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#126
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LOVE to ALL
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Where did she go....
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I stayed away from here yesterday when I needed help. I was freaking out and contemplating SH. Luckily my husband came home right before I did anything. Argued with pdoc today he raised my AD. He wants to see me in person next time. That scares me. I'm much better over the phone then in person conversationally. I didn't tell him about yesterday. My husband will come with me next time. I really don't like my pdoc but my meds are the most stable I've been. So I'm stuck with him.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#129
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I just messaged you, Fuzzy ![]()
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#131
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That's right! The telethons were always on Labor Day week-end, then school would start on Tuesday. Watermelon boats are so pretty ![]()
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I'm so sorry about all of the crap that's happening for you. Dental issues are just so cruel, the expense. And of course psych meds cause dental problems. The falling is a serious concern. Maybe you can schedule an MRI earlier than June? Just to be on the safe side. Sending you a big, big HUG ![]()
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I’ve been making watermelon boats and baskets ever since. I used to work for the school for the blind and we had a school wide celebration and everyone was bringing something special. I made a watermelon basket and it disappeared. Later one of my coworkers told me the supervisors had their own fancier spread and she saw my watermelon in there! Snobs.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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So I went to renew my driver's license, armed to the teeth with a bunch of paperwork that is required for a "REAL" license. Starting in May 2023 a REAL license will be required for some stuff, so I want to get it done.
I handed over all my paperwork only to be told that I ALSO needed to show my marriage license because my last name is not the same name that's on my birth certificate! Good Lord. How discriminatory towards women! Because I am married and took my husband's last name nearly 40 years ago I have to go back to the DMV with all that paperwork PLUS my marriage license. I felt like screaming. But there you go - bureaucracy. Ugh. Tomorrow David and I have to go to a tax something or other to file our taxes. I really hope I can get to bed a little earlier tonight. I'm sooo tired. My therapist cancelled our appointment for the second time in a row. I don't know why she doesn't just retire. She's 71 and frequently cancels or takes time off. Alas, here I go to sweep and mop the floor. Blue skies and butterflies~**~*~***
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I didn't realise your T was 71. I had a T who I think looked about that age (maybe a bit younger). She had what I think she called ''firm boundaries'' and did not reveal anything about herself. Except for making comments like ''anger is part of relationships''.. with no explanation. idk. Meaning... her anger.
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I don't want to try anymore. It's obviously not enough. I Just want to sit and cry but tears wont come. I'm starting to think I was a horrible person from the get go. There's no way to make amends for destroying people's lifes. I was a good mom though. that's something it don't seem to matter now. He's grown. I want to be a good person but it's hard. I don't think I've ever thought I was a horrible person, until now.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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If you were really freaking out and almost self harmed I don't consider this stable. I am sorry what does stable look like to you? bizi ![]()
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Bizi- I'm not impulsive, or psychotic ( I don't think). Maybe, I'm just a horrible person. I flipped out yesterday because I was home alone ( always a trigger for me) and kept thinking I needed to sh to calm down, because I could, and it was necessary because of my anxiety. Tonight however I recognize I'm far from stable but honestly this is the closest I've been.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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Fuzzy bear you're not a bad person. I'd never pass judgement on others. :Hug:
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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![]() This is MUCH appreciated, by me. ![]() I try to be those things too....
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:Hug: your not a horrible person. Your kind and caring.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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Thanks Miguel'smom
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I sort of know where some went and can speculate on others. I remember bluebicycle well. I really liked him and worry about him. Ditto for buddha1too and a number of others. Some I don't worry as much about, but miss their contributions and support. Some of their screen names are cloudy in my memory. In any case, their contributions live on in my mind. It's true that people come and go in our lives.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Mar 29, 2022 at 04:07 AM. |
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