Bipolar Check-In #38

I can only speak for myself, but I enjoy your cycling updates.

So do I. You are a reminder that it is possible to achieve things that are difficult, physically or mentally.

I'm back from my trip to the u.s. I have a funny story to tell about it but I feel out of place posting a funny story here among all these posts - I don't want to be insensitive.

I'm officially on my target dose of Mirapex now (well for 2 days now) so I'll know whether it helps in a few weeks.

WC, I have faith that the Mirapex will work. I might need a higher dose later because this depression I'm in is really bad. I'll know in a few weeks.

My mood is unchanged but that's a good thing I think. It's better than getting really low and having a bad day.

During this trip I came to realize how much I think about being depressed, my medications, and my future. If I'm not thinking about that, I am thinking about the present and how the moment I'm in now will never exist again and the fact that my time in life is now changed and things will never be the same as they once were.

All those thoughts are not that good, I think. They're realistic and practical but they're not helpful in getting me out of this depression. The thing is I can't stop them when they come up. If I'm busy I can avoid them but they always come back. I think that's the depression doing its thing.

I can’t speak for others but I could use a funny story.

I agree with Pookyl - a funny story would be beneficial.

I feel like a funny story is exactly what we need...

Please do keep posting about your cycling. It’s a bright spot and very impressive.

I would welcome a funny story.

Oh no no no ... please continue sharing your biking! I love reading about it.

Just keep going , one day to the next to the next.

I have wavered about posting this.. but I think mentally I need too.

4 years ago tomorrow is when I had loaded a physically and mentally very very sick person in the car and drove her North to my home 14 hours away.

Most of you all know how it ended and how it has left me with deep scars of PTSD .... a struggle I will always have.

We have a lot of people struggling right now, many people are on a ledge even.

Please please please listen to me when I say “ if you take yourself out YOU will leave a path of destruction in your wake, those left will have to continue to live each day and remember the most horrible day of THEIR life.

Just stop and breathe

Thank you for sharing Christina

Ok thanks for your replies. Here's my story...

I visited an Indian temple and there was a service going on when I arrived so it was really crowded. You have to sit on the floor there and I'm not good with sitting cross-legged but that's the only way you're allowed to sit.

At a point many of us went into a smaller part of the temple where they continued the service. It was packed in this smaller room and we sat for a long time. I was sitting cross legged but holding up my knees. I felt my left leg fall asleep. I tried my best to find a better position but it was too crowded.

At a point during the service you have to stand up to pay your respects. I stood but only made it up less than half way! I stumbled and started to fall backwards into the crowd of people behind me! I'm a tall guy so I felt badly for the people behind me that must have seen this towering guy falling backwards towards them!

They didn't manage to stop my fall so I ended up on the floor. Some guys helped me up but my leg wouldn't cooperate. I could hardly stand and now we had to walk too lol! I was so embarrassed.

Now my elbows are sore but my pride is hurt more lol.

I have pretty bad asthma episodes as well so I feel your pain. I hope something works soon

Oh goodness !!!! Although physically it was quite the struggle.... I’m glad you had the experience

I hope you find relief quick!! It is miserable for sure

Thank you so much for this reminder.

That IS funny! Thanks for sharing.

I have been sitting with my legs tucked under me in the recliner lately. Other day, I stood up to find my left foot completely asleep! When my feet hit the floor, the left one buckled under me- my knee bent backward all at once and I almost fell over. So yeah I can see how youd feel embarassed in public and taking a tumble like you did!

I just finished a session with my life coach and I feel 100% better. Sometimes it just takes one person reaching out to another. I had been having thoughts that my life was hopelessly bad and that I was a waste of space so why keep on.

Total paradigm shift. I’m grateful.

Sending out many hugs to all that are struggling

Life perhaps, and my declining mental state

Hi! Great to have you around!!!

A Warm Hello to All!

I have been both very tired and very busy.
Not always sure of which end is up! I just keep on putting one foot in front of the other.
I am hoping to not stumble quite as badly as our good friend, Scooter! Funny story, Scooter! Thank you!

I hope everyone finds some hope, some Peace and some sleep as well!

Fantastic !!!!!!! I’m so glad it’s helped so much

Well as for health declining I so get that.

11 years ago I was working 12 hour shifts 6 out of 7!days a week , at least 1.5 hours a day at the gym. Now ? Fibromyalgia, CFS, osteoporosis, (PsA ) psoriastic arthritis. Physically I have huge limitations.

So my Doctors and I have come up with a game tonight plan to try and help my multi problems. Some days are better than others for reasons or no reason at all.

Losing my health has honestly been harder to accept than having my Bipolar.

But my life physically is what it is , my body can only handle so much. When my pain becomes unbearable it tips my mental stability down hill. So I have to actively focus on my mind set.

I have to pace myself. Can I go grocery shopping tomorrow ? Maybe yes , maybe no. So it’s a day to day process. I see my Doctors and we come up with a game plan to try and give me the best chance of less pain possible.

Last week it was upper 90’s yesterday ? Down to 38 ! HUGE FLARE or Fibro pain.

I know personally I have mourned the lose of my physical health. It has been awful at times , but it’s a ongoing process. So it’s okay to be sad and outright pissed if physically things are just not what you want them to be... look into finding help for whatever is causing your physical health to deteriorate.