Bipolar check in #39

Welcome back! The fear is understandable. Try your best not to get stuck in it though. Recognize it and validate it and then refocus on the fact you're doing better. Lean hard on your coping skills for distraction if needed.

I'm happy to see you posting again. I hope you're able to experience lasting stability.

I hope so too. I don't want to have to drop my classes next semester. But I have time to decide on that.

I am so thankful to have you around, my friend!

I did fall short on that one! I have to admit, I had an anxiety issue once I knew what was happening for our daonnachd! I was trying to see through the heavy fog that had set in and was trying to stay grounded.

I am so grateful you are here, fern!

I am really happy for you!
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Huge hugs to you and your family. I have felt this kind of panic when my mother was manic and ran. I remember feeling helpless. I think your plan to spend time centering yourself and focusing on a positive outcome is extremely wise. My heart is with you.

It's wonderful to have you here again!

I agree with fern about acknowledging your feelings and keep moving forward.

For me, it's been very important to consider what I'd like in my life, even on a very short-term basis. I then consider the specifics and move toward that goal.

If I am not moving forward, I am likely stuck in thinking about the past, even last week, not to mention thinking about years ago. Our future is ahead of us and it is helpful to me to make a plan. This plan keeps me moving forward and keeps me from getting stuck in the past.

So while your anxiety about again needing the hospital is very real and deserves acknowledgment, make your hours, your days, your weeks about leaving that behind you.

I had great luck in letting go of obsessing about topics once I had learned to limit the amount of time I would allow myself to worry. I had started by assigning a time period in which I would allow myself to "worry."

I had chosen a time frame like: 10am-11am. If I had started to "worry" or think about topics that created anxiety, I would remind myself that I had a time assigned to think on those topics. In time, I taught myself to not focus on the things that would make me anxious. Anxiety-loaded topics no longer ruled my/my life, I ruled over them!

I hope you can find a way forward in your life.
You deserve a good life!

so sorry to hear this about your sister.
((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

Again, my thanks to everyone offering support. Even the silent support based solely in our sense of community. With your help I am feeling more centered and more capable of supporting my sister when she gets in touch with me. Thank you for letting me share my heart and tears.

(((((( Daonnachd ))))))

(((((( Daonnachd's Sister )))))

My heart totally goes out to you Daonnachd. I've been in that position more than once with a loved one and it was horrible. There's been excellent advice, and I can't think of anything to add to it. But I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and I'm sending the very best vibes your way.
We are here for you! (I know I haven't posted much lately, but am keeping up on reading this thread. Your post really caught my heart.)

I'm feeling a bit of relief. As I think I posted earlier, I had phoned my sis only to leave a vm as she didn't pick up. Well, she has sent me a text at least saying, "I can't talk right now." For me, right now, that's enough. I'm happy to have heard from her, in particular with the intimation that she will call later. She has always called me her sunshine so I hope that despite the fact that she is not communicating with her husband or our other siblings, she will talk with me and I can offer her a bit of what she needs.

In my moment of relief I hope that all you, with all that's going on in your lives, can find an equal sense of relief.

Well on Sundays I go to two services: a regular morning service and a Young Adults Bible Study/Dinner. I feel like my mood is pretty good after both. I even sleep better the next couple nights. Thank you for all the kind words!

Well my good day turned into a bad one.....I had a couple of anxiety attacks at my church. Thankfully they were small ones that I was easily able to manage however I did not feel comfortable there so I went home. I then had to explain to my parents what happened and my mom immediately began to interrogate me which made me more uncomfortable but I know that she is doing it with good intentions.

Turns out my ‘funk’ was in response to missing my meds. I had a couple of very bad days last week - suicidal with very low mood - and I took PRN Seroquel on both days and bunkered down.

Back now on an even-ish keel and feeling well. So relieved that my low mood nose dive wasn’t the beginning of a prolonged episode. I’m not due to see my pdoc for another 3 weeks.

Has anyone commenced an exercise regime only to find it played with your mood initially?

@Daonnachd: Sorry to hear about your sister but glad you got a word from her and are feeling some relief. I hope things resolve soon.

As usual, whenever i come here, i find what i need. I got all overwrought this evening because a young lady mocked a man i care for and respect saying her senior friend (who i think is a poisonous viper) calls the man an insulting name. I just did what i could, spoke my mind and said i thought the man was very skilled and talented. I've been stewing about it and just now i came across the advice to envision a positive outcome when worrying and to make it as detailed as possible.

So now i imagine that my words about the man's true characteristics will stick in the young lady's mind and she will have an open mind when she observes him from now on and will use her own judgement to see that he is not the incompetent this evil senior woman says he is, but is instead a master craftsman that we are lucky to have on staff.

Thanks Psych Central friends! I feel lighter!

Have thinks improved ?

Thanks Yes I very much did need something different and fun

As for water pressure.. growing up in Florida we had a well. And we didn’t have a lot of water pressure. Other than my father we all washed out hair in the kitchen sink.. wet hair shampoo , turn water back on and rinse quickly.

We did not waste water, it was get in the shower , wash and be out in less than 5 mins. I mean if your not washing your hair how can Washing your body and rinse off take more than 5 mins anyway?? I shave as soon as I get out of the shower,

I only wash my hair twice a week anyway as for most people it is unhealthy for your hair, unless your just a very oily person.

We also have a well here in Tennessee. We have more pressure but I’m still stuck in my water saving childhood.

Actually when we travel I absolutely hate having to wash my hair in the shower!!!

Oh no no you certainly didn’t say anything wrong at all woman !!! lol !!!

We have the window of Florida trips August/September , Payton’s birthday and then Xmas trip and presents for her also and then January hits and it’s all deductibles and property taxes I truly wish Payton had been born in June oR July. Lol

Yes it’s very hard to save money when we both are on SSDI. We both hate it. But reality is neither of us could get a job and be able to keep one more than maybe a couple months.

I don’t think people really understand how almost impossible it is to live off SSDI.

Years ago a person on PC verbally attacked me for starting a thread about the SSDI and no for ideas to make things stretch and how difficult it is to survive on it. She ran off at the mouth about how I was so lucky to get “free money” and eating high off the hog on “food stamps” I was shocked. I responded that SSDI is not free money , it’s what I had paid into since I was 16 years old. I damn sure do not get food stamps and I’d love to shove my problems up her butt and see how much fun she had paying basic bills , I’ll admit I used some rather colorful language and did get scolded by a Mod but it was worth it. So many people jumped all over her she left the site. LOL

You didn’t say anything wrong friend ! Love ya

I put my flip flops away too I wore a pair of boots last night, it takes me a few weeks of getting use to wearing them again every year.

Let me know what you find out about staying busy and not isolating

Ahhhhhhh I’m so happy 2 nights of sleep it’s certainly a record for you in the last couple of months it seems

Great news on your car

But oh my gosh your sister I’m so sorry this has happened

Prayers your way

So glad things have improved and your back to feeling good

Do you have any idea as to why you had started to experience anxiety attacks? Sometimes, we notice the trigger, although not always! it's most helpful to notice whenever we can do so. Finding our triggers can help us to realize some of the experiences we may need to process further, might give us helpful material for therapy, etc.

Oh, no! I've just reread your post and I hope you do not feel interrogated by me!??? Lol!!!

I hope all anxiety has gone away and you will rest peacefully tonight!

Meh at my pain today ! Meh at my lazy lungs.

I absolutely hate taking Fosamax , it’s for my weak bones, I have to drink an enormous amount of water on a empty stomach with it once a week , I can’t eat or drink anything besides water for that hour.. I love water and drink over a galllon a day. But usually I have one soda a day or now that it’s getting cooler I’ll have coffee and then flip to water. It just makes me feel half sick to my stomach all day. But it’s better than snapping bones in half. I have to remind myself of that.

I did make a 4 ingredient dinner that was really tasty!!

Oh this bloody time change. Just spilt the hour and leave it alone already. It’s just plain stupid.

Going out tomorrow for my monthly grocery shopping so I have been updating my list. I am just not at all looking forward it, but Hey I might wake up and feel ready to go !!! I can hope at least lol