Bipolar check-in #65

I hate that your health is being impacted in such a brutal way. I’m glad your blocking that nasty sorry excuse of a Sister. Keep up the strong boundary. I hope your testing goes well and your anxiety can down. You deserve a peaceful life

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LOL I love Sir sorry you had a rainy day. How are summers ? Do you get a lot of rain?

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"Pill nazis" - excellent, Nammu. The perfect term.

The rumor is that my therapist will be in on Thursday, God willing and the creeks don't rise.

My car was below 1/4 tank so I put one gallon in - $5.99. If I were to fill my tank (not happening) it would cost right about $100.
Thank you Putler.

Tomorrow's high temperature will be 96 degrees. That's just plain mean for mid-May. The low will be about 58 though, so early morning will be nice.

I switched the appt. I had today with new med provider guy to next week because I want him to review my blood labs. He should receive them this week.

I fairly begged new med guy to allow me to decrease the Lamictal to 100mg. He agreed. But my mind is so noisy and my thoughts racing, so I'm wondering if increasing the Lamictal would be smarter. Lots of music in my mind, repeating and playing sounds over other sounds.

Well, that's my basic check-in. Think I'm going to try for a short nap. I'm falling asleep, lol.

*~**~**Sticks of jasmine incense for everybody...light them, wait a minute, and float away on the enchanting scent*~**~**

Well started Prednisone today I sure hope it helps with PsA even if just a little bit.

I made a boxed cake today and baked it with sliced strawberries on top. *** nothing like the decadent things Soupe can do **** but We can have a very small piece with a spoon of coolwhip. Lovely treat.

I’ve been glued to the trial again today. I want Amber Heard found guilty of perjury with her non stop lies. I mean there’s audio tape of her admitting she has assaulted Johnny. Her Lawyer is flustered all the time which is sad but yet lots of added entertainment.

Hugs and cake for everyone ~

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Christina, I am hoping so hard for the prednisone to work for you.

I will make a point to look at some of the trial videos I saw Johnny on the stand a little bit and just a minute of Amber Heard. In that minute my impression of her is that she has deep-seated emotional health problems. A very "disturbed" woman. ---Ha, I have the news on and commentary on the trial just came on right now. Yeah, she's messed up. Makes me sad to now have this in my mind, when Johnny Depp has always been so fairy tale-like in my mind. He's exactly my age and I have watched all of his movies over and over. I showed them to my kids when they were young. What's Eating Gilbert Grape was beautiful...one of my favorite movies ever is Benny & Joon.

That cake sounds sooo good!

Whew, fell sound asleep. That was good. I awoke to a message that Mary (T) won't be back until Thursday of next week. And the way it's been in the past...if she ends up being out until June I won't be surprised at all. I can see someone else at the same clinic while Mary is away, but I just don't feel it. I don't know. Maybe it would be okay, just to de-stress. But really, I just miss Mary. She gives the best hugs ever. I feel very sad.

Tonight I'll watch a couple of episodes of Call the Midwife.

Love you all.

Beth, I lol’d at “just plain mean for may” I agree, it will be 95 here on Saturday, and we have the nami walk Saturday!!! As far as I can tell the park path is all pavement too, we will be sweating our a$$es off!!!

I’ll send you some of our cold air Saturday. Supposed to down to the 50’s again.

I took my son to the ENT today. He is scheduled for surgery in July for tonsil, adenoids, and turbinate (???) removal, as well as possible ear tube insertion. I will be a wreck. I have such anxiety surrounding him. Couple that with my fear of anesthesia and I will be losing it. But I have to hide it for his sake as he has high anxiety as well. Thankfully RS is going to take a couple days off to help out and be there emotionally for me.

I made an appt for my mom for the DMV to go get her registration renewed, but I refused to take her. My grandma wanted me too but I said no, I had program, which could be true but doesn’t have to be. She doesn’t need to know that. It’s halfway saying no so at least I got that far.

I also asked my mom if she was still ok selling the house and she said she is. She wants to find a therapist but said she didn’t know where to look, so I directed her to psychology today, that’s where I found both my therapist and my pdoc. I hope she goes through with it. She also gave some specifics about where she’d like to live, ie not far from work and ground floor.

We’re gonna have dinner with my brother and SIL on Thursday to plan (if they don’t cancel) so I’ll let them know what she wants and where we should start looking. There’s a brand new 55+ community nearby that might work if she can get a ground floor apartment, however there are also elevators if she’s willing to do that. We’ll see.

wfc, that walk will be...HOT. What time?

We're now predicted to be 99 tomorrow. Uggghhh. Good thing I love to drink water.

I don't blame you one bit for being anxious about your son's upcoming surgery. I'd be a wreck, too. But you have the correct perspective...gotta be "Mom."

Good on you for holding to your boundary about DMV. I sure do hope your brother and SIL come through Thursday.

Ohhhh, if only your mom would find a therapist that she bonds with! How wonderful would that be?!

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Originally Posted by Nammu I’ll send you some of our cold air Saturday. Supposed to down to the 50’s again.

Good night, lady! That's just too cold. Why is May being naughty

Oh yes it sure will be hot lol! It’s 5k too, AND at 1pm! I dunno if we’ll make it the full 5k, honestly, but we’re gonna try! RS has one of those camel backpacks and we have a cooler backpack that we can put a couple of ice packs and water bottles in. And cool showers upon return home!

Starting to feel if I show up tomorrow she won't let me go home.

I looooove Benny & joon! It’s a shame about raisins..

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I don't like surgery. I get bad post op depression. I wanted top surgery since I was 10 yeah. So that was worth it. But I got severe post op depression that seemed like it changed my personailty and it lasted from October until the end of the year. I literally did not recgonize myself afterwards and its partially what caused the rupture between me and my transference T and landed me in IOP in December 2020. The revision surgery in June 2021 also caused post op depression. I mean the end results were great but I endured hell after those 2 surgeries both physically and emotionally. The hystorectomy last October was ok though. But this thyroid nodule has got to go. It is driving my anxiety up the wall and it is causing so much distress for me. Especially at night when I am lying down and I feel it every time I swallow. It is just driving me insane, they have to remove it either by surgery or some other way because I can't live with it. So hopefully they call tommorow and I am going to stick up for myself and demand they do something about it. And if I get post op depression or post procedure depression or whatever so be it.

I can only imagine how uncomfortable that must be! Please hold your ground and do stick up for yourself

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Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87 I looooove Benny & joon! It’s a shame about raisins..

Oh, yes...those poor raisins...

Okay, Christina. I got transfixed watching the trial, lol. Amber Heard has a nice voice, and that's all the good I have to say about her. She does not sit well with me. I'm not saying Johnny is a saint; he's had a drug and alcohol addiction since he was a kid. That can't be easy to live with. But I do believe he's honest, and a genuine person. And he is so freakin' talented. She's a dime a dozen.

David's family is having the annual family gathering on June 11th. We meet every year at the park that's named after his dad (his dad was city manager for decades and did tons of community service work). The gathering is fun. I'll miss Noah and Kim being there, though - I believe they'll be in the Swiss Alps at that time. And although Nastassya (Nah-stahs-ya - my daughter) will be nearby in June, the chance that she'll attend is extremely slim. Makes me so terribly sad.

But David's family are very calming people to be around.

My 41st high school reunion will be in September. I love our reunions! High school was a fabulous time in my life. The late '70's were a crazy time, but sure was a blast to be in high school during those years. And our music was extraordinary! When I graduated in '81 the whole world had changed. Reagan had become president and everything had shut down to repression.

Daisies kids

I’ve been having chest pain and shortness of breath. I haven’t always taken good care of myself. I just hope and pray that everything is in good order and they don’t tell me that something is X% blocked and needs immediate surgery. Being a worrywart I guess.

I’ve been off Ritalin and caffeine for days now. My thoughts and brain feel dull. I even got off the phone early with a friend because my mind is a blank. After my test, I will head for Starbucks. I think I may quit the Ritalin but not the caffeine. I don’t take too much caffeine. Enough that I notice when I don’t have it though.

Whoo hoo! Vacation in less than two weeks! Looking forward to it. A change of scenery and no care giving responsibilities will be awesome. Hello beach! Here I come!

I enjoyed having the door open this morning. It was a refreshing 56 and my chipmunk friend visited me briefly. Looking forward to some good Wild Berry tea and sitting on the deck in peace after the 2 hour test is concluded.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

I do hope everything is ok!!! Those symptoms are extremely scary.

I had the same thing but mine turned out to be anxiety. I didn’t recognize it as such because I hadn’t had anxiety attacks in so long.

I hope it’s nothing serious even if it’s not anxiety! Stress can cause so many physical symptoms. Try not to worry too much although I know it’s very difficult.

I’m glad you’re excited for your vacation! You seriously deserve it!

No problem. It’s not as good as Seroquel (nothing really is in my opinion) but I hope it can give you some relief.

According to a psych I had years ago it’s the anaesthesia that causes the depression. I had 2 surgeries a few months apart when I was 28 and got depressed but it’s weird I’ve had 2 more in the past couple of years and didn’t get it. Maybe it’s also an age thing? I’m about 10yrs older than you are. Anyway hope you get the nodule sorted without getting depressed!

I've heard the anaesthesia thing as well and I've also heard the more surgeries you've had the easier of a recovery you'll have.

Yeah, I'm normally one to let doctors make their own decisions since I figure they know whats best. I'm not one to be pushy if they think something is unecessary. But I am going to demand they take this thing out because of all the stress its causing me.

The test results were bad. Much worse then we thought actually. I am currently sitting in the recliner trying not to panic. My mom contacted my aunt. My mom hasn't contacted my sister because she is pregnant and we don't want to stress her out. I'm just waiting for the ENT doctor to call. Hopefully I can get in today. I feel like I've been training my whole life for this. Even my mom said it might be cancer and she is always the one who says I'm being a hypocrondiac and an over thinker. She is just telling me not to panic right now since we don't know anything.