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#651
Jul 28, 2021, 10:49 AM
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I’m glad I went. This was a much bigger class about 20 women and one man. Around my age or older. This class does have some in shape people, about half maybe. But definite increase in mood after all that moving. Still glad I went. Still not quite awake. No matter what time I get up I’m not awake till noontime or so.
Sleep is hard I’m not in a deep sleep, I know I’m in bed and constantly waking up. Sort of a daze. So I was awake an hour before my alarm went off. So about 5 hours of that restless sleep.
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#652
Jul 28, 2021, 02:59 PM
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Still no call or email. Today wasn’t great. With the med screwup from yesterday I ended up taking 100mil of Geodon around 11:30. Then I got tired and hungry. I just woke up from a nap. I feel like this is actually my pms now. It feels like it’s more there then it was a few days before even though it should be over now.
I just feel very weird today and I’m not exactly sure why. I’m going to ask my mom to hide my meds now. I’ve already felt like I was going to pass out a few times because my heart was racing so fast, and I think it’s med related.
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#653
Jul 28, 2021, 03:26 PM
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Don’t know if aqua fitness is having an effect or if this is just pandemic fidgeting but I think I signed up for an oil painting class for this Saturday. The payment part was weird so I’m not sure. The burb said perfect for the non painters, it’s a joy of painting class. So we’ll see. For once they are painting something I’d hang on the wall if it turns out. Birch trees. I love birch trees. They are great memories of my childhood summers up north in the woods and lake.
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#654
Jul 28, 2021, 04:32 PM
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The house in which I grew up had 3 magnificent birch trees in front of it. They are the most lovely kind of tree.
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#655
Jul 28, 2021, 04:39 PM
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#656
Jul 28, 2021, 04:43 PM
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#657
Jul 28, 2021, 06:13 PM
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I’ve cried a lot today, just taking the advice y’all have given me to feel and move through my pain. It’s wrenching and lonely, and I want it to end. I guess that’s just me grieving. Thank you to everyone who has offered hugs and words of wisdom and encouragement. It helps so much to be heard and understood. ❤️
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#658
Jul 28, 2021, 06:20 PM
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#659
Jul 28, 2021, 07:15 PM
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Today brought the smoke and stink from the fires further north. I expect that ash will start to fall soon. The fires are hideous, devastating, and here we go again. It's just too dry and too hot.
Starting Friday everyone has to wear a mask when inside of any business. I feel like screaming, I'm so done with covid. Despite the above complaints I'm feeling stable and okay. I've learned how to give my cat (she has diabetes) her insulin shot. She's so cooperative, it's not hard to work with her. Somehow my thumb keeps getting in the way...I've stabbed myself with the needle 3 times. That little needle is sharp! This afternoon I cooked what my husband and I call "Wonderful Rice Stuff." Brown rice, carrots, peanuts, chedder cheese, and tamari. It's simple to make, tastes really good, and is filling. Grape popsicles for all! 
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#660
Jul 28, 2021, 08:02 PM
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I honestly think these last 2 days were pretty much med related. I took an extra 20 Geodon tonight so I can get back on track tomorrow. I had 3 left when I called the pharmacy but they had to contact the doctor and it took a few days. A 3 month supply was only $45 with my new insurance. Before it would have been at least $60. I can’t remember ever running out like this to the point things get so screwed up. But anyways I took the 80’s apart today but still pretty much around the same time. I had tried the 20 first but I had already gone so long without any geodon at all. I fell asleep for over an hour this afternoon between 1 and 2. My mom got Popeyes for lunch. My mom gave me my 3 Valium throughout the day. I didn’t take any extra of those. So my body is getting adjusted to just the 3 a day of instead of 4 or 5 a day. I did take a few melatonin tonight, about 4 zzqul gummies and 2 regular 10 mil melatonin. I’m not sure how much that actually is. I also took a zofran for nausea. The zofran is helping. The melatonin is not. But the 20 Geodon is making me feel more stable then I was earlier today. I drank some peppermint hot chocolate which helped my stomach. I’m also drinking a ginger sprite. I ate some steamed zucchini and green beans for dinner. I’m hoping tommrow goes better since I got my meds fixed tonight.
I took another very hot Vicks Vapor bath salt bath this afternoon and I got a shipping notice from Amazon about some stuff I ordered last night. That will be here on Friday. So at least something is coming.
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#661
Jul 28, 2021, 08:22 PM
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I had a pretty good day. I made 3-ingredient peanut butter cookies. I have an appointment with my therapist on Monday (in-person! yay, it's been so long since we've met in-person) , Tuesday I get my monthly Abilify injection, which will be a week later than I'm supposed to get it but oh well, can't really do anything about that now. They only do injections on Mondays and Tuesdays.
This Friday my apartment complex is having a cleanup day outside. And they're going to be grilling out and giving us lunch. So that will be fun. I can't wait till this weekend, I'm getting takeout from a place I usually just get bubble tea from. I've never tried their food but my sister said it's really good. So I'll get some food and a bubble tea from them. 
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#662
Jul 28, 2021, 08:26 PM
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#663
Jul 28, 2021, 08:28 PM
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#664
Jul 28, 2021, 09:57 PM
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That looks really delicious, I am trying to learn to cook and bake more. I hope to be that good someday Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#665
Jul 28, 2021, 11:37 PM
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I got to my parents house.
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#666
Jul 29, 2021, 04:55 AM
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Yesterday, when we went for a tour of an historic building, I almost passed out from the heat. Hubby and I weren't the only ones sweating through our clothes. Of course the place wasn't air conditioned. Early in the tour, I told Hubby I wanted to leave it and wait outside, but he sort of forced me to continue. That kind of pissed me off. When you're that miserable, it's even difficult to listen to a tour guide. I've never liked such heat, but I am 99.99% sure that one (or even two) of my medications make me more heat sensitive.
My husband and his eldest sister (she lives in Germany) hadn't talked to each other (because of a fight) for about three or four years, but since we moved to CZ, they've twice talked. Now my other s-i-l (who lives in CZ) told Hubby that the older sister said she would visit us in Moravia when she visits the other s-i-l in Prague. That sister didn't even ask us. Luckily, we'll just happen to be at the other s-i-l's house at that time. So they won't be visiting OURS. There will be a family lunch, but that's a lesser torture. The eldest sister and her husband only criticize, criticize, criticize. Even on the rare occasions they say "something nice", it's backhanded. They are toxic, and both Hubby and I don't need that. My sister? We get along very well, especially these past few years. Unfortunately, our brother's behavior is less than ideal. To be generous, I think he's quite psychologically unwell. Most everyone agrees. He has been taking advantage of our father for a long while. It's hard to know how to handle this. Though I'm happy I'm not there to face it too closely, at the same time I feel for my sister, who is. She's had way too much stress in her life, as a result of mental illness! |
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#667
Jul 29, 2021, 05:51 AM
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#668
Jul 29, 2021, 06:23 AM
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I woke up at 5:00. I usually sleep until 7:00 so I’m not exactly perky this morning. I cried a lot yesterday, but I didn’t cry at bedtime which helped me get to sleep easier. I’m going to try to read today instead of zoning out watching Netflix. My sculpting tools appear to be hanging out in Baton Rouge, LA. I live in Mississippi. No idea when they’ll get here. Since I already have polymer clay, I tried sculpting a head yesterday with only fingers, an orange stick, and a needle. The result was pretty strange looking. Lol. Squishing the stiff clay with my hands to condition it was soothing. Heaven knows I can use plenty of that! I started taking buspirone last night. I’m supposed to take it twice a day. I hope it doesn’t take too long to start working. The physical symptoms of my anxiety have gotten as bad as my emotional ones. I hope everyone has a good day.
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#669
Jul 29, 2021, 06:31 AM
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Geodon screws with your heart! I keep saying this. If you keep messing around with it you will die! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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#670
Jul 29, 2021, 08:00 AM
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Jul 29, 2021, 08:26 AM
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Finally Hubby called our new GP,. According to the doc, my blood test results are all good. Gotta say it's surprising, after years of elevated numbers, though it has been about a year since my last round, and starting cholesterol and blood pressure medications. I know my blood pressure is also normalized. I take it, occasionally, and it's been normal. Though my weight hasn't exactly gone down these years, I do think I eat better, in general. Less saturated fat, more vegetables and fruit, and a bit fewer carbs. I do need to up my exercise.
My weight looks like an issue on the scale, but I have mostly felt myself trim enough. Lighter looking than the number. My new psychiatrist even told me, a couple appointments back, that I am "not overweight". Dang he is wrong, but whatever. I'm 20 lbs more than the highest weight in my normal BMI range, and I always count myself 1/2 inch taller than I actually am, since I'm rather big-boned, and physically stronger than most women. I'm also lucky enough to carry my weight well. |
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#672
Jul 29, 2021, 08:27 AM
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Don't stop being you. Maybe be careful who you associate with though....
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#673
Jul 29, 2021, 08:33 AM
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Here’s the recipe I use, it’s super easy and delicious: 3-Ingredient Peanut Butter Cookies Recipe | Allrecipes Thank you! And yes I’m happy to be seeing my therapist in-person again. It will be so nice. We have been doing video chat and phone calls throughout the pandemic which are good but it will still be nice to see her in person. I definitely understand not having a car, I don’t have one either. Luckily I can get transportation for my appointments though through Medicaid I hope you’re doing good today!  Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#674
Jul 29, 2021, 08:37 AM
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#675
Jul 29, 2021, 09:17 AM
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Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
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