Bipolar check-in #44

Wow you have a busy week in front of you Im sorry your having tooth pain, Ugh dental stuff stresses me out.. it is hard to figure what one is causing the trouble.. Hope it can be determined quickly and the fix not be a big complicated ordeal

Me too, I'm hoping that it's not absessed and that's why I can't pinpoint which one it is... My face isn't swollen that I can tell and I'm not running a fever so far.

I have t this week other than that I'm going to try not to go out.

MM, did you get your hair done? Do you like it?

Do you have anything you want to talk about? Maybe write it down so you dont forget

No I did not I still want to but things keep coming up.
Not that I can think of yet. I haven't had soda since my extraction and am on soft food So I'm getting dizzy, sleeping a lot and all that fun stuff. that happens when I stop soda. I'm going to start protein shakes if it keeps up. I started drinking milk today. I know that sounds stupid but anything that gives me calories right now is good for me.

Good luck with the painting, Christina! Our whole house's interior needs painting if you really get into it

I'm not quite right. I've been neglecting taking the extra Seroquel my pdoc told me to take. I now know I should really finally take it. I think I will put it in my weekly morning pill box. That'll hopefully do it. If I aim for taking it at 1 pm like he said, it will be either forgotten or deliberately neglected.

Ever since someone caught me off guard with a certain statement, I have been daydreaming excessively. I have a small history of maladaptive daydreaming. I don't want that to fully kick in again. It can be addictive. I was triggered. The person didn't mean to.

It's after midnight and I have no desire to sleep. I took the extra Seroquel right now. I had taken 600 mg Seroquel XR (plus my other bipolar medications) at 6 pm, but they're not even touching me. I'll take the extra Seroquel again at 7 am.

If you can’t think of something to talk about, ask her to help you learn some new coping skills .. sure we can read about them and get an idea.. but it can help to actually do some in Therapy face to face , so if your not doing whatever correctly she can redirect you , I’ve learned many that way with my T

I use to love painting , but now it’s such a chore making sure neither of us cause more breathing problem. But daughters room and I want to paint one wall in our dining room a brick read it will pull the living room and kitchen all together!

Yes take that extra since your realizing it’s needed.. can you set alarms on your phone as a reminder?? Also keep a few in your purse so if your out and alarm goes off you can take it then instead of thinking you will remember when you get home.

It’s good your catching something before it becomes a big issue. Your self awareness is very good.

Hopefully your extra seroquel kicks in soon

I took the extra Seroquel this morning. I had taken extra last night, so it is sort of double the prn. I'll get on track for once per day extra tomorrow.

Hubby is always ordering stuff for himself. I decided that I needed something new for spring, too, so ordered myself a few pretty new blouses and a spring dress. They were all on sale, so the end price tag wasn't THAT bad. I too often order print blouses, but really needed a couple solid colors to go with print skirts. Some of my clothes are either in need of being trashed or used for painting projects, which I can't imagine myself doing by myself. I need to do some laundry. I really do.

Just got a letter from social security. My disability benefits are going to continue! and I won't get reviewed again for 5-7 years. Very happy

Be gone


Hugs and respect to all

Well T had an emergency so I won't see her for 3 weeks at least. They didn't even check who answered the phone. Grr.... I hope she's okay. Last time that happened with my pdoc he never came back. I wish they just said she'll be out of the office. Oh well, things will work out. There are a lot of changes that are coming fast. I'm hoping it all goes well.

BirdDancer ! good for you.. I have had horrible outcomes ordering clothes online Unless its yoga pants LOL

Falcon , Great news and such a relief

Fuzzy

MM sorry T cancelled

Do you need to see a therapist right now, or are you okay with waiting? If you do need to see a therapist soon, try asking your therapy office's front desk to see if you can see another therapist in the interim because 3 weeks is quite a long time.

It seems to matter to me a lot whether the sun is shining. The temperature doesn't matter so much. Today is rainy and tomorrow and then we start seeing some long hours of sunshine. Eleven hours next Sunday!

74 cases of COVID-19 in Canada, one death. It's worrisome. None in my city yet but it's just a matter of time as my city is very cosmopolitan. The director of my Scrabble club has advised us to wash our sets. Scrabble is a high-touch game as far as surfaces go. Not sure if i will keep up with it. The decline of cases in China is encouraging tho.

To all a thousand blisses!

Today was a physically and emotionally draining day. My class was completely out of control (well three out of seven of them were). One of the boys was getting agitated and trying to push me out of the way of the door, and he shoved another student. He also eloped during a fire drill. He’s suspended tomorrow, thAnk goodness. I don’t know what will become of the other two. I’m just thankful that my student has been having a streak of really good days. Even when he started to get overwhelmed with all the noise the other students were making, he kept it together. I’m very proud of him.

Physically I feel ok. Still having racing heart symptoms off and on. I lost my bp monitor already (I mean, wtf, I swear I put it in my purse but now it’s not there). So I don’t know if my bp is high or not. But I have an appt with my primary on Thursday. That ought to ease my fears. And the fact that the hospital didn’t find anything wrong except the high bp. I think a lot of my high heart rate right now is due to anxiety. I’m trying to do deep breathing and I am taking klonopin but it’s not really helping. Like it helps for an hour or two and then my heart rate is back up. We shall see.

Hope you feel better soon

Ok day although the weather is a bit dreary. Settling into home life post IP. My depression was thankfully short lived. Wish I could say the same about my anxiety. It is only marginally better. I’m going to have to make sure that I practice mindfulness, meditation and relaxation exercises and other skills daily to stay on top of the anxiety. I’m staying on top of the agoraphobia by making sure I go out somewhere every day - today I walked to the coffee shop.

My Seroquel weaning off is on hold possibly indefinitely since my last hospitalisation was triggered by my latest drop in Seroquel. It’s a bugger because I don’t think that I’ll lose any more weight without losing the Seroquel.

Warm Hugs to those who need them.

Many hugs!

Things are going alright. Been lacking in energy recently. Also forgot to take my anti-inflammatories, and was feeling about a million years old as a result, lol.

The ex-bf is moving to a close-by place. I have mixed feelings about this. I've made it clear we won't be hanging out all the time, though it will he nice to have someone around to do things with sometimes. I'm proceeding very carefully and non-committally. I let him know he's got quite the task ahead of him, especially regarding trust issues. He's got to get a job, save money, become self-sufficient, stay substance-free. These are but the very start of non-negotiables. I'll believe it when I see it. I am skeptical, though morally supportive (NOT financially. Made that VERY clear!!). I am in favor of people getting their **** together after all. And I tend to be one to remain on good terms with people that have been in my life.

But my doormat days are OVER. WAY over. I am a much stronger person now and all about boundaries. Now that I have actually lived on my own, I'm no longer afraid of it. In fact I like it very much!

Well, that's enough babbling from me on THAT topic (!) Lol.

Have my first psych appointment since autumn this week. Really just getting set up with the new place. Been totally stable for a LONG time now! Yea! So it's all about maintenance.

I'm so anxious. I can't remember if I've mentioned this but I get Emsam through patient assistance. It is $950/month otherwirse and needless to say I don't have that. They didn't notify me about a renewal and my doctor's office convinced me to wait for a while and ultimately I ran out of refills and needed to re-apply and didn't know it. I had some meds backlogged so I didn't know for a while. Well, now there's a big mess about whether I've disqualified for the program and I'm completely stressed out about it because Emsam is the only AD that has ever helped me. Plus if I have to go off it I'll have to go IP to transition to something else. And I don't want to do IP.

Anyway, I've spent a lot of time in the last week trying to get paperwork in and getting frustrated because the company loses 50% of what I send, even when it goes as one fax. I need them to get it all so I can appeal. I only have 3.5 weeks of meds left. I need my pdoc to fight for me, which she will but probably not unless it is in person. I see her in a week which is cutting it close but if she fought she'd probably win based on the past so I can wait. However now the COVID19 thing means going to see her may not be a good idea at all and I'll have to work out something with her to have any appointment. I think she does telehealth but that doesn't solve my need to fight with the Emsam people. I have no idea how we'll work it out for her to fight with patient assistance people.

My therapist is out of town for a few days getting trained in EMDR. Naturally he's in a place that has had cases of COVID. He is doing Friday appointments he doesn't usually do but I didn't schedule one because I was supposed to be doing something else that day. But now I"m not sure I'll be seeing him for a while; I may have to do phone sessions for a while.

My mom is making the COVID thing hard; I think there are reasonable ways to stay safe in public right now and she disagrees. And since I practically live with her and she's over the age of concern and I've got asthma that is a concern with the virus it's really hard to dispute her points.

I'm so anxious tonight that I think I'm going to have to take a PRN which I hate since I'm trying to adjust to the time change.

So stressed.....

Hello all! I have this antique pistol I have always been suspicious of. Someone told me it has been refinished, which would cut its value in half. I stripped this finish away. It turned out to be still a good looking pistol. Lucky me.it worked out. I breathed a sigh of relief. I worked today for five hours. This is the most I would want to work. Six hours or more is very difficult for me. I have been having trouble focusing on my job, and elsewhere in my life. My doctor thinks I have ADD, so I am taking Stratera for this, I have two loose teeth. One is usable, but the other not so much. I cannot afford an implant. My dog likes chasing the cat around this wall, that which separates the kitchen from the living room. Fun stuff. It is nice that I have tomorrow off.

I'm sorry you have so much going on.

When I am feeling overwhelmed, I just move forward by attending to one thing at a time. Slow and steady wins the race.

When any organization I deal with continuously loses important paperwork, I send my paperwork via Certified Mail, return receipt. they tend to pay more attention to the paperwork sent in this way.

If you cannot make it to the post office, you might have your mom pick up the materials needed and you can fill in the info, or your envelope (with forms in it) may be presented at the post office. They will help to make sure all is completed correctly. Return receipt ensures you will have the date your paperwork was received and who signed for it.

I know this does not address all of your concerns. I hope this helps in some way.

Love and Prayers

Good Morning!

I hope this finds everyone doing as well as possible.
I haven't been around as much. I am still recovering from injuries from my fall (down the stairs) recently. I've needed more rest. I've had a lot going on as well. It's interesting to catch up by reading here. Much Love
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It's always great to hear from you!

Oh, I can relate to needing NSAIDS, especially lately. Lol!

It sounds like you've been successful at negotiating a positive relationship with your ex. Who would have thought this could be possible? Congrats on your thoughtful negotiations. I hope continued contact will prove helpful to you! Nice job!

I love hearing you are doing well!
Take care!