Bipolar check-in #44

I know! Anyway, I forced my then new husband to eat more of them, against his desire. It was either that, or divorce.

I had a feeling someone would write that. You know, it's might easy to make such an exchange.

Hey everyone. I have been struggling mentally with everything going on, as has the rest of the world, I know it's not unique to me. I am feeling a bit trapped in my studio apartment. I am now teleworking from home (which makes me very lucky to still be able to work). Also, hormones have been naturally making it worse, but I should be feeling better in that regard soon. Mostly, I am concerned about my loved ones and everyone in the world who is affected. Also, I sort of broke my kitchen faucet yesterday and had a mini meltdown over that. Not the end of the world, but it's how I wash dishes and was going to be how I hooked up my portable washing machine I got so I could avoid the laundromat. I need to see if I can find a way to fix it myself I guess. My leasing office is closed indefinitely and you can still put in for emergency maintenance, but I feel bad making someone come to my apartment right now and it's not exactly an emergency. At least I have a bathroom sink still.

In good news my therapist is offering me weekly sessions now (we usually do biweekly) over teletherapy. I feel quite fortunate in that regard because I could use the support. I am also glad that she will be able to continue working. I think a lot of medical and mental health professionals are going this route. Sending everyone compassion.

The big news for me is that there is a case of the virus here in my county. Mum is angry that we are all conspiring to keep her in. She has lung problems, heart problems and is 92. Because we don't want me catching it and giving it to her I'm stuck in too. Wishing I'd done a bit of panic buying cause now I think it's going to be a long time.

This coming Wednesday I've got an appointment scheduled for 8 a.m. at the hospital with my liver doctor. Its just a check-up. I am thinking about not going because well its a big hospital and I don't see how I could be six feet away from people in their smallish waiting room. Plus the exam rooms are small- are the doctor and I supposed to stand on either side of the room and shout? Serious question! What would you do? My liver needs tended to but I don't know if its worth it to go on Wednesday. Maybe reschedule ... but for when? That's the question too!

My sister got a call from the health department saying that she was exposed to the virus because someone in a class she teaches at the VA tested positive for it.

I’m doing alright, just extremely tired lately.

Well, my house smells wonderful! Attached are my favorite oatmeal raisin roasted walnut cookies that are currently cooling on some racks. Call me strange for liking them even more than chocolate chip, but we're all unique. I wish I could share one with each of you because I know that I'll eat too many. If you're all sick of my cookie pictures, you'll need to blame Christina because she once encouraged them...maybe without realizing...and perhaps now with some regret. Luv ya Christina!

They're supposed to be a little dark, because they have extra molasses in them.

I'm cutting down on benzos grrrrrrr


Hugs and respect to all

Oh no Im sorry. Is your daughters plan still on the books to get things to you and your Mom ???

Sort of yes. My nephews wife is no longer commuting to our town for work but is working from home and my nephew usually a bus driver found a job as grocery delivery man. So they have less time but my daughter and sil are both home full time. If they get our groceries well give them extra money for gas cause my sil is self employed and people are cancelling his service left and right.

I don't know yet how today will pan out, but I woke up from a dream this morning that my bicycle had been stolen. This had me severely shaken.

I don’t want people in my house right now. Not to be unfriendly but...

I am feeling ill. I am trying to decide whether I will go into work today. My symptoms come and go. I think I am fighting off the regular flu. I need the money. I do not want to be replaced. But I also need to think of others. I come into contact with hundreds of people each day.

My brother’s heart monitor runs through the phone line. The line is dead. We worked for two hours via cellphone to fix it the other night. Someone will have to come out today. I’m so not comfortable with this but don’t see an alternative.

I don’t want people in my house right now. Not to be unfriendly but...

I don't blame you.

Is it possible to stay far away from this service rep?
Maybe even in another room?
Maybe you could have him/her call your cell phone with any questions, etc?
She/he could either shout the questions/info, or could call you on your cell.

Be very careful when it comes to again using your landline. Sanitize the equipment well. You already know this. Lol!

Just a thought.

Thinking of you and of yours! Much Love