekend!

Usually I’m pretty tolerant but I have an extremely low opinion of NP’s.

[Pookyl]

First day of summer and all’s well.

[wildflowerchild25]

Today was much better. I had a good day at work. I worked with the student I had for ESY a couple of years ago so I already knew his routine and how to help him. Made my day easier. I was happy when it was 2pm though! This week has seemed so long. I guess because I wasn’t feeling my best.

My mom told me she was concerned about me today. I guess I don’t hide my moods as well as I think I do. She said I have the tendency to sabotage myself because I don’t think I deserve happiness. Well she’s right. I’m surprised she picked up on that though. I’m hoping I’ll continue to do well and not self sabotage. I haven’t for seven months so that’s good.

I bought a pack of cigarettes two days ago because my batteries for my vape weren’t working 😩 so now I’m back to day one of no smoking. I wish smoking wasn’t so unhealthy. Or I wish I could just kick the habit like my mom did, cold turkey. I’d like to be done with nicotine altogether.

I’m so excited for my date with RS tomorrow. Even though it’s supposed to rain I think the gardens will be beautiful. I’ll gladly stand in the rain for the chance to be with him. He said he feels like he won the lottery meeting me 😊😊😊 I feel the same. He’s such a great guy. I’m so lucky to have met him. We’re taking things slow though, not jumping into anything crazy just yet like I did with NV. That’s the better approach.

I’m picking up my trazodone tomorrow (yay insurance!) so that hopefully I can sleep more and not have to worry about being out of sorts from lack of sleep. Let’s hope this normal feeling continues!

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Usually I’m pretty tolerant but I have an extremely low opinion of NP’s.

I do to, after seeing two that were terrible when it came to mental health and one that hung everything over my head I refuse to see them. I'll see a doctor or a PA over another NP.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys! Today I dealt with a nasty headache most of the day. It was really unexplained and came out of the blue. Excedrin didn't even want to help the headache which is strange because it usually works.


Also my dad is on my last nerve since he keeps trying to get me to go back to the old NP I saw as a teen, he went to his doctor and mentioned my health issues to his NP who I saw in my teens and she told my father I need to come back to her and that she would write a Benzo script for me. For one I used to be a patient, for two I'm well over the age in which she can discus diagnosis's to my parents, and three my primary, a med student, a therapist, and two PA's have told me Benzo's are not the answer for my anxiety disorder; and besides Buspar seems to be working for it, so why would I need a control substance to help me, not to mention this NP is very judgmental and hung my Birth Control over my head until she did a women exam when I have PMDD and it it remains the only thing that helps. Not to mention she was super judgey during the exam.


I have a list of who I would see in the event my current doc ever leaves his practice and she isn't even on the list. That was entirely inappropriate of him to do. I am grown adult women who knows what she is doing with her health. Not to mention she is one of the three reasons I will not ever see a NP.


I am ready for tomorrow and hanging out with M and to have morning coffee with R and talk about becoming roommates which she's mentioned a few times to me. That has got to be better than living with the parents and being bombarded by my father in that my current doc is stupid. Um no he's figured out my issues, got me on a cocktail that works, and who noticed something was wrong with my heart and made me see someone that could help. Best of all his provider has a triggering name for me, so the last thing I want to do is make the PTSD worse.


Hugs to everyone

I would literally explode and file a complaint !!!!!

Sorry this happened to you , Shame on your father.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis. Weary. Cranky.


Love to All!



WC

I don’t approve of this

Rest and take extra special care of yourself.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today was much better. I had a good day at work. I worked with the student I had for ESY a couple of years ago so I already knew his routine and how to help him. Made my day easier. I was happy when it was 2pm though! This week has seemed so long. I guess because I wasn’t feeling my best.


My mom told me she was concerned about me today. I guess I don’t hide my moods as well as I think I do. She said I have the tendency to sabotage myself because I don’t think I deserve happiness. Well she’s right. I’m surprised she picked up on that though. I’m hoping I’ll continue to do well and not self sabotage. I haven’t for seven months so that’s good.


I bought a pack of cigarettes two days ago because my batteries for my vape weren’t working so now I’m back to day one of no smoking. I wish smoking wasn’t so unhealthy. Or I wish I could just kick the habit like my mom did, cold turkey. I’d like to be done with nicotine altogether.


I’m so excited for my date with RS tomorrow. Even though it’s supposed to rain I think the gardens will be beautiful. I’ll gladly stand in the rain for the chance to be with him. He said he feels like he won the lottery meeting me I feel the same. He’s such a great guy. I’m so lucky to have met him. We’re taking things slow though, not jumping into anything crazy just yet like I did with NV. That’s the better approach.


I’m picking up my trazodone tomorrow (yay insurance!) so that hopefully I can sleep more and not have to worry about being out of sorts from lack of sleep. Let’s hope this normal feeling continues!

Sounds like things are falling into place on a few levels.

Your doing great on building more self esteem.

Cigarettes will go away when your ready have no fear

You are a strong kind brilliant woman..

[beauflow]

s to all.

Been doing good today ...
I think I may be still doing whatever I do naturally. anyways

I felt dead earlier.

Even Though I did get up this morning, early I did a horrible job with really being ready today. Forgot things. Went to work. Felt like an outcast (a group of people " didn't like me" I strongly felt and thought) tried best with the distorted thoughts... but not much luck besides I have dxs right?

Earlier I just felt so dead off and on.. like in and out, I was "sober" at that time..
Well, it's Friday I got high a bit after I left work, which at the same dose that made a bit high today- I've been in a dump and it's has helped me be a bit more "normally functioning ".

And I realize -"tisk tisk "- per some.. but I got a little high, I haven't in a week or more, and I didn't get stoned... haven't gotten high as it's just hasn't appealed to me ((but continued to microdose with cannabis CBD/THC mixture (which means: an alternative way of medicating and being a Guinea pig))....
I do have my days that I wonder about cannabis, but I recall even being told with pharma drugs I'd still have the swings & be a Guinea pig by a few pdocs.... and I realize this supports last pdocs statement of "canabis dependency", but every time I go off cannabis (sarcastic me saying right now-because I am an addict right?), but I am 100% worse..
my ex has seen me do this many times over the last 9 years.. and while he doesn't use cannabis himself, he is an outside observer that has seen it help me.

I've struggled for a while now, calling myself an addict, etc (even though I don't do hard drugs these days, and heck with my back I could legally go get a bunch of pills..but those mess with me even and I don'twant to.. i would rather use cannabis for that as I have..
I have had regular doctors tell me- "you're not an addict" after I talk with them about all my drug abuse in the past but how I am today.. but my dads echoing words that he would see me nothing more than an addict.. well they some times ring in my head as truth)... I am addicted to nicotine though.. ((cigs are so hard to quit for me as well)).

my last T really helped me see this as "me finding what works for me". Where I am at the cannabis is legal, so I am not breaking the law (any more).

Last T and I agreed that getting stipid high every day , or getting high due to bordum, isn't beneficial... with me there's been benefits with once in a while; along with microdosing daily. I honestly do feel it helps the ptsd swings.for sure.. and I am still learning, as the industry grows more forms and dosing comes along.

I am sorry that I feel I must explain myself to you all here. I know It's unconventional, and yes high sativa can really mess with me... but the meds I've tried mess with me too. Any ways..
Maybe I am just dooming myself, but some things One must learn on their terms and times, right?

Today, Even did work after " clocking out " and at home with an "urgent matter"... and I am sorry, but not. because I had left work and was done with my time when I left .. the "stoner" fixed the issue and also tried to guide on how to prevent things in the future.."Yay". not stoner, me.. I did that.. I didn't even claim this extra work time (because things will balance out).

Later in the day I cleaned up and moved around items my bedroom (it looks less cluttery- that's a true YAY) .. still working on living room a bit, will finish that tomorrow. My cat will have more places to lounge about, which makes me happy.

I even cooked today
Played music, played game... maybe too long...

Though I am a bit wired right now- but I had coffee in the afternoon, and yes while I am not high any more this could be part of residual effects.

Got some tea and will put on some meditation music and try to sleep.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

A little worn out from not sleeping or eating much but Im happy and things havent gone to sh&+ so its all good.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I would literally explode and file a complaint !!!!!

Sorry this happened to you , Shame on your father.

Oh I did chew him out, along with the Practice Manager of that clinic, and her supervising physician just for good measure. Hell truly have no fury quite like someone who's secondary job is stopping her coworkers from doing something equally dumb. I know realistically she'll probably get a slap on the wrist and probably a HIPAA video in her inbox, but that's still better than me not doing anything.

Maybe she'll think twice before offering her medical opinion to my father. I know it was a ploy on his part, but I would never go back to her from what happened when I was 21. You don't judge patients to their face if you wish to keep those patients.

today I snapped at someone.

they were talking to me about something that they thought I was looking forward to and I just snapped at them. I think they were quite shocked by it- I'm like no, I didn't enjoy it, I'm not well.. and yes, I'm really still not well- and very suicidal still.

I opened my advent calendar today and had a chocolate soldier behind the door

a chocolate soldier?

what the **** does a ****ing soldier have to do with christmas

all I'm saying on that

now just listening to christmas music and feeling low

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis. Weary. Cranky.

Love to All!

WC

I hope you feel better soon.

[Sunflower123]

I’m in a good mood today and feel like myself again.

I’ve had pneumonia a few times and it was business as usual for me (I stubbornly refuse to slow down for physical illness) but whatever I just came through knocked me off my feet. The antibiotics took a while to kick in and today is the first day I feel like myself. What was it? I’ll be happy to get back to regular activities.

I’m going to work on the house today. It’s a bit messy. The two family members I take care of aren’t able to do much so when I’m down with an illness, things tend to pile up.

My brother still won’t leave the house unless I go out with him to protect him. I’m looking for solutions that would not involve going IP but it’s looking increasing like it will be IP. Don’t get me wrong...I would drive him anywhere, protect him and fight his battles forever but I must understand IP may be needed. I just worry about him.

I’m going to a Christmas concert tonight that I’m looking forward. Getting into the Christmas spirit. There’s a symphony performance December 16th that plays Holiday music and includes bells at times. Really looking forward to that and to some other Christmas events.

My daughter is going to Cumberland Island to camp for a week during Christmas break. There are wild horses and a great ecosystem. You can only get there by ferry. They’ll study the ecosystem and kayak around the island. The loving part of me encouraged her. The selfish part quietly screamed no, no, no. I’ve never been out of contact with her before. We talk and text several times a day and have trackers on each other’s phones. I hope she has a ball.

I stopped taking Trintellix. I thought it was weight neutral but I wanted to eat everything in sight and gained over 10 lbs. Can’t have that. Hopefully, I’ll stay stable until I see him on the 13th.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys! Today I dealt with a nasty headache most of the day. It was really unexplained and came out of the blue. Excedrin didn't even want to help the headache which is strange because it usually works.

Also my dad is on my last nerve since he keeps trying to get me to go back to the old NP I saw as a teen, he went to his doctor and mentioned my health issues to his NP who I saw in my teens and she told my father I need to come back to her and that she would write a Benzo script for me. For one I used to be a patient, for two I'm well over the age in which she can discus diagnosis's to my parents, and three my primary, a med student, a therapist, and two PA's have told me Benzo's are not the answer for my anxiety disorder; and besides Buspar seems to be working for it, so why would I need a control substance to help me, not to mention this NP is very judgmental and hung my Birth Control over my head until she did a women exam when I have PMDD and it it remains the only thing that helps. Not to mention she was super judgey during the exam.

I have a list of who I would see in the event my current doc ever leaves his practice and she isn't even on the list. That was entirely inappropriate of him to do. I am grown adult women who knows what she is doing with her health. Not to mention she is one of the three reasons I will not ever see a NP.

I am ready for tomorrow and hanging out with M and to have morning coffee with R and talk about becoming roommates which she's mentioned a few times to me. That has got to be better than living with the parents and being bombarded by my father in that my current doc is stupid. Um no he's figured out my issues, got me on a cocktail that works, and who noticed something was wrong with my heart and made me see someone that could help. Best of all his provider has a triggering name for me, so the last thing I want to do is make the PTSD worse.

Hugs to everyone

That NP sounds awful. I hate when I have to see a NP instead of my normal doctor or even another doctor at the practice who takes my insurance. The last one I had was completely new, I wouldn't have been surprised if it were his first real job and me his first patient (8 AM appt.). It was a wellness checkup, but he so didn't know what he was doing that I told him don't bother with the women's checkup (even though for that I think they are required to have another woman, not sure if a nurse or med assistant in the room). Frankly, I thought he'd severely injure me doing the pap smear (it was 3 years since the last) as he was referring to a list for everything. I rescheduled the women's wellness part with my PCP.

You definitely should do what you can to at leas get a complaint put on that NP's record.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m in a good mood today and feel like myself again.

I’ve had pneumonia a few times and it was business as usual for me (I stubbornly refuse to slow down for physical illness) but whatever I just came through knocked me off my feet. The antibiotics took a while to kick in and today is the first day I feel like myself. What was it? I’ll be happy to get back to regular activities.

I’m going to work on the house today. It’s a bit messy. The two family members I take care of aren’t able to do much so when I’m down with an illness, things tend to pile up.

My brother still won’t leave the house unless I go out with him to protect him. I’m looking for solutions that would not involve going IP but it’s looking increasing like it will be IP. Don’t get me wrong...I would drive him anywhere, protect him and fight his battles forever but I must understand IP may be needed. I just worry about him.

I’m going to a Christmas concert tonight that I’m looking forward. Getting into the Christmas spirit. There’s a symphony performance December 16th that plays Holiday music and includes bells at times. Really looking forward to that and to some other Christmas events.

My daughter is going to Cumberland Island to camp for a week during Christmas break. There are wild horses and a great ecosystem. You can only get there by ferry. They’ll study the ecosystem and kayak around the island. The loving part of me encouraged her. The selfish part quietly screamed no, no, no. I’ve never been out of contact with her before. We talk and text several times a day and have trackers on each other’s phones. I hope she has a ball.

I stopped taking Trintellix. I thought it was weight neutral but I wanted to eat everything in sight and gained over 10 lbs. Can’t have that. Hopefully, I’ll stay stable until I see him on the 13th.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Can you just stop Trintellix like that without a taper?

It sounds like you have a good day planned.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Can you just stop Trintellix like that without a taper?

It sounds like you have a good day planned.

You make an excellent point. Thank you. I’ll stay on it until I can talk to my pdoc.