[Nammu]

Stayed up past bedtime listening to classic rock....we made good music back in the 60's and 70's! Didn't go to the tuba musical due to the storm. It started today with a fine mist, then ice pellets then thick heavy snowfalls. Supposed to continue all day into tomorrow. Planning on pancakes this afternoon.

[Blue_Bird]

Something set off the severe paranoia I used to get often in the past last night, I decided to turn it off (it was a show) and took my meds and went to sleep. I slept way too much but it's okay. Have been having trouble with voices lately but my mood is good overall. Just a little frustrated with myself for not facing something that's causing me anxiety

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m a little worried about my eating. I’m still eating but I’m getting the symptom I get when I’m ill, wherein I am starving but nothing seems appetizing so I just don’t eat. Right now I’m still eating but I’m worried this is a sign of an impending episode. I didn’t fall asleep until 1am again last night. But I slept until 9 so I still got 8 hrs of sleep. I’m very irritable today though. Had a bad time at target (card wouldn’t work, lost my other two cards, which I found eventually but it was a pain in the ***) and that just pissed me off. I HAVE to eat before I go out with RS so I think I’m just going to have some cheese and crackers. The thought of anything else makes me want to vomit.

Ugh. I truly hope I’m ok.

[251turnaround]

Feeling level today! (yes!)

I guess the hypomania is over. Not even a crash. Maybe it hasn't hit yet, I don't know. I feel great. I got rid of my cigarettes. What a dumb move that was. I wasn't thinking right. Ugh I said some dumb things while I was hypo. I feel so bad about it. I didn't mean any of it.

I'm still really motivated to do things. Went through all my self-care routines today. I missed my meds last night though. Not good. Anyway, I've been working on making some music today with my synthesizer. It's a lot of fun. Very therapeutic. I love holding down a note and turning knobs to alter the sound. Okay, I'm rambling. But that's what I've been up to today.

[Lefty Seven]

Convicted of madness and sentenced to eighty days in the chuckle hut.

[Scooter9]

I've had an Instagram account for years but I have never posted. I just follow my kids and friends.

Today I made my first ever Instagram post - a photo from my archive of astronomy photos!

I'm glad I did this because it's my first astronomy post since my sister passed away 2 years ago.

I also reached out to someone I lost touch with years ago to maybe re-establish the relationship. We'll see how it goes. Little steps.

[Unrigged64072835]

Got the painting, patching, and skim coating done. Hope to finish up tomorrow. My abs hurt! They have been hurting all week from all the lifting and reaching. I do hope the ceiling paint blends in. I don’t want to have to paint it again.

Also have the Christmas tree up. I don’t know if the lights are on it yet.

Also have laundry and cleaning tomorrow. Ugh.

At least my husband helped today, though he had to take a nap this morning.

Love and hugs to everyone.

[pirilin]

Went for a test drive of a new boat.
Light chop. 2 to 3.
Excellent weather for a boat outing.

I like it. I took it to 5000rpms. In chop.
Which in this particular boat is 36mph.
The ride was great. No water. Only a little spray.

If I had 58k, I would probably buy it.
I'm gonna try for zero down and 400 a month 'till the day I die.
Maybe they'll bite. If not, it was a great ride anyway.

Cheers.

[Blueberrybook]

I had a pretty boring day. Ran in the morning, did chores.

I got so sleepy after lunch, I could hardly stay awake. I had to lie down. Anyone else deal with this? it is not every day, maybe 2 or 3 days a week, and I do not take meds at or near lunchtime. I have to schedule with the GI doc on Monday; maybe he'll know. Though I have read it's thought to be part of our circadian rhythm, we get tired 1-3 PM; It can be the blood sugar rush. Lots of things. But gastric surgery can cause it too, so I will ask.

I don't think I napped, if I did, it wasn't deep, and I was in & out, but I was able to practice the progressive relaxation from the T last week & that seems to have helped.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I had a pretty boring day. Ran in the morning, did chores.

I got so sleepy after lunch, I could hardly stay awake. I had to lie down. Anyone else deal with this? it is not every day, maybe 2 or 3 days a week, and I do not take meds at or near lunchtime. I have to schedule with the GI doc on Monday; maybe he'll know. Though I have read it's thought to be part of our circadian rhythm, we get tired 1-3 PM; It can be the blood sugar rush. Lots of things. But gastric surgery can cause it too, so I will ask.

I don't think I napped, if I did, it wasn't deep, and I was in & out, but I was able to practice the progressive relaxation from the T last week & that seems to have helped.

I usually want to nap after lunch time even if i havent had lunch yet. I did today. I try not to nap and when i do i try to set an alarm or crazy things happen like sleeping for 4 hours!

[Nammu]

They went on and on about the storm....snowed 2 inches and stopped! I bet lots of people stayed home from holiday events or canceled plans cause of the pre-storm hysteria and what a fizzle. Still as it is the first staying snow probably avoided lots of accidents by everyone staying home.

[xRavenx]

For a week and a half, I was feeling rather hypomanicky with bursts of creativity, feeling "high," racing thoughts, so many ideas in my head, getting super "into" certain subjects, reading everything about them....

Well, I'm starting to feel a crash again. It feel very disconnected from people and my environment. I do not feel I'm going to get anywhere better in life. Things are caving in. I'm not sure why this is happening, although I recognize it. Still, it doesn't change things. I don't cry much. Outside of here, I keep things to myself, but I feel something coming on.

Hugs to everyone in need.

[Pookyl]

Hot and summery. There’s a bushfire burning somewhere - I can smell it. But otherwise all is well.
Fingers and toes crossed for ongoing stability.

[yellow_fleurs]

Depressed but irritable. Had therapy, hope I didn't act too irritable towards my therapist. Slept most of the afternoon. Can't tell if I am just depressed or getting sick...just zapped of energy.

[Moose72]

Hope i can sleep at seroquel 100 and a nap!

[wildflowerchild25]

Had an absolutely wonderful time on my date! The garden was absolutely gorgeous and it was so nice walking through with a wonderful man by my side. I already feel super comfortable with him, like I don’t have to work hard to impress him. We had a nice dinner afterward as well. I feel so warm and fuzzy inside!

He’s going to come over next weekend to watch a movie with me. I truly can’t wait.

I ate dinner with no problems and now I’m super tired from walking around so hopefully I’ll fall asleep and feel better about eating tomorrow.

[MJLouise]

I went to my pdoc because adding a half of the lithium extended release pill to make my dose total 625 gave me insomnia. She ordered regular immediate release 150 to take in the morning in addition to my 450 extended release at night. So now instead of insomnia I have really really bad fatigue. It made me really drowsy.

I’m doing ok though mood wise I feel like I’m coming up out of the hole. I’m just exhausted. I’m going to give it Time and see if it goes away. The dr here in the states agreed with the St in Germany that I should get seen by a neurologist for some of my stranger symptoms. The neurologist I was starting to see in Hermany wanted to see if I had MS. So now I’ve got an appointment here in s few weeks.

Life’s a bit tuff right now but I’m wadding through this.

[TheSeaCat]

Today was great got coffee this morning with R to discuss possibility becoming roommates, I am just sick of dealing with my father's crap. So I am probably going to move sometime after Christmas. She would really like to have me as a roommate and the rent is even cheaper.

My time spent with M was good, we went to lunch and then to the movies where we saw Instant Family, we also saw a Christmas Lights Parade which was really pretty. I find I enjoy his company a lot more than the ex, it's nice to be out with someone with a maturity level.

Hugs to everyone

[tecomsin]

I have been down to showering only 2 or 3 times a week but got one in today, went for lunch, cleaned the kitchen and went grocery shopping. Stocked up on some staples.

Did all my exercises and stretches for rotator cuff injury. It still hurts to pull off a t-shirt or sweater but less than before.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m in a good mood today and feel like myself again.

I’ve had pneumonia a few times and it was business as usual for me (I stubbornly refuse to slow down for physical illness) but whatever I just came through knocked me off my feet. The antibiotics took a while to kick in and today is the first day I feel like myself. What was it? I’ll be happy to get back to regular activities.

I’m going to work on the house today. It’s a bit messy. The two family members I take care of aren’t able to do much so when I’m down with an illness, things tend to pile up.

My brother still won’t leave the house unless I go out with him to protect him. I’m looking for solutions that would not involve going IP but it’s looking increasing like it will be IP. Don’t get me wrong...I would drive him anywhere, protect him and fight his battles forever but I must understand IP may be needed. I just worry about him.

I’m going to a Christmas concert tonight that I’m looking forward. Getting into the Christmas spirit. There’s a symphony performance December 16th that plays Holiday music and includes bells at times. Really looking forward to that and to some other Christmas events.

My daughter is going to Cumberland Island to camp for a week during Christmas break. There are wild horses and a great ecosystem. You can only get there by ferry. They’ll study the ecosystem and kayak around the island. The loving part of me encouraged her. The selfish part quietly screamed no, no, no. I’ve never been out of contact with her before. We talk and text several times a day and have trackers on each other’s phones. I hope she has a ball.

I stopped taking Trintellix. I thought it was weight neutral but I wanted to eat everything in sight and gained over 10 lbs. Can’t have that. Hopefully, I’ll stay stable until I see him on the 13th.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

I'm glad that you are feeling better, pneumonia is no joke. I'm glad the antibiotics are working. I hope you have fun at the Christmas concert. I hope your daughter enjoys her trip that does sound like a blast.

I hope you get the medication thing figured out, there is nothing worse than weight gain.

I'm happy to see you posting again.

[beauflow]

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Thank you all for letting me take up space...
I'll try to keep this short.

Today has been pretty good, I got a lot of cleaning, laundry completed. Lots of music, some game time. still need to finish some things though inthe living room.

In the evening, My ex and I hung out, got sushi ((i do like California rolls I found out, and can use chop sticks. Yay)...

then we went to a pottery painting studio.... admittedly- triggered annoyed or what ever -at the studio. By the end I felt like I should had just gone alone as I've done many times before.

I understand that the painting may not be for everyone..
It began with him being very negative at the beginning because holiday music was going on- .. I tried to lighten up the whole situation, I was In A good mood. Asking what he would do for his piece, and if he was going to give it to his mom .. suggested that his mom or sister would enjoy a painted jar from him.. he likes and gets along with his family, his mom is nice-- I may just paint her a jar (ha ha).. I tried to joke, but grumpy ex just wasn't there with me.

Seee, part of this (well the end is all me) is on me because I had mentioned to him in advance that I wanted to try to get at least a little festive, since I usually get depressed this time of the year with reminders every where that I have no family, no friends really, and just am utterly alone. Yada yada yada yada ... and just a thought- perhaps if I do my own things, perhaps I won't be so miserable?? Do some thing fun to me that's part of the festivities that others join into during this time of the year here.

he did what he does, and my entire mood changed. he was making comments to the point that I gave him the dead cold stair and reminded him, I just wanted to try to get a little into the "holiday festivities" so perhaps to avoid suicidal idealism later.. sorry I get blunt sometimes but he stopped

Then when he was on his phone for about half the time, I kept saying I was sorry for wasting his time and that I was sorry for taking the painting so seriously.

I kept going in and out of feeling like a child... afraid him getting mad at me.. but he did remind me I was fine but did want to leave soon, I tried to hurry up but I messed up my piece and had to do a quick doctoring.. he complemented my work. He mentioned my details that I do.. also that he should had expected going with me, even with a small piece would take time.

And of course.. I am sorry for being me. , but I am glad I did something I will be ok to display.. I don't think we spent 2 hours, and the group that came in at the same time were still painting when we left...

He has his issues, but tonight just a reminder of why we broke up. I am glad we're still friends. That he is my family..
Unfortunately while I realize when we left my mood should had lifted but it hadn't. When driving home I kept making commentsbof "I should just "go away "."
I shouldn't go away, and I am sorry it's taken till now to realize this slip of me.
I am exhausted though. So I will get some rest

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

That NP sounds awful. I hate when I have to see a NP instead of my normal doctor or even another doctor at the practice who takes my insurance. The last one I had was completely new, I wouldn't have been surprised if it were his first real job and me his first patient (8 AM appt.). It was a wellness checkup, but he so didn't know what he was doing that I told him don't bother with the women's checkup (even though for that I think they are required to have another woman, not sure if a nurse or med assistant in the room). Frankly, I thought he'd severely injure me doing the pap smear (it was 3 years since the last) as he was referring to a list for everything. I rescheduled the women's wellness part with my PCP.

You definitely should do what you can to at leas get a complaint put on that NP's record.

Yikes! That does sound like someone fresh out of school. They are required to have someone in the room, patient's can request otherwise though if they are uncomfortable. I'm glad you stood your ground, that's the one thing I wish I would have done that day but I was a dumb twenty year old who thought that was a requirement. I certainly know better now.

[Blue_Bird]

My sleep is all screwed up from sleeping late yesterday. I'm starting o get a bit tired now at 6am since I didn't wake up till 12:30pm yesterday.

We finally found a grave spot to bury my grandparents! They're going to be buried together.

We had placed them in temporary graves while we waited to find an actual grave site for them. I have no idea what you call those temporary graves. It's basically a giant concrete wall with empty "slots" to place a coffin. Then you seal up the "slot" with concrete once you slide in a coffin. You can keep the bodies there for a max of 5 years.

They look like this:

The cemetery is very full in general, so we had to wait a while to find a spot for them.

In Spanish culture, it is very common to have elaborate tombstones. For example,



That's from Cuba, but we're not cuban. It's just an example. But that's why we had such a hard time finding a gravesite.

[nikon]

i've been getting anger attacks for the past four or five days, and sometimes i've been nervous to be around people in case i can't control them. i've got a lot of work this coming week and not sure if i'm not looking forward to the stress, or looking forward to keeping busy.

today i ended up not meeting up with a friend when i was supposed to, because i was really tired and falling asleep, and now i regret it. i need to buy food but i am too apathetic to go to the shops.