[Naynay99]

Feeling a little better today.
Work helps even when it sucks, it forces me to think about everyone else instead of myself. Gets me out my Own head.

Going to a support group tonite, it’s one I’ve never been to before so am a little nervous but I feel like it’s a good idea since I’ve been having a tough time. And I made an appt w pdoc for 2 weeks from now.

I had bad insomnia last night, but eventually got to sleep. I refuse to drug myself to sleep. My brain eventually shuts off and lets me sleep.
Hope everyone had a decent Monday. Take care.

[yellow_fleurs]

Brentus, I just wanted to say that the fact that you had independence for the period of time you had it means that you were at least for a time capable of it, and there is some hope you could be independent again. Not succeeding all the time does not mean you have failed all the time either. It's also okay that you need support right now. Hoping things look up for you soon.

[MsSunflower]

Things are going okay for me finally. A new med is helping with the anxiety and I'm able to do more things that might help my mood because of it. Been feeling early signs of depression for days but so far I'm managing to keep it away. Good days are few but they still happen for which I'm grateful to you all.

[sadveiledbride]

Didn't go to sleep until around 9am, woke up around 5PM. My life seems okay at the moment however wracked by dread, anxiety, and sleeping issues.

[Moose72]

Stomachache-

I used to get recurrent bouts of something called ileitis- a form of colitis. It would start as a stomachache that got worse over the evening and into the night, progressing to sweating, vomiting, diarrhea, feelings of being faint and terrible pain that came in waves. Ive been to the ER many times for this. Even admitted. So today before lunch I get some symptoms- pain getting worse but is intermittent. Have no fever or anything other than the pain- I know from experience that if I were to go into the ER at this stage, I'd get sent away. Maybe its just a regular stomachache thats coming in waves? Dunno.

[MsSunflower]

Sorry you're not feeling well Moose I've had that before and it was just a bad stomach ache that went away. Hoping you have a speedy recovery!

[Wander]

My parents are away for a few days so my partner and I are taking advantage of their huge TV and amazing sound system. Poor neighbours, we've had the music up incredibly loud at times, though not early in the morning or late at night. It just sounds so good. I can feel the music vibrating through my body. This has been a nice distraction from my physical health issues, and a nice change from being alone all the time.

Tomorrow I am seeing my T after three weeks on no appointments. There is so much to fill him in on. I am really looking forward to seeing him and being able to again show that I am still stable. The PTSD seems to be stirring up again though, but I feel ready to tackle it this time. Not much else to report except that it is finally going to rain here for a few days later in the week. It hasn't rained for months. You wouldn't think it but you can get bored of blue skies and perfect temperatures. Bring on the storms and rain I say.

[Naynay99]

Back from the support group meeting.
I think it helped some. Glad I went.
I’m gonna try to make it a regular weekly thing. Will see how it goes.

[VerMOZZica]

I didn`t get much done today. I felt really tired all day. I guess that`s how bipolar depression goes. I might attend a group for people with mental health issues tomorrow. I also have therapy this week. I guess tomorrow is another day. I hope you all have a fantastic week. Hugs to all that want them.

[sadveiledbride]

Sitting here eating trail mix, avoiding my schoolwork and watching a movie. I hope things get better in the future, because I feel pure awful right now. I am full of serious dread.

[~Christina]

Oh no I can’t sleep !!! Nah it’s all good I have watched Deadpool 1 and 2 and I’m laughing like a hyena LOL

Time to watch again I love Ryan Reynolds

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Oh no I can’t sleep !!! Nah it’s all good I have watched Deadpool 1 and 2 and I’m laughing like a hyena LOL

Time to watch again I love Ryan Reynolds

I love Deadpool! I’ve seen both as well.

The baby legs part... I was dying.

I had to go to the phlebotomist this morning for my biannual blood tests. Luckily it's close to my home, because I got there and realized I didn't have the blood test form. I had to drive all the way back home and return.

Yesterday my psychiatrist lowered my Seroquel XR again. It's now only 500 mg. He didn't touch my new Latuda. I guess he figures there is no need. I agree with him. Why touch something that seems to be fine, as is ?My only complaint has been sleeping slightly more than needed. Lowering of the Seroquel XR helps with that, not raising Latuda. I see him in three weeks, but I doubt he'll change anything if I'm doing well. After that I don't see him for six weeks because of his annual big summer vacation. He always goes to his summer house on Martha's Vineyard.

I cancelled going to a Tuesday morning Write-in Meet Up this morning. I thought it would be too much of a rush between the phlebotomist and that. I had to go to the phlebotomist. I should have gone yesterday.

Today I see my therapist. Other than that, no major plans. I do need to study French, which I did not do yesterday despite pledging to do so.

Tomorrow hubby is off from work. We're going into NYC to see a ballet. We'll go to a favorite restaurant near Lincoln Center just before. It should be a good day.

[Phoenix_1]

Doing ok. Saw my Pdoc yesterday. I was on Seroquel for almost 2 years, but it made me not care about anything. April 29 he put me on Abilify. Boy, did I ever get a lot of things done, but the side effects were too bad. So now he prescribed Risperdal and I'm hoping I'll feel better soon. Feeling positive.

[Sunflower123]

I know I should be grateful and I am! Having said that, my back pain is putting serious limitations on what I can do. Oh, I can do it but I’ll pay for it later by being flat on my back with lidocaine patches and heating pads. It’s so beautiful and the surf is calm and clear but I’m weighing the costs-benefits of trekking up and down the beach. Trying mind over matter and trying to hide it from the kids.

Oh well...such is life.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Just had my first pdoc appt. in about 7 months (insurance issues and was doing well, so it was ok). Been having some low grade depression, we're going to try kicking it out with some med adjustments. Some sleep troubles and anxiety, but I think that might just be a natural response to being about to start a new job that I haven't really done at this level for a decade.

Hugs for all who would like them.

[Moose72]

Today is N3's graduation! I picked out a dress- I hope it fits. My clothes have been a bit looser lately so we shall see. EDIT: it *is* a bit looser! And its comfy! Sandals here I come!

[hopeless2015]

My get up and go has left the building for today lol. Hour and a half left for work, I can do this!! Seriously, so many oddball issues popping up all of last week and so far this week too but trying to stay positive. Itll all work out in the end.

Hugs

[GoldenSnitch]

So I’m supposed to be going back to work on June 17. I finally saw pdoc after he cancelled my last 2 appointments. My anxiety and depression have been creeping up. He is taking me off of my cipralex and adding something else (I can’t remember what he said but I think it starts with a T) I’m scared. Cipralex is the only med that’s ever helped my anxiety. And how am I supposed to be going back to work with this med change happening?? I’m so frustrated.

[Blueberrybook]

Tired today, didn’t sleep much last night. Got a burst of energy and vacuumed, but I really overdid it. Got nauseous, hardly able to have breakfast. Read some, worked some on decluttering my office. Trying to convince my daughter to declutter her stuff (with my help even); then, she pulls out a toy she has not played with in 2 or 3 years, now tells me she is “playing” with it. She’s 11 and a half and really more tween/teen than kid. I have only lately seen her play with Legos out of all her toys. Tomorrow I have my 2nd iron infusion, but they are predicting a lot of rain, flood watches/warnings already up for tomorrow and Thursday. Hopefully, I won’t have to reschedule. H is taking the day off work to drive me there as I do not do well driving in the Houston medical center (makes me panic). Not to mention they give you Benadryl beforehand, which doesn’t put me to sleep but does make me a bit groggy.

[Daonnachd]

Tomorrow I have ECT. Last weekend I helped my son write a persuasive essay dealing with it so we also discussed some of the reasons, both proven and unproven, as to why it isn't used as much its efficacy would suggest. Now I have those negative arguments rolling around in my head generating anxiety.

[Blue_Bird]

I've slept 7 hours total since I woke up Saturday morning..... I'm seriously praying I get some sleep tonight

[Moose72]

Graduaation went very well! All 3 of my kids are gradgeeated! (Dont like my photos of me though...)

[wildflowerchild25]

My cousin in law was found dead of an apparent overdose on Saturday morning by my mother in law who was living with her. It was a huge shock. No one knew she was into drugs besides pot. I’m going to the funeral on Friday. It’s awful. Just like my husband. Gone way too soon. She was only 33. I wasn’t very close with her but she was in my wedding 8 years ago. It’s just such a tragedy. Her, my brother In law, and father in law, all gone within 8 months. That’s too much for any family to take.

Other than that everything is going well for me. I’m halfway through my master’s classes and now have an A and an A-. I have to get cracking on my final projects. We will be moving on June 22. I signed my contract for next year so I definitely have a job. I also am working at the school this summer instead of the summer camp just because the hours are better and I can get more done in the summer time. I already paid for before and after care at my son’s camp though which sucks. But oh well. I’m not as stressed out about moving as I was. I’m still stressed about school but again, not as much.

The most important thing I have to take care of right now is my smoking. My boyfriend found out that I’m smoking again and he was NOT pleased. It almost led to our first fight. But I groveled and apologized and promised to quit. So now I have to follow through on that promise. It helps that I can’t afford to smoke this week. I have $75 in my checking account to last me until next Wednesday. I have some money in savings that I could transfer but I need it for rent. So I’d rather not.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I love Deadpool! I’ve seen both as well.


The baby legs part... I was dying.

Oh yes !!! Baby legs Hahahaha , I woke up my husband laughing so loud lol