Bipolar check-in #59

Nammu · Oct 05, 2021, 10:58 AM

Oh last night was a bad night. Had one of my upset stomach nights, laying down was out of the question. Finally after getting rid of the days food I could lie down. Just to be sure I would sleep after losing all my night meds I took two sleeping pills and I did sleep. So we’ll that all I remember is that the dream was something about sculpting. Ugh I’ve been doing so well in the stomach area I’d forgotten what it’s like. 🤒

~Christina · Oct 05, 2021, 11:13 AM

No sleep last night, My brain simply refused to slow down. I am worried that I am already going back to insomnia hell.. I hope not I'm still trying to get back on my feet. I did force myself to stay in bed for almost 5 hours. My Chronic pain is pretty bad.

Its always something hu?

Quick question???? I went out Sunday to do some grocery shopping and AGAIN the grocery store was out of Chicken breasts and a few other things.. Anyone else having trouble finding staple foods in stock?? I'm a bit stressed over it.

Well the medications have done what I expected to my blood sugar. A salad for dinner last night that normal gives me a 110-130 ( which is great) it was 187 .. Damn !! I already have an appointment on the 12th. I know that my GlipiZide is going to have to be increased, I am not happy about it but I cant just stop the psych meds.

Hugs and Love to anyone in need

~Christina · Oct 05, 2021, 11:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh last night was a bad night. Had one of my upset stomach nights, laying down was out of the question. Finally after getting rid of the days food I could lie down. Just to be sure I would sleep after losing all my night meds I took two sleeping pills and I did sleep. So we’ll that all I remember is that the dream was something about sculpting. Ugh I’ve been doing so well in the stomach area I’d forgotten what it’s like. 🤒

Awww Nammu

I hope its a one time thing and you get back to feeling good and sleeping right

Nammu · Oct 05, 2021, 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

No sleep last night, My brain simply refused to slow down. I am worried that I am already going back to insomnia hell.. I hope not I'm still trying to get back on my feet. I did force myself to stay in bed for almost 5 hours. My Chronic pain is pretty bad.

Its always something hu?

Quick question???? I went out Sunday to do some grocery shopping and AGAIN the grocery store was out of Chicken breasts and a few other things.. Anyone else having trouble finding staple foods in stock?? I'm a bit stressed over it.

Well the medications have done what I expected to my blood sugar. A salad for dinner last night that normal gives me a 110-130 ( which is great) it was 187 .. Damn !! I already have an appointment on the 12th. I know that my GlipiZide is going to have to be increased, I am not happy about it but I cant just stop the psych meds.

Hugs and Love to anyone in need

Oh Christina!

Stuck between a rock and a hard place. I’m so sorry you have to increase your diabetes meds. But yeah you need the other meds.

Blue_Bird · Oct 05, 2021, 12:25 PM

I walked to CVS and picked up my new prescription for Xulane birth control patches. My insurance completely covers it thankfully so there was no copay. I'm hoping it helps regulate my period and help with my severe PMS. I was on it several years ago and I think it helped back then.

So the famotidine is actually helping my GERD a lot!! I'm so happy, it's been so bad the past few months I'm so glad I finally got on a med to help it.

Meal prepped some healthy food to have around to eat for the next several days, hard boiled eggs, salad, cut up celery with hummus.

I hope everyone is doing okay,

and @Nammu I hope your stomach feels better

BeyondtheRainbow · Oct 05, 2021, 02:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

it feels like my stomach is just getting bigger and bigger. I

I'm sure this is partly constipation but a swelling belly is normal after hysterectomy. The support site I was on after mine called it "swelly belly". It tends to increase when you move around and then will decrease when you rest. It will come and go for a while. It also can happen if you are in a position that irritates your abdomen for too long and probably other reasons I forget.

Mountaindewed · 04:27 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I'm sure this is partly constipation but a swelling belly is normal after hysterectomy. The support site I was on after mine called it "swelly belly". It tends to increase when you move around and then will decrease when you rest. It will come and go for a while. It also can happen if you are in a position that irritates your abdomen for too long and probably other reasons I forget.

Thank you for your reply. I got my shirt on fine after taking a shower. It’s a boys XL and it still fits but it was a bit tight. But I’m still wearing oversize pajama pants and sweatpants. I can hardly wait until I can wear jeans. I hope I still fit into mine. I hope my stomach does go down because I’ve always had a very flat small stomach and I’ve been complimented before on my “tiny” waist.

I was listening to some podcast and I got super tired. I’ve only taken one pain med and it was at 4AM. I’ve done well with just Tylenol since 11. But I just got exhausted for some reason so I fell asleep for I don’t even know how long. Over an hour I think. I know I was having a dream about sour grapes and hot dogs and chipotles or something weird like that. Oh yeah and the Rugrats were in my dream. That was the main part of my dream. But it was a very involved dream for a daytime nap. Now I want a hot dog

I didn’t have any caffeine today but I’m going to have a cherry Vanilla Coke Zero in a bit and hope it doesn’t cause any issues

I suggest people look into Lush sleep lotion. I used it last night and it works well.

Brentus · Oct 05, 2021, 04:11 PM

Despite headache today and need for a nap, I actually have done some stuff. I mentioned a few weeks ago when hypomanic I tend to buy a bunch of useless stuff that collects right? Academically speaking, I have a lot of courses on Udemy, I have a $500 software bundle in other academia as well -- but I decided to just sit down and play around a bit with web development (the majority of my courses on Udemy are that way.) This is a very thoughtful course and the person is STILL redefining it, remaking videos etc. for today (I bought it like 3 years ago). I remember a lot of the practice, and right now I'm doing the simplistic stuff, but it feels good to be focused and doing something different today.

Hope everyone is having a good day! @Blue_Bird I'm so glad to hear your GERD med is working! Trust me, I know how awful it is to have flare-ups of gastric reflux!!

Moose72 · Oct 05, 2021, 04:31 PM

N3 and I went out for lunch today and then went to the botanical gardens. We went inside the green house and then outside on the trails. Was very nice and good weather for a walk- 67 and cloudy. He was telling me how it was to drive his car today with his grandfather.

I feel like I need a nap. Just got the balcony door open with the fan blowing cool air into the apartment. I wish I could just lay here on the couch and snooze.

*Beth* · Oct 05, 2021, 05:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My doctor never called back. I took a couple colace. I drank a venti hot coffee from Starbucks. Everyone suggests I drink coffee. I just now took some mirolax. I ate a pint of Halo Top strawberry ice cream. It was 270 calories for the whole pint but that much ice cream in general probably isn’t a very good idea. But anyways my stomach hurts right now but it feels more like I just ate too much ice cream instead of surgical pain. My mom went to the store and got some more food. She got me some more canned potato’s and bottles of Body Armor water. She also found one of the new soda shop Pepsi’s. She found the cream soda one and got me 2 bottles. I’ve been in bed all day again watching TV. I still can’t really get out of bed. Mental health wise I don’t feel too bad. But if I could just use the bathroom I think I’d be feeling a lot better in general. I do seem to be more tired today. I am not watching TV sitting up on my pillow with the arms I have been lying straight on my back watching TV most of the day. I think I dozed off for about 10 minutes before noon but I didn’t take an actual nap today.

My sleep lotion from Lush came today. I hope it works. I know that stuff has helped in the past before.

I just stood up for 10 minutes and I walked around the house for a bit. Man did that make a difference in my pain!

But now an hour later I am tired again. But these walks around the house are helpful. Although the mirolax didn’t work and my mom said if you don’t go you could get impacted and they’d have to operate. But I’ve been trying everything I can think of since Friday and nothing has been helping.

But I only took 2 pain pills today and I’m not like I was yesterday where I was unable to concentrate because I was so focused on when I could get the next one. I don’t really feel the need to take another one today actually.

It sounds like you're doing great! Keep on keepin' on!

*Beth* · Oct 05, 2021, 05:57 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

No sleep last night, My brain simply refused to slow down. I am worried that I am already going back to insomnia hell.. I hope not I'm still trying to get back on my feet. I did force myself to stay in bed for almost 5 hours. My Chronic pain is pretty bad.
Its always something hu?
Quick question???? I went out Sunday to do some grocery shopping and AGAIN the grocery store was out of Chicken breasts and a few other things.. Anyone else having trouble finding staple foods in stock?? I'm a bit stressed over it.

Well the medications have done what I expected to my blood sugar. A salad for dinner last night that normal gives me a 110-130 ( which is great) it was 187 .. Damn !! I already have an appointment on the 12th. I know that my GlipiZide is going to have to be increased, I am not happy about it but I cant just stop the psych meds.

Hugs and Love to anyone in need

Hugs and love to you, too. Yes, the shelves of grocery stores around here (even one store that is a gourmet grocery) have big empty spots. There's talk about the lack of chicken available. I hear that the shortages have to do with covid. I'm not sure why, but that's what they're saying

*Beth* · Oct 05, 2021, 06:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

N3 and I went out for lunch today and then went to the botanical gardens. We went inside the green house and then outside on the trails. Was very nice and good weather for a walk- 67 and cloudy. He was telling me how it was to drive his car today with his grandfather.

I feel like I need a nap. Just got the balcony door open with the fan blowing cool air into the apartment. I wish I could just lay here on the couch and snooze.

You do such fun things! I love botanical gardens.

MuddyBoots · Oct 05, 2021, 06:12 PM

I don't feel so great. On my walk and at the store and at the vet's I felt super paranoid. This morning the voices were bad enough to warrant a PRN Thorazine. Thankfully my injection is tomorrow. First time getting the max dose of paliperidone palmitate. I told my T that I ate pretty good over the weekend, no restricting or purging or anything, and she acted like her telling me to eat three meals and yogurt has cured me. I should've told her how anxious I was and how I felt obligated to eat properly because my mom was around me pretty much the whole weekend. I can "be good" under that kind of pressure because I hate worrying people I care about and I overheard her tell her sister "I wish she would eat more," so I haven't been doing a good job apparently. My T just frustrates me though. I've been with her like two years and the most she helps is telling me when she thinks my meds aren't working/I should tell my nurse.

Moose72 · Oct 05, 2021, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

You do such fun things! I love botanical gardens.

Thanks! It was N3s idea to go to the gardens. And I woke up cold with blowing cold air on me so now I'm in PJ bottoms, socks and a sweatshirt. Feeling cozy.

Victoria'smom · Oct 05, 2021, 06:33 PM

So T wasn't very helpful but I will not be sleeping on the couch tonight cross my fingers. I feel so bad but there's truly not an option around here but hospitalization. No php/iop option which is stupid. There may be an option about an hour away.

Moose72 · Oct 05, 2021, 06:39 PM

My case manager called to remind me that we have an appointment tomorrow. She also asked me about doing outpatient stuff. I told her that she's like the 5th person who's asked me and I don't want to. I also told her that I don't need people calling me for check ups either.

Soupe du jour · Oct 06, 2021, 04:41 AM

@~Christina, I do remember there being some meat shortages in New Jersey, before I moved to Europe. But only really many many months ago. I honestly don't know what the current situation is there. My sister hasn't mentioned anything about any. I don't think there have been any major shortages where I am in Europe. Sometimes the variety of berries are limited. Even in the hypermarkets the choices are often few. For a while we were going to the next town over and buying them from a farm stand. There they had wonderful choices, but then again they were in season at the time. There tends to be a lot of native fruit where I am. One could literally just go for a walk in the countryside and find all the plums, as an example, that one would want. Apples, too. That could change soon, though. I also notice more exotic fruit sometimes being available, and yet bananas, of all things, are sometimes sold out at our online grocer. Yet they have other exotic fruit (such as dragon fruit) always available. CZ has a large Vietnamese population, so they stock that stuff here.

Soupe du jour · 05:38 AM

I wrote my senator and congressman today about a matter that would help with voting rights. My husband and I were discussing how in CZ the election day is always held on both a Friday and Saturday. This gives the citizens the chance to vote on at least one day that is not a work day for most all. Whereas, the US always holds major Election Days on Tuesdays, and that day is NOT a national paid holiday, for anyone. I suggested that perhaps they consider either moving Election Day to a Friday and Saturday, or make Election Day a national paid holiday for all Americans. Columbus Day is coming up next week, and while not all Americans get that day off, many do. And in my view, who gives a damn about Columbus Day! He was not even the first person to discover America, and I've read he was an a-hole, anyway. I say ditch that day and make Election Day a paid day off. That, or even President's Day, a day more American corporations give employees paid days off. Or both. I sure wish that other US citizens would suggest the same thing, but of course at least one political party would likely not like the idea.

An article at Why Columbus Day Courts Controversy - HISTORY gives reasons why Christopher Columbus may not merit a "national holiday". As for President's Day, there are also plenty of them that many people would rather not honor.

As a reminder, next Monday is Columbus Day, so all banks and some other businesses will be closed.

Mountaindewed · Oct 06, 2021, 07:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I wrote my senator and congressman today about a matter that would help with voting rights. My husband and I were discussing how in CZ the election day is always held on both a Friday and Saturday. This gives the citizens the chance to vote on at least one day that is not a work day for most all. Whereas, the US always holds major Election Days on Tuesdays, and that day is NOT a national paid holiday, for anyone. I suggested that perhaps they consider either moving Election Day to a Friday and Saturday, or make Election Day a national paid holiday for all Americans. Columbus Day is coming up next week, and while not all Americans get that day off, many do. And in my view, who gives a damn about Columbus Day! He was not even the first person to discover America, and I've read he was an a-hole, anyway. I say ditch that day and make Election Day a paid day off. That, or even President's Day, a day more American corporations give employees paid days off. Or both. I sure wish that other US citizens would suggest the same thing, but of course at least one political party would likely not like the idea.

An article at Why Columbus Day Courts Controversy - HISTORY gives reasons why Christopher Columbus may not merit a "national holiday". As for President's Day, there are also plenty of them that many people would rather not honor.

As a reminder, next Monday is Columbus Day, so all banks and some other businesses will be closed.

Last year some places were giving paid leave or closing the store altogether on Election Day. Kids used to get Veterans Day off. Now they have school on that day but get the day before Thanksgiving off instead. I don’t really think Columbus Day should be a holiday either. I think they may even call it something else now.

*Beth* · Oct 06, 2021, 08:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So T wasn't very helpful but I will not be sleeping on the couch tonight cross my fingers. I feel so bad but there's truly not an option around here but hospitalization. No php/iop option which is stupid. There may be an option about an hour away.

I have the same problem. No php/iop around here.

Mountaindewed · 09:02 AM

I slept fairly well last night. My mom got some pastries and bread from a bakery yesterday morning. I didn’t want the chocolate chip danish she got for me. Then I felt bad that she spent the money on it so I ate it last night. Then I fell asleep around 6:30. I took a Benadryl and I used some sleep lotion. I slept pretty much through the night until 6:30. I woke up needing to use the bathroom but still unable to go. I started drinking a black cherry Pepsi and then almost instantly felt the need to go. So I finally went a lot. Now I can tell the difference between hysterectomy pain and constipation pain. My pain is kind of tough right now. Worse then yesterday. But I think it’s just because I don’t have the constipation pain and I’m not taking the pain meds. I did I take a couple extra strength Tylenol and I’m using the heating pad and drinking pumpkin tea. I know I won’t be able to get out of bed today but I hope things stay ok mood wise. The depression last night was mild but it was there.

I thought I heard baby kittens outside yesterday afternoon. My mom heard them too so I know it wasn’t just me.

I know it’s not funny but my moms friend was telling her one time about how her bladder fell out. And for some reason these last 2 days I’ve been thinking that is the funniest thing. But every time I laugh it hurts so I’m trying not to think about it.

Blue_Bird · Oct 06, 2021, 09:35 AM

I haven’t slept in 30 hours and now I’m paranoid my apartment complex is trying to kick me out. I have no proof of this it’s just a feeling I have for no particular reason, I’m convinced. I feel on the verge of crying

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Brentus · Oct 06, 2021, 10:38 AM

Same crap, different day -- feeling good. Crazy dreams. Least I'm focused on something makes my day go by.

Nammu · Oct 06, 2021, 11:48 AM

Got my bloom county comic. Love that crazy world created by Berkeley Breathed. Opus, cutter John, bill the cat, Milo. The mix of Star Trek and Star Wars is amusing and the social commentary funny. Also got the herb scissors I ordered for mum( she cuts up her bills and anything that has her name and any numbers on it) plus I received the earrings I ordered. Quite bohemian. Now I’m just waiting for my embroidered fall hat.

Yesterday I took mum shopping and I found jeans, a top and sweater. I’ve not had so many new things in years. I keep saying when I lose weight. Well I’ve been at this weight since I started the AP. No downs, but no up either! So now I have two pairs of jeans and three pairs of sweatpants! Whooo I’m a clothes horse! Ha ha!

Moose72 · Oct 06, 2021, 12:22 PM

Going to the dog park with my friend at some point today. Should be good!

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