[Moose72]

Having left-over BBQ chicken and lemon potato salad for dinner. Yummy. Still gotta get N3 from work, but at least that girl who is always asking me for a ride home is suspended so she won't be there for a week. *Evil grin*. I thought this guy was following me home from Starbucks, so I got in the left-turn lane - kept looking for him, but didn't see him again. At least, he didn't appear at that time. Pdoc did call me tonight about the faint feelings- told me to stop propanolol, but I do think it dehydration and the heat combined with Haldol. That's my theory, but I'll stop the Propanolol anyway. Ooh I just want to watch movies and not go out.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Some 86 year old lady hit my car today while I was driving. I was going through the intersection of a stop sign and she didn't stop her car. She hit me on the rear right of my car behind the tire area. She told the cops I hit her (LOL!) and that I blew a stop sign. I don't know how I could have possibly hit her if the damage is to the right rear of the car. But oh well. She ain't winning that argument.

Granny was pretty hostile and aggressive! I don't know what her problem was. She was probably mad at herself for hitting me. Maybe she knows her kids will take away her keys since she's obviously too old to be driving.

I wish there were laws which required people to retake their driving tests every X number of years as a means of preventing accidents caused by elderly, or otherwise driving-incapable people.

Something similar happened to me when a woman backed into my car in a parking lot, hitting the side of my car. I was not even moving. She yelled at me like "did you just hit me, there are kids in this car, you're lucky there's not damage". I was like 18 or something and totally froze and then was like, no, you hit me, but she didn't believe me. At least she didn't try to call the police or something. She was probably in her 30s or 40s, though, just not paying attention I guess.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

We survived the tornadoes.


That’s all

Glad your safe

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Pinkeye is back. ****!!!!!


What's worse is that I may have done it to myself. I think I threw out the wrong eye pencil. (You have to get rid of the eye makeup that you may have used while infected, and I think I grabbed the wrong one. No, I didn't use any once it showed itself. It sets up house fast.) I don't know for sure, but what else could it be?!


I still have drops from before, so I started them right away.


It is SERIOUSLY bumming me out. I didn't want to get up today (noon) and want to wear a paper bag over my head. I just can't go through this again. Just when things were starting to look up...


Have a T appt. today. Only reason I'm getting up at all.


FML

Oh no !!!!!!! I’m so sorry. I hope it somehow clears up ASAP.

Happy Hump Day, everyone!

My mood is good today, but something is amiss with me. I've been having to double and triple check my writing this morning because of weird mistakes. For example, I am leaving out words and writing things like "tomorrow" instead of "yesterday". Yea, my thinking is a little fuzzy. I am pretty sure yesterday's upswing plus last night's decrease in sleep played a part. I only got 5 hours of sleep, which perhaps to some people sounds fine, but to me isn't sufficient. Also, my Seroquel XR requires I get sufficient sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep despite my evening meds taken at 7 pm. However, even if I wake up after few hours of sleep the Seroquel XR is still struggling to sedate me.

[Phoenix_1]

I'm back after several years. I was on too much Seroquel and turned into a zombie. I didn't care about anything, not even Christmas. I'm trying Abilify now and feeling somewhat better, but I'm having trouble finding the right dose. The side effects are not good. Hoping for the best!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I'm back after several years. I was on too much Seroquel and turned into a zombie. I didn't care about anything, not even Christmas. I'm trying Abilify now and feeling somewhat better, but I'm having trouble finding the right dose. The side effects are not good. Hoping for the best!

Welcome back. Hope you find a happy medium with meds, keeping BP at bay but still enjoying life

Something is suspicious with MetLife auto insurance (I have Progressive, btw). The MetLife guy was saying that Progressive isn't allowed (yes: ISN'T ALLOWED) to look at my damaged car even though Progressive wants to look at it. Then he said that he didn't know about the accident until MY insurance company called him. He said that he has not spoken to his client and that he had left a voicemail. So, apparently she didn't even report the accident to her own insurance company. Thankfully I had filed a police report, though, so she's not weaseling out of that one. And since she said I hit her, as well as accused me of blowing a stop sign, she probably would have said that there was never an accident if the cops didn't come.

I'm going to go through my own insurance even though it's completely her fault. I need my car done ASAP and I don't trust an insurance company which says MY insurance company isn't allowed to look at it. They're going to come up with a bunch of b_llshit lies and try to cover things up. I don't even think it's legal to say that Progressive isn't allowed to look at the car. So, I left a voicemail on my case lady's line saying exactly what he said about them not being allowed to look at the car.

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Something similar happened to me when a woman backed into my car in a parking lot, hitting the side of my car. I was not even moving. She yelled at me like "did you just hit me, there are kids in this car, you're lucky there's not damage". I was like 18 or something and totally froze and then was like, no, you hit me, but she didn't believe me. At least she didn't try to call the police or something. She was probably in her 30s or 40s, though, just not paying attention I guess.

That sucks. At least there was no damage involved and that she didn't call 911. Sounds like you avoided a nightmare.

[Moose72]

I spent the day with my friend that I walk with. She is very nice. We met her sister and hour and a half away for lunch. Her sister volunteers at a camp for kids; she lives in a 5th wheel. We saw animals on the little farm- baby chicks, baby pigs, horses... Their dog ducked under the electric fence and caught his shoulders on the wire, coming back out. He made an awful yelp/scream. Then he ran toward the house, and wouldn't come when called anywhere near the fence. He even went on the porch and asked to go in. We got some eggs from the farm; I had some for dinner- yum! I found some money wrapped in a 20 on the ground. I picked it up and asked my friend's sister if it were hers. She said yes. Then at the store after while checking out, she told the cashier it was her "mad money"! I'm broke until Friday, so I was just like, "Whatever..." Come to find out, the money was my friend's. In other news, I should clean the apartment. It seems the kids aren't going to. I should do laundry. Oh yeah! I found my camera and am charging my battery. I am determined to get back into photography!!

[Scooter9]

I found out today that a friend of my sister and I is dying of cancer. Her brother feels she has a couple of days left.

I called and spoke with her. She knows she's dying and wanted to say bye to everyone. We spoke of my sister, spoke of her family, my kids, and life. What do you say to someone that knows they might not be here by the weekend?

I told her I love her and that she's in my thoughts. I'm going with my wife to the hospital to see her tomorrow.

[fern46]

I saw my pdoc today. He said he'd like to keep my low dose of Geodon the same and to come back in three months. After that, he said it might be time to take me off meds if I am still doing well. I was going once a month and it feels like I graduated or something. I still don't have a diagnosis. He said I'm rare case and it is a bit of a miracle to see me doing so well given how severe my psychosis was last November. I'm happy with the treatment plan, but I'm still struggling with not having a cause for what happened to me. I keep waiting on the other shoe to drop and praying it won't.

Big hugs, Scooter!

[downandlonely]

@fern46 sounds like you're doing really well. Congrats!

[yellow_fleurs]

Well I feel pretty good recently. A mental fog has cleared and I am focused and productive at work. I am less obsessive and caught up in minor details, seeing the big picture. I got great feedback on something I was doing at work that I was depressed/anxious I was messing up. I have been keeping busy. Berry picking and kayaking with a friend this weekend, working on a paper. I am more social, and just generally feel happier and lighter. I have been having some anxiety and irritability, but am catching myself with that and using mindfulness, or taking a walk, whatever I can do to keep it in check. Overall, it's not just that I am "happy", but I feel mentally more stable. At least, I really hope that's what this is and not some temporary fake out of my brain.

I wonder if I will start EMDR therapy this week during my appointment tomorrow. I don't really get what we're going to do. If there were specific events I wanted to work on I would get it, but guess we'll see. I certainly would like to feel less anxious.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello all; I hope you all are doing well. I am doing and feeling absolutely fantastic. God I adore this Trintellix. I've gotten off the Omprazole and have the occasional issue with food but hey that is what Tums fix; plus I am no longer at the point at night where I find I want to cuddle the bottle of water; in fact I don't have the super thirst/dry mouth at night. So that is two although minor side effects that I am happy I no longer deal with. In fact I have no side effects on the Trintellix; for so long for me it was side effect after side effect; finally I just admitted my defeat and dealt with the minor side effects. My thoughts are clear; the depression for the first time in a long time is GONE; not lurking but gone. I don't have one depressive symptom.

One of my coworkers yesterday asked me the common depression questions and on everything else I have been on I usually have a few depression symptoms; but nothing. I honestly wish someone or I would have suggested this when everything first started. I feel happy; not like manic happy but like a normal happiness.

I feel like it's made my relationship stronger. Coworkers have commented that I am the best they have ever seen me; one nurse actually called me a ray of sunshine. I wouldn't go that far; but I do feel really good. Plus the great thing about Trintellix is that it weight neutral, I haven't gained anything on it; if anything I have lost a few pounds. Granted I didn't really notice any gain on Seroquel.

My heart rate has dropped the mid to low 80's; my Fitbit currently has it sitting at 84 which I am very pleased in seeing; still seeing the Cardio every two weeks; but I finally just accepted my fate on that. I think the med works and it does; but after two-three weeks it suddenly doesn't want to do it's job; so back the drawing board.

Work wise; I have been busy training new people but it's been been good no issues to report about work. Still love waking up for work and doing what I do.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I'm back after several years. I was on too much Seroquel and turned into a zombie. I didn't care about anything, not even Christmas. I'm trying Abilify now and feeling somewhat better, but I'm having trouble finding the right dose. The side effects are not good. Hoping for the best!

Good to see you Welcome back.

Hope Abilify is a good Med for you

[Wander]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hello all; I hope you all are doing well. I am doing and feeling absolutely fantastic. God I adore this Trintellix. I've gotten off the Omprazole and have the occasional issue with food but hey that is what Tums fix; plus I am no longer at the point at night where I find I want to cuddle the bottle of water; in fact I don't have the super thirst/dry mouth at night. So that is two although minor side effects that I am happy I no longer deal with. In fact I have no side effects on the Trintellix; for so long for me it was side effect after side effect; finally I just admitted my defeat and dealt with the minor side effects. My thoughts are clear; the depression for the first time in a long time is GONE; not lurking but gone. I don't have one depressive symptom.

One of my coworkers yesterday asked me the common depression questions and on everything else I have been on I usually have a few depression symptoms; but nothing. I honestly wish someone or I would have suggested this when everything first started. I feel happy; not like manic happy but like a normal happiness.

I feel like it's made my relationship stronger. Coworkers have commented that I am the best they have ever seen me; one nurse actually called me a ray of sunshine. I wouldn't go that far; but I do feel really good. Plus the great thing about Trintellix is that it weight neutral, I haven't gained anything on it; if anything I have lost a few pounds. Granted I didn't really notice any gain on Seroquel.

My heart rate has dropped the mid to low 80's; my Fitbit currently has it sitting at 84 which I am very pleased in seeing; still seeing the Cardio every two weeks; but I finally just accepted my fate on that. I think the med works and it does; but after two-three weeks it suddenly doesn't want to do it's job; so back the drawing board.

Work wise; I have been busy training new people but it's been been good no issues to report about work. Still love waking up for work and doing what I do.

Hugs to everyone

I am so thrilled for you! It is amazing when you find a med that works that well.

[Wander]

Hello beautiful people. It is an amazingly warm day so close to winter. It hasn't rained for a long time which is worrying. For that reason I hope winter kicks in soon. My hip and stomach issues are worse. My hip got so painful I saw a Physio even though I cannot afford it. This year I have spent at least $500 on physiotherapy and I can't work - because of my hip. Sigh.

My stomach is bad. Extreme burning pain after eating. Slowly I am discovering what causes less pain. I have to force myself to eat as I am losing weight fast. I see my GP next Wed to get the results of a blood test for gastritis. If positive it may just involve a course of antibiotics to fix it. If not I will have an endoscopy. I don't think it's serious, just very painful and inconvenient. I just hope my meds are digesting ok.

Other that the above I am still stable and mostly cheerful. Had a weird few hours last night where I thought I was going mad again but I woke up fine today. Overall I have hope that I will return to full health and be able to get back to work before I run out of savings. This makes me realise that having a positive mindset, well at least for me, requires me to be reasonably mentally well. When I'm in an episode everything goes black, well except during the euphoric mania.

[~Christina]

It’s 3:19 and I’m wide awake! I have liquid grapes and my kindle... life is gooooood

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I found out today that a friend of my sister and I is dying of cancer. Her brother feels she has a couple of days left.

I called and spoke with her. She knows she's dying and wanted to say bye to everyone. We spoke of my sister, spoke of her family, my kids, and life. What do you say to someone that knows they might not be here by the weekend?

I told her I love her and that she's in my thoughts. I'm going with my wife to the hospital to see her tomorrow.

It is hard to know what to say, but it is very kind of you to show your support and let your friend know she is loved. I think that's the most important part. I'm so sorry you are losing a friend like this. Hugs.

This morning I'm going to visit my father. This may seem odd, but I'm a bit nervous about it. It will be my first visit with him since he was in the hospital. He sounded much better when I spoke with him last. I hope he is well. The drive is more annoying than usual since both possible routes have detours. I have to zigzag around the area. I don't understand why the road repair is planned in such a foolish way.

My husband pushed me into asking for a French class next week after weeks without. I know I shouldn't keep avoiding it, but it is a bit stressful knowing I'll have to get back to it, especially given the awkwardness of my cancellations. The instructor was offering a class tomorrow, but that would be impossible for me.

[Unrigged64072835]

Still here...

Been busy with sewing and cooking. Been helping our neighbors down the road.

It’s sad that for all those people who want to help, there’s others who are insensitive that act like jerks, scam victims, act like it’s all for their amusement and taking advantage of. I try to focus on the positive but it’s hard sometimes.

My depression is getting better now that I have more sleep. My triglycerides are still up, though. Will do another set of labs next month. I also have to take more breaks so my back and sides stop hurting.

Love to all of you!

[Nammu]

I can feel my irritation building. I need someplace to go, get out of here.

[wildflowerchild25]

I am soooo stressed out with my classes and with moving. I got a message that I am on academic earning because I failed that class when I was really ill last year because I never withdrew. So I have to do really well in these two classes and so far I have an A in one but only a B in the other. I’m so stressed taking two classes, I never should have done that. But it’s too late now to drop out of one, they’re halfway over. Might as well keep going. I’m just trying not to freak out.

I have so much on my mind with moving too. I have to get the water account switched into my name but that means I have to go down to the water works in the city. I hate the city. It sucks driving in it. It makes me nervous. I have to contact my property manager about putting in a dryer, I have to remember to change my address at my son’s school but I can’t do that until his school year is over on June 19, remember to call the lcable company but I can’t do that until we’re loved in and our TVs are hooked up, I have to think about what we have to pack....I am so overwhelmed! I just want it to be done with. I wish we could move now but my son has to finish school. I don’t want him switching schools with less than a month left. That’s just silly.

I just need to calm down. I’m stressing way too much. I’m too overwhelmed. And on top of it all I can’t be sure I still have a job next year. I’m waiting to sign a contract. I would have hoped they would have told me by now if I didn’t so I could prepare and start looking for other jobs. At least I do have a summer job.

It’ll all be ok. Only four more weeks until my classes end and then I don’t have to take another one until October. And soon enough we will be all moved in. I just hope I don’t lose my mind before then!